I remember the day not too long ago when these walls met the ceiling right at the break where coagulation had sprawled. my then girlfriend, she had escaped from some man who thought he was tall. he couldn't get me into his "A-frame", he didn't like that shit at all. she was a freak, she made it clear--ain't no inhibitions up in here; ain't no hit-or-miss up in here, it was up to him and he was in her ear. instead we just waited--he was a prick. he'd piss her off, and then she would dip. we'd hit the pools that Kendrick would swim in.
we'd get off...
I thought it was lit....
(His ass was gone in a minute--our eight years, that was the beginning--a flash in the pan)...
That's not the way I felt when some big-dick motherfucker did that exact shit to me, back.
I spent the better part of the last decade pretending behavior like that was alright. I should have come to him right from the start, said, "I fucked your girl. I don't respect you. let's FIGHT."
I just wanted to let you know, I made it here, I'm safe..
Four words said in surrender ended twenty years of pain.
everything that I thought sounded so crazy when I was high--once I got off, to my surprise, I did some detective work, I was right. it was about as bad as I thought--
No, it was notit was way worse.
it's that right -in front of your face, shit, you feel hatred, the shit hurts.
adolescence was pain--but that was expected by your team, right?
I believe really you mean(t) right, but you see the way that they be, right? You knew right there from the moment you let Guy "Epstein" your "Maxwell"--you signed three different death certificates, ****, their mitts be like, "Thanks, well"
Now that I've come of age, I see that you raised me from your grave.
it's just one of the many miracles for which I never prayed ❤️
I've found the privilege of giving assistance to both of the strongest women I know; Two baddie bitches each kicking the teeth of addiction in,
only Queens live in my world 👑
I just want you to know, though heavy lies the crown you bore, now that I am a man, I'll adorn it with the colors that you wore.
I just wanted to let you know, I made it here, I'm safe.
four words said in surrender, ended twenty years of pain.
For you, mom.
I miss you so much.
I'm trying to make you proud.