I admit it… what I gave was love, and yes, it was attachment too. But what they gave was nothing but selfishness, and what they left me with were wounds. While hurting me, they never once stopped to think about what would become of someone who worshipped them in the temple of his heart— raising them as a goddess of love, a god of devotion. And what would happen to that heart when they passed by so close… yet looked away, avoiding my eyes.

I owe you an apology 🤍 Last Friday, I couldn't release a new episode, and I didn't want to return with half-felt words. Some emotions take time to be understood before they can be spoken. I needed that pause… to feel honestly, to write truthfully, and to come back only when my heart was ready to speak again.

This episode was born in that silence.

Ruined by Your Love is about believing in a love so deeply that separation never even feels possible. When their words were sweet, you thought bitterness could never exist. When their smiles felt so pure, you believed they would never turn away. Everything felt safe… permanent… unbreakable.

Until one day, everything changed.

A single shift. A silent distance. And suddenly, the connection felt like it never existed at all.

This is a story of loving someone with such devotion that, in protecting them, you lose yourself. Of being ruined not by hatred, but by love itself. Of a heart that knows it may never be whole again… yet still aches for the one who broke it.

Because sometimes, love doesn't leave you empty. It leaves you unrepairable.

If you've ever trusted love too much… If you've ever lost yourself while trying to hold on… This episode is for you.

🎧 Listen with your heart. It always knows the truth.

Some returns never happen… but the heart still waits. Some evenings never come back… but their memories keep breathing.

There are songs we once sang together touches filled with innocence, moments filled with warmth and the heart keeps asking… 'Will you ever return? Will we ever be the same again?'

My eyes still ache for your presence. This restless heart… still lost in your love.

I doubted the way she loved… and I never fully believed her promises.

Yet her innocence pulled me in every time.

She was a liar, a betrayer… but still, I fell for her charm.

If I wanted, I could have destroyed her — but I feared ruining her name.

When every promise broke, and every hope shattered, I found myself fighting with God every single day.

She was a liar, a betrayer… but still, I couldn't stop loving her.

Because somewhere inside, I was still in love with the innocence she once showed me...

She lives within my every breath… yet slips away through my eyes.

I can't survive without her, my heartbeat whispers her name.

The day we finally meet, I'll turn this earth into heaven.

Whether in riches or in nothingness, I'll still carry her every wish.

I'd lay the beauty of the whole world at her feet… and when people call me crazy, I'll smile... because they'll never understand.

Just hold me close once, and say those words again… I am yours. I am yours. I am yours.

This story isn't about love that followed rules, it's about that night… that mood… and a fleeting moment of madness.

A little teasing, a little wildness, and a tale of love that found its rhythm in loneliness.

…but, as always... with full dedication.

You are the poem my soul keeps writing the verse where your presence is certain, the rhythm where your name still lives.

Not because you're within my reach, but because you still flow through my every heartbeat.

So no matter how long this journey becomes, it will never tire, never fade, never stop because what we share isn't bound by time… our love is eternal.

Listen My Heart Beats isn't just a podcast, it's the sound of unspoken emotions. Each episode is a piece of my heart. the thoughts, feelings, and confessions I once kept hidden in my diary. Now, I'm giving them a voice.

Through Listen My Heart Beats, I share stories of love, longing, and connection, moments that feel deeply personal yet beautifully universal. Because if you've ever been in love, you'll find a part of yourself here.