More recording myself on multiple hits of acid. As expected, this one turns out for the unexpected. And not in a good way.

• Not in a baaad way either.
• Just in its own way.

The way I can turn an attempt to apologize for regularly derailing my thought trains so much that circuitous tail chasing of non-sequitor conclusions is what most listeners suffer - I turn that moment of self-reflection into another derailment that so completely wrecks the train you'll feel pain from the incident. Especially for any GenZeez among us.

1. Ha!
2. As if!

As for the Boomers, the X-ers and even any Millennials... proceed only if disappointment is your goal. Otherwise you have to be able to find something better to do with your time than spend any of it messing around with this episode. Right?

Yes. Right.

Again, you've been warned.

AGAIN.

It's you I'm talking to here...

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• Episode 31 of 53

Over 70 minutes of me diatribing in this one and it's only now, as I craft my description, that I realized I never even discussed the topic on which I planned to focus. It was to be the bulk of the episode and I forgot all about it. I wish I could say I'm in a state of disbelief that such a disconnect could even happen...

but we all know better.

Even you, new face that you are around here. You should know that 65.126% of the 506 episodes recorded prior to today's suffered the same fate.

Am I surprised?

1. Nope.
2. Not at all.

These stumblenbumblen efforts of mediocre thought tangenting get so snarled and disjointed by WtF distraction after WtF distraction that any conclusions I reach rarely apply to the point of interest I raised originally. So much so that you might think never finishing a thought is in fact a feature. Not a bug.

Which should be enough for you to abandon this ship asap. Forget you let it get this far. It's the best decision you can make for yourself given your overall frailty as a homo sapien sapien.

• You know I'm right... right?

Yet here you are, still reading this useless, unrelated-to-the-episode description hoping to figure out if a listen is in order... right?

1. Nope.
2. Not at all.

Less than 15 minutes into it you won't be able to deny you're wasting your time.

Get to the half-hour mark and you'll be forced to admit that I still haven't made a point of any value or framed an issue in a way that resonated with you..

• Trust me.

Or don't.

I'm not one to tell you how to live your life. Listen to all of it on repeat, forever, if your superior constitution wants a challenge. I'm not your mother. You owe me zero respect whatsoever. Your respect is not why I'm here.

1. Nope.
2. Not at all.

For this particular lifetime, I'm only here to help.

Simple.

While being as kind and understanding as I can possibly be in every action I initiate, whether meticulously planned or completely spontaneous.

Still simple.

Outcomes on Earth v867.5309 are chaotic and random by design, so forgiving myself, as well as you, the CIA, Catholic priests, whoever turned in Luigi Mangione, Jeffrey Epstein, the YouTube censors, Wall Street bankers, the Royal Family, dirty cops, Anthony Fauci and any other homo sapien sapien whose results were so heinous they threatened to permanently stain humanity's soul... that is also part of the deal.

Still simple.

Whether done purposefully, magnanimously, unthinkingly, maliciously, naively, faithfully, recklessly, legally, passively, underhandedly, disrespectfully, repeatedly, valiantly, responsively, defensively, ineptly, unawaredly or even accidentally - matters not at all to me - my response is the same: find a path to forgiveness in all situations.

No exceptions.

Have I killed your momentum to proceed here?

...?

...???!!

You did say yes didn't you?!??

?!?!?!!??!

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• Episode 30 of 53

This weekend has been on my radar since the beginning of November.

In December it grew even more ominous with my father's passing.

Then, over the past 3 weeks, this weekend's disruptive potential escalated into the mythical.

1. For me.
2. And just for me.
3. Not for you.
4. I shouldn't think.

Other people, you for instance, are getting through this weekend without a second thought about humanity's destiny and the meaning derived from overcoming the obstacles suddenly thrust into our collective lives this century.

In fact the angst I work through in this recording is uniquely mine. Mostly because I'm the only knucklehead capable of tripping into this particular mud puddle of misinterpretation... but for other reasons too.

• As such, it's time you found something better to do with your life than listening to this episode don't ya think?

If you, mistakenly, decide to proceed, well... your opinion of me will surely diminish.

1. And likely of yourself as well.

Do you really want to take that chance?

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• Episode 29 of 53

Yeah, I'm back.

And yeah I'm pissed.

