Very real, honest talk about the constant problem - WHAT AM I DOING??!!! Connection for this epsiode is for the people also having any kind of doubt about the current path they are on. I almost feel disheartened that after such a long wait to do this masters course, it just doesn't feel right.

Not feeling at home in my head as of late.

today has definitely been one of those 'testing' days of chaos. I feel as though after a binge my fuse has been tripped and the recovery is a gruelling process. My head is scrambled as I struggle to make decisions or think clearly.

Audio isn't as clear!

I am NOT a birthday person. In the way that, I get very sad when birthdays happen. Yes, I love the reflection aspect. But it feels like almost a hallmark of where you 'should' be in life.

I discussed my need to escape for my birthday. I talk about my love for having slowness in my life and what that brings to me. Self reflection question is definitely one of my faves!

Been a hooooot minute since I have done a catch-up episode. With Uni life throwing some nice routine into my life and having a purpose for learning is giving me such a moral boost for me!

Dating right now is SO FUN! meeting a lot of fun people and mainly focusing on NATO - listening to episode.

Finding your core in your 20s needs to be a priority not just NOW but throughout youthroughoute life - what is spare time for you?

TW: EATING DISORDERS

house sharing is pretty much now completely normal (and almost) very expected when aged between 18+. I think house sharing (for anyone) but especially for autistic people is HARD! really and truly hard. Because home is the grounding space for a lot of our quirks and ways we need. It is a lot of pressure to have when living with strangers.

Please note - this is completely my opinion based and I am NOT saying I am perfect. This is an honest account of what one person with autism feels like.

this piece was for a storytelling spoken word night on 19th October which was my FIRST-ever speaking event. Excited and also very fearful (which ironically) was the theme of the night; FEAR.

To not talk about running when doing a mental health podcast would honestly be a crime towards something that has saved me time and time again. Running is my mental health friend and companion and I really wouldn't know a Martha version without running in my life. I hold it so precious to me.

This is to honour the fact I am about to race in the Amsterdam Marathon and when I am 22 miles in I need to remind myself why I love and need running in my life.

I have written a looooot about running and why for me, its been the only consistent mental health coping mechanism that actually WORKs

https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/blog/my-brain-would-be-broken-without-burpees

https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/blog/reasons-to-run

https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/blog/are-you-a-real-runner

https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/blog/running-for-dummies

https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/blog/areyouarealrunner

This sparked from my last episode. The answer is. No answers at all. The inside voice within got me to question this because of how much I am interacting with different/new groups. I like how my inside voice will make me question. Not to create problems, but to get to know me on a deeper level than many others.

Martha's Mind https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/

I think to talk about mental health, you have to address the elephant in the room that no one will ever see, ask or speak about.

Blog post - https://www.marthasmind.co.uk/blog/internalloneliness

i was inspired by an old blog post of mine. I hadn't read this in some years (written in 2019). Reflection has been such a useful tool for me, I often try to be as present as possible in order to help manage my feelings. But every now and again I do make dedicated time to look back and able to see the progress I've made.

Original blog post - A letter to my 16 year old self