This season finale conversation is between all 8 colLaborators, in the very final moments of our time together in the Lab.

We wander together through reflection on what this experience was to us, who we were to each other, and what our early experiment findings have been. 

Thank you, listeners, for being a part of our process in this alchemical season!

What’s to come from this temporal collective of artists in the near and far future? Will there be another season of lab partners? Will the colLaboratory run its experiment again with new scientists? We’re excited to find out with you. 

If you loved Lab Partners, we’d love to know. Leave a rating and review, drop a comment, tag us on IG, or send an email to [email protected] to be shared with the group. 

Find out more about ColLaboratory and each of the 8 Lab Partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labparters. There you’ll find our astrology, designs, little bits of bios, and information about how to be in connection with each of us through our work.

Maru and Amalia step into the terrains of death, dying, and the small and large endings that shape a life. They explore fear, desire, grief, and ego-shedding, inviting listeners into an inquiry of why we might compulsively push death away and what becomes possible when we don’t. 

Topics explored include:

• Feeling “close to death” and the clarity, emptiness, or non-narrative states that accompany those seasons
• Aging, mortality, and the wisdom available when we stop resisting the inevitability of death
• Suicidality and the cultural and pathological perspectives that shape how we relate to death
• Ancestral contact and thinning veils in emotional, spiritual, and philosophical proximity to death
• The relationship between death, desire, and impermanence, and the generative potential of letting go
• Non-physical experiences of death: ego deaths, initiations, psychedelic states, chosen pain, kink, and microdosed endings
• Astrological and Human Design references to difference in calibrating to death and dying: the water signs, fear motivation, the undefined spleen

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Maru is a 6/2 Sacral Generator, Leo Rising with Sun in Cancer and Moon in Virgo
• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator, Taurus Rising with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Pisces

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

In this intimate conversation, Amalia and Eréndira explore the emotional, spiritual, and communal dimensions of resource. What emerges through their inquiry is a nuanced transmission around nourishment, trust, and the future of reciprocity beyond transactional norms.

Here is some of what they touch upon together:

• The solar plexus as a bridge between spirit and form: reconnecting body, spirit, and resource
• Trusting the absence of creative flow and resource flow as sacred guidance, too.
• The relationship between money and community
• The contradiction of being abundantly resourced while simultaneously experiencing poverty
• A tender moment in early relationship around value, worth, and exchange
• Differentiated abundance: complexifying value and exchange
• The Queen of Pentacles embodied and as a guide 
• Reciprocity beyond transaction
• Nourishment as the core question: what feeds each person? what feeds the relationship? how can exchange be mutually nourishing?

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator, Taurus Rising with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Pisces
• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor, Leo Rising with Sun in Taurus and Moon in Pisces

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

In this candid conversation, Kelsey and Eréndira take a retroactive look at their experiences in the projection field of community, sharing early takeaways from the coLaboratory experiment and what it revealed about belonging, leadership, and differentiation.

Some of the threads woven together throughout include:

• Belonging beyond homogenization: differentiation as the basis for connection and community
• Queering the binary of belonging or not
• Spirit as it lives in the individual vs. as understood by the tribe and collective
• Deconstructing leadership, flattening hierarchy, and releasing expectation around role and contribution
• Getting what you wanted and still feeling unmet as a doorway to liberation
• World-building, cross-pollination, and gridwork through intimate conversation

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Here’s an unfiltered peek into what’s happening Behind Closed Auras. ColLaboratory’s four manifestors lovingly and unapologetically invite you into this conversation about the felt mechanics, psychological burden, peace, and rage they experience moving through the world with their weird auras and initiatory capacities. 

Eréndira, Kelsey, Steph, and Quinn discuss:

• The tension between not wanting to pressure others, resistance to impact, and the burden of managing others’ responses to our initiations 
• Energetic hygiene and the slippery slope from initiation to response
• The cancerous nature of obligation based communications and manifestor “ghosting” as a stop to it’s growth
• The mechanics of non-sacral bodies & sacral amplification: how manifestors can take in too much sacral energy and burn out, but also how this over-capacity is part of the initiatory mechanic itself.
• Closed-aura protection + psychological conditioning: The paradox of being energetically protected yet psychologically over-conditioned; the “slow-drip barrage” of response demands on a closed aura.
• Manifestation as initiation; the body leading, not the mind; being “at the mercy” of timing and urges.
• The importance of not taking our cyclical absence as manifestors personally 
• Differentiated “urges” - how the process of feeling and acting on urge/initiation differs in every single individual manifestor 
• Surrender to form & cosmic timing: Trusting the body’s timing, surrendering the mind’s expectations, and the spiritual dimension of manifestor initiation.