And yeah life has dipsy-doodled my flighty ass all over the place...

• and yeah that doesn't feel so good.

But that's nothing compared to the bad behavior the boys are up to...

• oy vey!

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• Episode 28 of 53

Let's get one thing straight here... this recording is mediocre. Undeniably. Totally my fault. But there it is.

1. Got it?
2. Okay.

Of course, if that's your thing, and if you're an American I expect it likely is... feel free to proceed.

For anyone else - you've been warned.

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• Episode 27 of 53

I'm back in solo form here.

Reluctantly.

• All thanks to...
• my stupid Android phone.

I hate to admit this publicly, but I don't know if this droid is the droid I'm looking for.

I know society thinks we're perfect together. Building forever's foundation hand in hand 60/60/24/7/365/9.2. I hear the encouragement from all you happily connected phoners.

I hear how well it's working out for everyone around me, Well, mostly when you decide to look up and talk to me. So yeah... I'll be over there waiting...

Still... I've got serious doubts. I'm sure now that this is not the partner I want in life. In fact, I may be done with wireless phones entirely. I know I'm close.

And yes.

I'm being serious.

• For once.

The "reach out and touch someone" relationship just ain't what it used to be. Amirite AT&T?

• Hell yeah I am.

AT&T knows I'm right

And you know it too.

• So quit pretending you don't!

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• Episode 26 of 53

Finally! AMiRite?

• OhYesiAm.

Not that things didn't happen exactly when they were supposed to - I get all that and don't want to seem unclear about how life's meandering meanings are built from within.

• But, to say I've been hotly anticipating this one is truly the understatement of the year.

And it's been one surreal year.

AMiRite?

• OhYesiAm.

So it is with the untethered zest of someone who should watch out for all the overtalking they did in this recording that I welcome you to hear from the only person I know on this planet willing to call me her friend.

As allies go, this one's a rising sun.

AMiRite?

• OhYesiAm.
• Oh. Yes. I. Am.

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• Episode 25 of 53

All right, awl right, all write.

• (No coypright infringement intended, even if implied).

Hello universe!

How are we doing?

• Outstandingly?

Booyah.

It must be the weather.

• Fall is so awesome.

I all but forget about October's grandeur, its spectacle of transitions through the pallette of Earth tones we're all treated to once a year...

• until it's here.

Like right now. Again.

Booyah.

• And let's not forget to wish everyone a happy 501!
• Me included!!

In celebration of starting a new half-millenium here at It's All My Fault, I'm going to go find a pair of old Levi's 501 jeans that, even though I still love enough to wear, should have been turned into shorts a long time ago.

• And go agead and just get that done.

Because 85 degrees on October 5 is about as good as life gets!

• And OBVIOUSLY that kind of harmony demands a new pair of shorts!

Boo.

• Yah.

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• Episode 24 of 53

I must admit the persistence of my absence was a bit disconcerting ...toward the end.

For I was convinced that a recording would emerge as the "by default" choice to rise to the lofty perch of episode 500 of this project I've dubbed It's All My Fault. At least mostly convinced... mostly.

1. And obviously that took a while.
2. Seriously. A while...

At least a helluva lot longer than I would have guessed.

• But I've never been good with the time.
• As everyone
• Every
• One
• Who knows me will attest.

That my faith paid off here helps explain all my failed attempts at forcing episode 500. Waaay too much to get into now, but don't worry... do not you worry... worrynotyoudo.... k?

Because, as it turns out, it was going to take as long as it took to arrive at this point of the simulation.

Can't rush destiny amirite? Fukcyesiam.

So so so much more to say, but I'll save it for episode 501 while avoiding the onslaught of Levi's puns my brain keeps cycling through.

As always, I appreciate you all.

But in this one, I have an extra scoop of appreciation for:

1. Emmo the Bemmo

My one and only little sister.

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• Episode 23 of 53

Chop suey again? Is this really the new routine?

1. Um... maybe?
2. I mean it has been a while.
3. Not that you care.
4. We're both aware that you have innumerable better things you could be doing with your life instead of listening to me butcher the english language while losing my train of thought in a conversation I'm having only with myself.
5. Repeatedly.

Don't you?

1. Of course you do.
2. Which has me curious
3. What are you doing finishing this?
4. ???

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• Episode 22 of 53