What if your complicated relationship with money has less to do with math and more to do with the stories you were never taught to question?

Michelle Malawer is a money coach for women who make good money but don’t feel in control of it. She started her own journey as a self-described hot mess in her 20s, maxing out credit cards and searching for coins in her car just to buy gas, before spending a decade in debt recovery and eventually building a practice to help other women find the solutions she wished someone had handed her when she was suffocating.

What drew me to Michelle was a single phrase she used on LinkedIn: good girl conditioning. This conversation unpacks what that means, how it shows up in the way women earn, spend, and ask for more, and what it actually looks like to build a relationship with money that feels like yours. We also get into the difference between fear and intuition when you are about to make a financial decision, what it means to be in a softer season of business, and the three questions Michelle asks before buying any course or program.

If money has always felt like something that happens to you rather than something you get to lead, this one is for you.

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Resources referenced in the show:The Art of Spending Money - Morgan HouselHow to Get Out of Debt, Stay Out of Debt, and Live Prosperously - Jerrold MundisSteve Harvey’s “300 Things I Want List Challenge”Writing the Divine - Sara WisemanThe Artist’s Way - Julia Cameron (morning pages)

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I have been a writer for over 20 years. And until 14 days ago, I had never written a single poem.

Not because I didn’t want to. Because I was afraid I would get it wrong.

This episode is the story of how a quiet afternoon at my favorite coffee shop on the pier, a word that landed on the page with a thud, and the accidental discovery that April is National Poetry Month cracked something wide open in me. I am fully, unabashedly in my poetry cringe era and I have never felt more free.

I share what happened when I finally said yes to something purely for the joy of it, why being an absolute beginner at something has been one of the most unexpectedly healing experiences of this season, what a year-long photography project I did 18 years ago taught me about slowing down enough to see the magic around you, and why I think choosing a creative expression and going all in on it every day might be one of the most radical acts of self-reclamation available to you right now.

I also have something special coming up this week that I would love for you to be a part of.

On Thursday April 16th at 9am Pacific I am hosting a free writing circle. We will open with a creativity activation and clearing, move into silent creative time, and close with an optional group share. Writers, artists, journalers, watercolorists, all welcome. If it makes your heart sing, bring it.

The link to register is below. Please share this with your creative people.

Join Write with Tiffany, the free writing circle: Register here — Thursday April 16th, 9am Pacific. One hour. Free and open to all.

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Have you ever walked into a room and immediately started reading the energy, adjusting yourself, softening your edges to make sure everyone was comfortable? If that sounds familiar, this episode is going to hit close to home.

Today, I am joined by Ally Erickson, a performance coach who left a decade-long corporate career to help deeply intuitive women stop managing perception and start living in their full authority. I met Ally through my mastermind and knew almost immediately that her work was something my audience needed to hear about.

This conversation goes deep fast. Ally shares what it actually felt like to outgrow the identity she had so carefully built in corporate, why the leap from a successful career into something truer is both terrifying and inevitable when the heart pull gets loud enough, and what she calls the sophisticated survival strategy that so many high-achieving women have been running without even realizing it.

We talk about the difference between being the thermometer in a room versus setting the thermostat, why managing perception leaks your power even when it feels like it is keeping you safe, what identity-level transformation actually looks like versus trying to change behavior on the surface, and why the reaction you have been bracing for your whole life might be exactly where your magic is waiting.

If you are a deeply intuitive woman who can read a room in seconds and has been using that gift to take care of everyone else instead of leading from your own authority, this one is for you.

Ally is also hosting a masterclass called The Cost of Managing Perception. If this conversation sparked something in you, I highly recommend registering for it using the links below.

Connect with Ally: LinkedIn: Ally Erickson Instagram: @theallyerickson Who Does She Think She Is Podcast: Listen on Spotify Register for the Masterclass: The Cost of Managing Perception

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What if the most powerful thing you could do in this moment, for yourself and for everyone around you, is simply allow yourself to be happy?

I know. It sounds almost too simple. But stay with me.

