Conversations about grief and our loved ones who have passed away.

I wanted to give others (and myself) a platform where they can talk about their grief, something society is not comfortable doing (yet), and where they can also talk their hearts out about their loved ones who have died.

In October 2021 I lost my only son, Paul, in a tragic solo car accident. He was only 21 and was headed to work. Before that, he had estranged from me for unknown reasons and reasons I will never know. That could've been a way for him to work out his wounds from my divorcing his dad. I'll never know. One thing for sure is that I loved Paul with all my heart, and I still do.

In my grief I find myself wanting to talk about the process, what has helped me, my struggles, the journey, and most of all I find myself wanting to talk about my son. People think that they will hurt me if they bring him up, but they won't, I want to talk about him, it's a way to keep his memory alive. But I understand that society in general is not comfortable in doing so. Only those who have experienced losses will understand you and will want to talk with you. I don't expect anyone to understand, how could they if they haven't had the same experience, and also don't want anyone to understand because if they do, it will mean they too are going through such a tragedy and I don't wish it on anyone.

So, in honor of my son Paul I created this podcast, he had a big heart and was always generous with his time in helping others. I want to make him proud, I want to help others survive their dark times, and I want to help change society's view about grief and the loss of loved ones one conversation at a time.

You can also view this conversation on my YouTube channel @deborahcortezactor.

Thanks for listening!