Today, I have changed the story that I have been telling myself to realize that I am enough, JUST as I am. I have been saying this for a few years, it's my mission on my website, but I didn't really understand what it full meant, and now I do.

With 30 Days of Love with Amy Leo and Intention Inspired we have been weaving our way through the intentions of I am Enough and I am Unbroken.

I've been so grateful for this because as these deeper truths sink in I am able to not only re-create my own story, but also re-create the world I am birthing through Crown Jewels: Book One, and it feels immensely good.

I've realized that there waves of grief.

Yesterday, I was feeling so good!

I had done a burning ritual and released stuff with the full moon, but today? Today I woke up sad. I woke up sad and feeling really lonely.

I was sad and a bit upset with myself. "Why am I not fully healed yet? Why isn't this heartache gone? I thought I had released it all!!"

But I'm learning to not judge myself for these feelings that I am allowing to surface, to hold myself. To love myself. To know that they are temporary and will pass.

But it's a cycle, and what I connected to today strongly, is that I need to really know that I am enough, even when I'm caught up in the waves of grief, that I am enough. Just as I am.

I feel like I'm emerging, the phoenix rising from the ashes. Last nights Full Moon was a POWERFUL release for me, literally I felt like I was releasing WAY more than just my own story.

Wanted to capture an update in my latest podcast which also houses my reflections in my podcast.

I speak about how I feel like I'm actually moving through this grief cycle (and it feels so good!). How I'm never going to truly feel "ready" and that living a wholeheartedly means embodying that and being willing dive in even when there is no control over the outcome.

The embrace I now have of my vulnerability, still makes me uncomfortable, but at the same time, every single time I lean into the discomfort and speak authentically from the heart and in my truth, I feel powerful.

And how I'm unashamed.

PS. I'm convinced that if I ever met Brené Brown in real life, we would be BFF's. I truly love her. Her work has inspired me for YEARS now and was what first opened me up to breaking down some the armor/barriers I had in my heart.

PPS. If you have any interest in joining 30 days of Love this month, just reach out!

Sending love and light to you all

Today I felt compelled to explore the idea of unconditionally loving myself. I realized that that is why 30 days of Love is surfacing so much for me. It's about truly understanding what that really means.

Update on the podcast with my current moment in time. I've realized I'm going to use my podcast to record my thoughts throughout the journey, and my blog/youtube once I feel like I've reached the A-HA moment (this might shift though, but its how I'm feeling right now)

I've come to the realization that my most recent heartbreak and the deep dive that I'm doing in 30 Days of love has nothing to do with anyone else but me. It's about me learning how to truly love myself.

If you would like to join the journey you can find out more about it here:

https://intentioninspired.com/join-love/

I loved the reflection today on the role of the ego. I have been turned off by many spiritual teachers and programs with the idea that the ego is something that is "bad" and needs to be "mastered" or even "killed."

For me, personally, I find ease and peace with the idea learning to love my ego, to appreciate it's desire to want to protect and also it's desire to be seen and heard. Learning to come into a healthy relationship and balance with my ego has been key and it's something that I work on and work through pretty much daily.

Two things have surfaced for me today as I have been exploring the idea of humility.

1. The idea of having a healthy relationship and really loving and appreciating my ego/mind.

2. Teal Swan's words are coming to mind here and are what I experienced when completing the deeper dive as well as reading Amy's thoughts - that "to love someone is to take them on as yourself." Meaning to see yourself within them, to relate to and connect into them and see them within you. It's a little trickier when triggered, but magical when that switch can happen.

Also, my words have absolutely been failing me these days, because so much of what I have been feeling is well "feeling" (that's the closest way I can think to describe it), so I'm hoping I'm articulating this well.

Oh - and a deep love and appreciation for Amy Leo, that's super present for me right now as well.

You can sign up for 30 Days of Love here: https://intentioninspired.com/join-love/

You can sign up to subscribe to my blog/website here: https://www.justmariakv.com

There is so much going on in my current moment that it's been hard for me to find words for it, but I am trying.

At the base of it all is an expansion of my level of consciousness that has been caused by awakening and stirring within my heart, but I'm in a bit of awe and wonder at everything that seems to be coming in at this current moment in time.

During this episode, I realized that what is allowing me to make peace with all of the uncertainty that's showing up in my life - is when I'm able to get that moment of trust.

Trusting in myself, but also trusting in the fact that I am not going through this alone.

Felt the pull to start recording my life and the authentic moments within it, so this the second episode of me doing just that.

For more details on me:  

My Blog is here: www.justmariakv.com/blog  

Website is here: www.justmariakv.com  

The email I read was from a woman called Katie Stone at Ubuntu Wellness Y

ou can find out more about her here: https://www.ubuntuwellness.net/

I'm starting to realize that recording this podcast is really going to require a level of bravery, vulnerability and authenticity that I need to have the courage to do.

This is the first episode of me speaking my truth.