This episode started with a photo. Me at seven or eight years old, sitting on a rock with my brother and cousins, eyebrows knitted together, carrying the weight of the world on my face. And I recognized that face. I had seen it before, in other photos, across other years, and even in a photo of my mother. It stopped me cold.

What followed is a real and unscripted transmission about joy, what it means to suppress it, why so many of us learned it was not safe, and what becomes possible when you finally give yourself permission to come back to it.

In this episode I share what came through during a recent visibility exercise in my mastermind that cracked something open in me, what the emotion code heart wall removal process actually felt like from the inside including the part nobody talks about, why the concept of toxic positivity genuinely lights me up, and what I believe is the most powerful thing any of us can do right now given everything happening in the world.

This one went somewhere I did not expect. And I think it might be exactly what you need to hear today.

If something in you has been waiting for permission to be joyful, to be playful, to be the fullest expression of who you actually are, consider this your invitation.

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Mentioned in this episode: Shoshana Raven and the concept of the war on happy peopleThe Emotion Code by Dr. Bradley Nelson

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What would you do if you spent two months going all in on a business idea, followed every sign, did all the right things, and still felt nothing moving?

That is exactly where I found myself. And this episode is the honest account of what happened next.

I am Tiffany, host of the Lightworker Diaries, and I share the unfiltered experience of building a life and business that is actually aligned with who I am. No scripts, no polish, just real transmissions from someone in the middle of the becoming.

In this episode I open up about what it looks like when you are doing everything right and the energy still goes flat, the moment I declared out loud that I was no longer willing to build in scarcity, a pivot I never saw coming that lit me up from the inside out, a brand new business I just launched with my partner Dave, and why this podcast almost disappeared before I decided to keep it just for the joy of it.

If you are in a season where the path keeps shifting and you are not sure whether to trust it or quit, this one is for you.

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This week’s episode is a behind-the-scenes reflection on entrepreneurial resilience, growth edges, and the power of letting yourself be a beginner again.

I share how a moment of self-doubt and near-quitting turned into one of the most clarifying weeks I’ve had so far, and why asking for help changed everything. This is an episode about learning curves, nervous system growth, and choosing to stay in the arena even when it feels uncomfortable.

In this episode, I explore:

* Why sometimes clarity only comes after giving an experience time to settle

* Letting yourself be a beginner, even when you have decades of experience in other areas

* The difference between mastery skills and growth-edge skills, and why sales and marketing pushed on mine

* How asking for help from the right people can instantly shift perspective and momentum

* Why surrounding yourself with people who have already walked the path matters

* Reframing discomfort as a training ground rather than a signal to quit

* How past resilience practices prepared me for this season of visibility and initiation

* Remembering that growth is not linear, and learning is meant to be lived, not perfected

I close this episode with an invitation to reflect on your own growth edge. Where are you learning something new? Where might you be expecting yourself to already “know” something that you’re actually allowed to practice, stumble through, and grow into?

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In today’s episode, I unpack the pressure I’ve been feeling around time, urgency, and the belief that if I slow down, everything I’m building will disappear. What began as a conversation about business momentum revealed something much deeper: an old nervous system story that equates rest with loss, abandonment, and danger.

This is a gentle but powerful exploration of why ease can feel unsafe, even when things are working.

In this episode, you’ll hear me explore:

* Why urgency often comes from fear, not misalignment

* The difference between planting, growing, and harvesting seasons, and how they can exist at the same time in different areas of life

* How comparison to volume-based hustle models creates unnecessary pressure

* The subconscious belief that if you stop tending to something, it will be taken away

* Childhood experiences that taught me rest equals disappearance, and how that pattern followed me into business

* Reframing rest as a stabilizing force instead of a threat

* Why building from spaciousness creates a different frequency than building from force

* How trusting your nervous system’s pace can actually support long-term success

I close this episode with an invitation for you to reflect:

* Where does rest feel dangerous in your life?

* What are you afraid will disappear if you slow down?

* And what becomes possible if you trust that what you’re building is allowed to stay, even when you step back?

