Living In the Devils Footsteps

Hello Beauties, my name is Sabri Skoda! Welcome & thank you for listening to my podcast, Living in the Devils Footsteps

Today's episode does have the same usual trigger warnings: eating disorders, suicide, suicide ideations, eating disorders, human sex trafficking, sexual assault, crimes against minors, drugging a minor, domestic violence & abuse, and addiction.

Today, I speak about my Eating Disorder and how it affected me throughout my life. December 3rd, 2022 was the day I finally decided to stop obsessing over eating & the way I saw food. I hold One Full Year of Sobriety OFF of my ED. Instead of forcing myself to not eat (anorexia) & forcing myself to throw up every time I felt I ate too much (bulimia); I choose to control the way I treat my body.. positively.

I now eat healthy.. maybe too healthy - my doctor says, but I also contain regular physical activity. Going to the gym has been a blessing to me because it saved my eating disorder & made me truly focus on what my body needs to stay in good shape & good health. I do this without obsessing over the way I look because I am beautiful the way I am (JUST LIKE YOU)! With implementing healthy habits, I am now proud of how my body is because I'm in control of my body, with healthy exercise; weight lifting, HIIT, cross training, cardio & yoga/stretching.

I know that I have spoken about my eating disorder before, but not into such great detail.

Resources for help with any of the following topics we discuss, will be at the end of the show notes.

If you or someone you know is struggling please contact the:

-National Association of Anorexia Nervosa & Associated Disorders (ANAD): The Helpline 888-375-7767 is open Monday to Friday. 9 a.m. to 9 p.m. Central Time; or email: [email protected].

-for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

-for Domestic Violence, please call 800-799-7233 to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

-for Human Trafficking, please call 1 (888) 373-7888 to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

-for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠⁠1-800-662-4357⁠⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

or call ⁠⁠1-800-487-4889⁠⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at [email protected] 

Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!

It’s my 3 year anniversary of sobriety, so thank you for tuning into todays podcast. 

Today I go into some of my experiences during addiction, the struggles and how I turned those struggles into my strength. Addiction is a disease, just like other diseases. You may not notice physically but mentally it destroys you from the inside-out. If you last, you will start to notice the signs from the outside. Addiction impacts your life. Addiction is hard to address, hard to get help for and hard to fix; as you can never fix it. Addiction lives with you for the rest of your life, 24/7, every second of your life. 

I have been a drug addict since the age of 15/16 years old (not too sure because those years were a blur for me) to the age of 19. 

Now, I can say that I am successfully able to refrain from drugs for 3 years on July 25th! Sobriety birthdays are bigger than an actual birthday because this is the day you were basically born back into that person you were prior, to all the toxins you put in your body. 

There is hope for you & if you take a quick listen to my episode maybe you can get inspired and be motivated to get yourself the help you need, as well.

Never feel embarrassed or scared to ask for help, that is the only way I got through it and ended up where I am today, ALIVE & PRESENT.

Remember: trying to heal is difficult, you must become comfortable with the uncomfortable but it will be worth it, in the end. Help will only work, if you put in the same effort, if not more, than the support you receive.

Here are some resources if you or someone you love needs help:

-for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call ⁠988⁠ to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

-for Domestic Violence, please call ⁠1 (800) 799-7233⁠ to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

-for Human Trafficking, please call ⁠1 (888) 373-7888⁠ to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

-for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠⁠⁠1-800-662-4357⁠⁠⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

or call ⁠⁠⁠1-800-487-4889⁠⁠⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at ⁠[email protected] ⁠

Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!

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Thank you for listening to another podcast of, Living in the Devils Footsteps. It wouldn't have been possible to get this far, in my journey, if I hadn't started making these podcasts. It has been a huge step towards my healing and is the reason I am almost to 3 years of sobriety. I never thought people would step into my world and actually listen to my voice, but here I am. I started these podcasts, as a therapy tool, just like journal writing but instead, voice memos. I decided to upload these voice memos and actually take podcasting seriously, after the amazing feedback I was getting and so someone could hear my story, and become brave to conquer their own demons. I wasn't consistent, due to me taking my healing seriously; so I could be the best me, that I could be. Now I will be here every other week, until I am cleared for therapy every 3 weeks, since I'm finally at every other week, last month! Which has been only possible, through this pod. Channeling all my emotions on here, has been my life saver. Seeing the audience grow, is beautiful to see and I hope, as I am now more consistent, it will build back up, to what it used to be. So thank you thank you thank you, to you. You are a GEM.

Feel free to leave a 5 star rating (if that's what I deserve, for putting my heart and soul into your earphones) and so others: who may be struggling, may know someone struggling, or once were struggling themselves, can find that motivation within themselves to get help, find their passion or finally take a step forward to their next goal!

Resources for help with any of the following topics we discuss, will be at the end of the show notes.

If you or someone you know is struggling please contact the:

-for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

-for Domestic Violence, please call 1 (800) 799-7233 to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

-for Human Trafficking, please call 1 (888) 373-7888 to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

-for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠⁠1-800-662-4357⁠⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

or call ⁠⁠1-800-487-4889⁠⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at [email protected] 

Instagram @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps 

Personal Instagram @SabriSkoda

TikTok @6oth6host6irl

Snapchat @sabriskoda13

Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!

Hello its Sabri Skoda here, thank you for listening to another one of my episodes! If you're new welcome! If you are not, welcome back! You will hear a lot more of me from now on, thats every Tuesdays, to you.

Today we go into some of my personal struggles with mental health illness and eating disorders. From my upbringing & first memories of my childhood, to when my mental illnesses were more pronounced at the age of 12 years old, I started to act on those needs to do something about the way I felt. I walk you through the unhealthy ways I dealt with those issues, which I try to show my listeners, are the way NOT to handle them. If I had only known about therapy earlier on in my life, and had a family that understood and knew where it came from, I could have been saved a lot of struggles. In no circumstance, do I put the blame on my family, it is just that they did not know that mental health can affect someone, who seems to be happy. - But today we know that a lot of people with pain, cover it up with smiles and laughter, to disguise the way they feel, as a coping mechanism. This is not healthy because as we know, not facing your feelings and emotions head on, affects your mental welfare more and more negatively the longer you ignore it.

Today's episode does have the same usual trigger warnings: suicide, suicide ideations, eating disorders, human sex trafficking, domestic violence & abuse, and addiction.

Resources for help with any of the following topics we discuss, will be at the end of the show notes.

If you or someone you know is struggling please contact the:

-for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

-for Domestic Violence, please call 800-799-7233 to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

-for Human Trafficking, please call 1 (888) 373-7888 to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

-for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠1-800-662-4357⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

or call ⁠1-800-487-4889⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at [email protected] 

Instagram @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps 

Personal Instagram @SabriSkoda

TikTok @6oth6host6irl

Snapchat @sabriskoda13

Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!