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor
• Steph is a 2/4 Emotional Manifestor 
• Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Buckle up for a heady one. Quinn and Kelsey put their minds together to investigate the terrain of victimhood. Parts of this conversation might feel a little inaccessible to those with less fluency in the nuances of the Human Design system. Lean into the mental stimulation, or let it wash over you!

Your Victimhood Psychopomp hosts discuss:

• The distinction between victim-y feelings and victim consciousness
• The relationship between early childhood trauma and ones tethers to victimhood
• The shift from “why did this happen?” to “what is here?”
• Feelings of victimhood as normal, transient states
• Awareness as psychopomp: traveling between realms inside and outside of victimhood
• Using human design as a tool for understanding our differentiated experiences in victimhood: intersections between undefined centers, emotional waves, signatures themes, and rave psychology
• Finding softness in the inevitable experience of victimhood 

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

In this conversation, Quinn joins Amalia’s weekly talk show, One Foot on the Roof. It wasn’t evident during the exchange that this conversation would be a Lab Partners episode or that it would be shared at all, so the vibe is cozy, intimate, and even more behind the scenes than usual. 

Enjoy this generous access to two friends digging into some potent exploration of:

• The quantum effect of observation: exploring how recording a conversation shifts the field and the desire to blur the line between relaxed intimacy and public sharing
• The value of sharing from and witnessing in the emotional low, the mess, the weeds, the not knowing 
• How caveats can function as pre-emptive defenses against being misunderstood, dismissed, or corrected 
• The spiral staircase of emotional processing - Is it possible to forget the ground we’ve covered?
• Challenging anti-venting narratives: Venting as connection and release 
• Possibilities in what we can offer and what we can receive in inviting each other into our emotional processes and stories 
• The false binary of emotions verses consciousness

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator 
• Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

Tune into Amalia's show "One Foot on the Roof" at amaliaarts.com/talk-show

💖 New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Metabolizing Shame: The World is Burning and We are Creating

Nic, Kelsey, and Amalia take advantage of the trust established amongst them to observe and digest their experiences of Shame when it comes to prioritizing their joy, creativity, peace, and satisfaction, even as the World Burns.

This is a raw and powerful conversation offering listeners an opportunity to challenge the black and white narratives that keep them in a disempowered freeze state and to calibrate to new conceptualizations that carry potential for real transformation. 

They discuss:

• Shame, Fear & Safety: how shame arises, how fear underlies it, and what conditions and capacities allow it to be metabolized rather than suppressed.
• Reflections on proximity to harm and the shame of being privileged while others suffer
• Creative Integrity in Crisis: staying connected to joy, art, and personal well being “while the world is burning.”
• The contrast between genuine embodied care and the social-media / shame based pressure to perform grief, outrage, or political awareness.
• Attunement vs. Shoulds: distinguishing inner guidance from the mental “should” voices that dictate what one ought to feel or do in the face of violence and oppression 
• Self-attuned Creative Living as a political and spiritual act.
• The fear of being exiled and the role of self rejection in the current State of things

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Nic is a 4/6 Sacral Generator with Probability View
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with Power View
• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator with Personal View

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

This one is a real real real behind the scenes. Listen in on colLaboratory’s manifestors checking in during a moment of anger and perceived scarcity. Kelsey, Steph, Erendira (& briefly Quinn!) recorded a conversation about the sometimes-tension between relaxed, generous initiation and sustainable resourcing.

Together, they relax into layered feelings about:

• Moments of contraction, anger, and scarcity in their processes with initiation & resource
• The difference between selling beginnings versus selling completion or consumption
• The “self-responsibility binary” and the trap of emphasizing internal alchemy over expression of whats present 
• Capitalism’s incompatibility with differentiation in general and specifically with the manifestor’s rhythm
• The collective need for new economic imaginations
• The possibility of re-valuing wisdom, rest, and presence as currencies
• How creative experiments like colLaboratory model alternative structures of exchange 

And more. 

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with Power View
• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with Personal View
• Steph is a 2/4 Emotional Manifestor with Possibility View

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

 Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

In this conversation, Amalia, Noah, and Kelsey trace the currents of emotional alchemy. Through reflection on their somatic experiences with grief, relief, heartache, breakthrough, relationship, and surrender, they dive deep with each other and with listeners in exploring:

• The solar plexus as both energy and awareness: how feelings transform through embodiment and time
• What defines a “breakthrough” moment, and how story-making, timing, and inner authority may shape that process
• Dehomogenizing the “feel your feelings” orientation
• Identifying where emotions live in and move through the body as they arrive and integrate
• What is grief? Where does it live in the body? 
• Relational Safety and Emotional Maturity: how we can feel whether someone has done their own alchemy, and how that sensing informs whether it’s safe to bring all of our parts to our relationship with them

And lots more. 

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator with the Moon in Pisces
• Noah is a 1/4 Splenic Projector with the Moon in Taurus
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with the Moon in Sagittarius

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo