We tend to look for validation from the outside world, because we struggle to trust ourselves. The reason we don't trust ourselves, is simply because we don't entirely know who we are. We'd rather run to others to help us, instead of learning how to help ourselves. We are programmed to do this, and it makes us weak. Be your bestfriend because at the end of the day, no one knows you like you. Stop missing out on getting to know who you are, the person you're missing out on is someone extremely intelligent.

Letting go of past anger is not an easy task. Sometimes we are afraid of the way other people will react. Other times we may really struggle to not let our pride get in the way. Ultimately, holding on to that pain hurts us the most and letting go is the most liberating thing you can do. Send that text, go see people that you don't often see, be that person who makes the effort. You will see that in the end you are left feeling totally free.

I sit down with Francesco's best friend Mirko and talk about their early friendship and what it meant to him. We also go into what it was like hearing the news that Francesco had lost his battle with cancer and the emotions that came along with it. Lastly, we touch on his last big break up and how that was a catalyst in us forming a close friendship. Healing from a huge tragedy can be difficult, but it is so much easier when you have close friends by your side.

In this episode, I talk about my experience navigating my boyfriend's funeral and wake after his death. These are very taboo topics that not many people like touching on. This portion of life is not spoken about enough and it sucks because it's a WAY more common experience than we realize. We need to come together and allow space for these thoughts. My goal is to break this stigma. Death is a part of our lives, and we need to face this unfortunate truth, instead of running from it.

AHH my first ever interview, in my new studio, with my soul sister. Julia Robinson. My bestfriend sits down with me, and dives into her experience with grief after losing her mother to suicide at the age of 10. She takes us on the journey of what it's like living without a mother, how she handled it, and how it built her into who she is today. We then dive into my loss, and how she mastered being an amazing support through it all. I am not confident we know how to properly show up for the people we love in this world, and I want to raise awareness to how we could do a better job at being present for those we love. Truthfully, she embodies the definition of a fantastic friend. Blessed to have her on the show, and I hope her story inspires you, as much as it inspired me.

I'm glad we got to catch up Francesco, I love you. Until our souls meet again.

Sincerely,

Kaitlin

My first day navigating life without my significant other alive. 

Recently I was sitting down watching old videos of Francesco and I. I came across these specific clips of him speaking, and couldn’t stop replaying it. It’s like he was channeling all the words that I couldn’t put into sentences of how I've been feeling over the last 10 months. I thought it was a kind of foreshadowing, and frankly beautiful. The next season of my podcast is called “Finding Inner Peace” but before I start season 2, and take you guys on my inner peace journey, this last video here is for Francesco. It’s what I would say to him if someone brought him back to me for just 1 minute. It’s my goodbye. Thank you again to everyone who listened to my beautiful love story in season 1, and welcome to finding inner peace

This is the story of how Francesco and I met, and our history over the last 10 years plus. Timing is key.  Sometimes we are with the right person, but it's the wrong time. Let this story be a reminder that if it's meant to be, it WILL be.