In Process Podcast

Food is not the real issue here - control, shame, numbness, and inherited family patterns are.

Beth and Al open up about the hidden ways disordered eating has shaped their lives, and the ceremony that changed everything.

What begins as a raw conversation about restrictive eating, bingeing, fasting, and food obsession quickly turns into something deeper: a look at how women learn to use food to cope, disappear, stay small, or stay “in control.”

Beth shares how a childhood shaped by separation, stress, and her mother’s own eating habits led to years of anorexia, chewing and spitting, and relentless self-judgment.

Al shares the opposite end of the spectrum - growing up around abundance, using food to numb, and later trying to control her body through diets, performance, and orthorexia.

You’ll hear:

• Why a three-day Sundance ceremony became a turning point for Allyson
• How “feeling empty” can actually create clarity, intuition, and self-connection
• The family dynamics, trauma, and scarcity fears underneath disordered eating
• Why shame loses power when it gets named out loud
• How partners can support healing without pressure, fixing, or judgment

Beth and Allyson also unpack the language of “good” and “bad” food, the exhaustion of constant calculating, and the moment they each realized they were done being prisoners to their bodies.

Along the way, they get honest about alcohol, anxiety, fasting, emotional avoidance, and the surprising ways a relationship can become a mirror for healing.

This episode is especially for anyone who has ever felt trapped in cycles around food, body image, control, or comparison - and for anyone who loves someone walking that path. It is candid, compassionate, and deeply human, with the reminder that there is always another choice, another day, and another way back to yourself.

If you need a conversation that feels less like advice and more like being seen, this one is for you.

This is Part 2 of the story of how we met, fell in love, and ultimately chose to build a life together.

We pick up right where we left off: the moment we could no longer deny that something was happening between us.

But acknowledging the connection was only the beginning. Allyson was still married and navigating an open relationship, Beth and Allyson had to finally name what was happening between them, and none of us knew where it was all going to lead.

In this episode, we continue sharing the messy, tender, complicated truth of how our relationship began and the conversations and choices that changed everything.

If you haven't listened to Part 1 yet, start there first.

And as always, we'd love to hear from you. What resonated? What challenged you? What sparked something in you? Reach out and tell us.

Because none of us have it all figured out. We're all In Process.

— Beth + Allyson

To love fully means risking everything - heartbreak, transformation, and ultimately, freedom.

In this captivating episode, Beth and Allyson share their raw, honest journey from strangers to soulmates, revealing how love can shatter your world and rebuild you anew.

You’ll discover how the visceral feeling of connection defies logic, and why trusting love means letting go of fear, even when it threatens to break everything apart.

When Allyson walked into a yoga studio, everything changed - both their lives and their understanding of love. We break down:

• The spontaneous moment that sparked an undeniable heart connection
• The role of vulnerability and honesty in transforming friendship into something fiercely romantic
• How hidden fears surface when love pushes beyond societal expectations
• The importance of listening to your inner knowing -despite the pain at hand
• The sacred act of trusting love’s unpredictable unfoldings, even when it shatters illusions
  You’ll gain not just a window into their story but a blueprint for embracing love’s wild, human journey. Whether you're questioning a relationship, seeking courage to follow your heart, or simply intrigued by love's rawer edge, this episode offers an unfiltered look at what it truly means to surrender and trust in love’s eternal process.

Perfect for anyone daring to believe in love beyond fear, it’s a compelling reminder that the greatest growth often emerges from the heartache we’d rather avoid. If you're on the edge of risking everything for love, or just curious about love’s messy yet sacred nature, this episode is your invitation to step into the process.

Welcome to the very first episode of In Process.

In this conversation, we introduce ourselves, share the story behind the podcast, and explore why we believe you don't have to wait until you've "arrived" to begin living, creating, or sharing your truth.

We talk about our relationship, navigating a same-sex marriage, parenting a teenager with autism, embracing life's transitions, and what it means to stay open in the messy middle of being human.

This isn't a podcast about having all the answers.

It's about living the questions.

We're so grateful you're here. Welcome to In Process.