You are allowed to build something that lasts.

You are allowed to rest.

And you are allowed to let the unseen carry you, too.

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In this episode of The Lightworker Diaries, I share what has been surfacing as I build Wonderly Accounting and step into a new way of creating relationships, clients, and momentum. This is a behind-the-scenes look at resistance, intuition, and what happens when you stop forcing yourself to follow strategies that were never meant for you.

You’ll hear me explore:

* The internal resistance that surfaced around outreach and why it felt different from fear or procrastination

* The contrast between volume-based, bro style marketing and a relational, intuitive approach to building a business

* How fear of judgment and looking “stupid” can quietly shape how narrowly we allow ourselves to be seen

* The difference between protection rooted in fear and discernment rooted in self-trust

* Why my body physically rejected high volume outreach and what it revealed about sustainable growth

* How reaching out to just three to five people a day created an immediate energetic response from life without burnout

* The importance of listening to your body as a source of business intelligence and leadership guidance

* Why feminine, embodied leadership often asks us to slow down before it accelerates everything

This episode is an invitation to pause, place a hand on your heart, and ask a different question: What would you have me do today?

When you follow that guidance, you may find yourself on the path of least resistance, where momentum builds naturally, and the right people meet you there.

If you know a service-based founder who is building something meaningful and wants support that honors both strategy and nervous system wisdom, feel free to share this episode with them.

You can learn more about Wonderly Accounting at wonderlyaccounting.com.

Thank you for being here, and for listening with an open heart.

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There comes a moment when you realize you’re still looking around to see who is watching, who is clapping, who is validating the work you’ve done. This episode is a real-time reflection from that edge.

In this Lightworker Diaries transmission, I share what surfaced for me as I completed a major creative and business milestone and noticed the lingering desire for external applause. What followed was an uncomfortable but necessary reckoning with validation, sovereignty, and what it actually means to lead from Queen energy rather than Princess energy.

This episode is for anyone who is building something meaningful and quietly noticing the urge to be seen, affirmed, or approved of along the way.

In this episode, I explore:

* The difference between Princess OS and Queen OS, and how validation seeking shows up even at higher levels of leadership

* What it revealed when I noticed myself wanting applause after finishing a major business milestone

* Why leadership does not eliminate fear or insecurity, but teaches you how to move through them with integrity

* How external validation can quietly pull you out of service and into performance

* The moment I realized I did not need to prove my power, experience, or uniqueness in order to be effective

* Why true magnetism comes from being fully expressed rather than perfectly explained

* The cultural shift away from polished performance and toward real, lived humanity

* Questions to help you identify where you may still be performing instead of simply being yourself

Reflection invitations from this session:

* Where are you still seeking applause instead of offering it to yourself?

* What would shift if you trusted that your presence speaks louder than your proof?

* How might your work feel different if you stayed rooted in service rather than validation?

If this episode stirred something in you, you’re invited to sit with it gently. Becoming does not require perfection. It requires honesty, courage, and a willingness to stand in your own knowing.

Until next time, be true to you.

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There comes a moment in every becoming when the vision outgrows who you’ve been. In this episode of the Lightworker Diaries, I take you behind the scenes of a profound identity shift unfolding in real time. This is a conversation for anyone standing at the threshold of something bigger than they ever imagined and wondering how to meet it without burning themselves out.

In this episode, I explore:

* Why big dreams often arrive before we feel ready and why that is not a mistake

* The ego death that can come when your path circles back to something familiar in a completely new way

* How slowing down allowed my next vision to fully land instead of forcing it into form

* The difference between doing the work and stewarding a vision that wants to be built with others

* Why leadership changes when you move from being in the business to leading the business

* How past experience, even the parts you resisted, becomes the exact preparation you need

* What it means to build something meant to last, not just succeed quickly

* Why softness, presence, and trust create more stability than hustle ever could

If you are holding a vision that feels too big to carry alone, let this episode remind you that it was never meant to be built alone. Some dreams are invitations to become who you were always meant to be.

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