Had such a wonderful three or four hours yesterday. Going to a cafe with two new friends of mine and drawing and making art and having a very creative improvisational conversation with these people and working on new music and art! Mixcloud.com/goddesskring I added two new tracks recently to my mixcloud! Free to listen

My current life as an art model and a pet sitter and I wrote a new poem and I met a new friend with a recording studio who's a very creative artistic person that shares synesthesia with me. We both see visual things when we hear music so we might collaborate and I've had some cool pet sitting in art modeling experiences and I just finished painting some shoes for somebody...

Kring O ling zing, Boda boo Boda Bing! Sharing about the Art car Parade I'll be in and the art fair that my art car will be in and enjoying swimming in the lake with my waterproof camera etc basic life update!

On the inspiration I feel from the musicians, Mike Campbell and Tori Amos recently went to their shows a very small intimate show at the Crocodile versus a large show at the Paramount theater in Seattle. What a striking difference! I loved both shows for different reasons and I'm inspired by musicians to keep on doing my multimedia artwork and find my own personal power through my creative expression.

My take on passionately loving certain music that other people don't like and me feeling creeped out like it's not okay for me to like music that other people don't like, which is just some kind of weird wound and the tendency towards narcissistic traits in my family which may or may not be true, but some people in my family think that and I've been criticized for that and trying to figure out what is having higher self-esteem and healthy. It seems that I like to try to communicate clearly but really no matter what I say it usually gets misinterpreted by people so I'm just doing my best to express but maybe I should just stop trying to explain myself!? boundaries for myself.

What motivates me to have compassion and empathy for both the victims of crime and criminals themselves. Trying to figure out what motivates people and me talking about the prison system in Norway and how it tends to train people to be better people so they don't end up back in prison, committing more crime. They end up being productive citizens and finding a purpose in life and having some kind of self-esteem and self-respect etc. Basically, I'm motivated to figure out what is the root cause of certain ills of society and how can we solve it? How can we make things better instead of just focusing on being a victim or blaming the bad people? Maybe we can find a way to heal and move on and make the world a better place in practical ways.

Just a little explanation of my dad and how he's inspiring in his '70s. He's a personal fitness trainer and really super fit and continues to focus on health and he's written comedy and music, folk music and just honoring the great memories I have and some cool family photos that I found of he and I that I sent to him and wrote nice messages on and just focusing on that. Instead of all the dark things happening in the world right now, I will acknowledge. There's really awful things happening in the world that are very distressing and there's also really good things happening at the same time

A little monologue about the patterns that I saw yesterday. I saw four separate little kids being well cared for by four separate adults, one on a bridge, one inside of a house in a window and two other ones that were standing in a park on a trail and then on the side of the road going to cross the street and all of these adults were thoughtfully caring for these kids in a certain way. That was very distinct and really stood out to me and I thought the pattern really. I made a note of the pattern. It was quite interesting and there was just this interesting feeling in the air of excitement and spring coming and then I've seen some beautiful Eagles high up in trees and I've done some super zoom photos of them and then I took these great self-portraits black and white of me and got some beautiful shots of my art car with neon art light sculpture reflected in my car so I'm inspired by all of that. Just wanted to share that with you guys

Just watched two documentary films on con artists and people who committed fraud, thinking about personal relationships and my own personal experience from childhood with a con artist that my mom was involved in and I dated somebody who was a con artist over 20 years ago and these two movies I just saw makes me think of all the psychological manipulation that happens today in the world in society at large with the pressure to conform and go along with things that may or may not be legit and how most people just want to believe what they're told and feel safe etc. So psychological manipulation is pretty powerful in both personal relationships because people just want to believe what they're told because that's more comfortable than acknowledging that. Maybe there's something dishonest going on and unethical going on. So this happens on a personal level and a society level so I'm just trying to keep myself awake to all of this and just live the best life that I can live with ethics and honesty as much as possible. Good luck everyone!

Some of the patterns in my family of our self-esteem and our relationship with ourselves and with the world at large feeling competitive feeling like my ego is so self-conscious and defensive and competitive and wish I could be liberated from this and focus on doing what I love with joy and letting go of the outcome