A short little talk on personal boundaries and narcissism and some challenges on facing right now with my family of origin and having to navigate what is best for me regardless of what other people think I'm pretty much on my own.

My thoughts and insights on narcissism and codependency and boundary issues and some family dynamics that I'm trying to overcome and heal and grow and learn gaining insights on what is narcissism and how that relates to me and other people in my family and figuring out how to have high self-esteem and at the same time not be a selfish jerk etc all these different issues I think narcissism is a form of coping and a defense mechanism building yourself up to make yourself feel better because you're actually quite insecure and at the same time I'm proud of some of the self-centered things I've done just a big ball of wax that I'm talking about here!

Monologue on my current mood. Hanging out with my cat walking barefoot in Nature. Going to art model online today. Have dinner with a friend. Walk some dogs. Love the smell of plants and animals. Was near a farm yesterday and loved the smell of the goats and the pigs honestly! Focused on doing what I can do in my own life locally instead of fixating on large world events that I have no control over. But everybody should do whatever they think is best. I'm not telling anybody else what to do. I can only do what I think is best for me and other people can do what they think is best for them. Try not to get sucked into manipulation.

The power of music why I love certain vocalists so much like Tom Petty and Tori, Amos and more. The emotional intensity, the tone, the texture, the phrasing, the heart and soul that musicians put into their vocal expressions. Also really love the new Red Hot Chili Peppers song Dark summer or Black summer. What is it called? Just some of my ideas about music I've dabbled in a little music. If you go to band camp goddesskring, you can hear some of my musical vocal poetry I wrote tracks for free

Delighted by the sunny day in Seattle trying to focus on what I want to expand instead of getting caught up in anger and fear staying close to nature focused on creativity and expression and health and freedom. Delighted by my cat's beautiful orange fur in the window in the sunshine right now walking barefoot on the grass

The symbolism in a Tom Petty dream I had along with seeing a coyote and eagles flying over my head in person

Monologue about why I love Tori Amos music and synesthesia and that I gave her hand painted shoes and that I am stressed out but grateful that I'm alive trying to focus on what I'm grateful for and acknowledge how angry I am at the same time

A very intense powerful simple dream I had involving Tom Petty and Dana Petty his widow in the dream Dana had passed away but Tom Petty was still with us we shared a deep hug Julia Roberts / Erin Brock which was in the dream as well

How I'm feeling right now doors opening and door shutting both at the same time New opportunities and letting go of the past

The pros and cons of the kind of childhood I had running wild and free maybe being neglected in some ways but then again having the creative freedom to do multimedia art we lived in an art commune called evolution Art institute in Petaluma California and the Art car weekend camp out event I was in this weekend reminded me of so many things about my childhood positive and negative both.