Living In the Devils Footsteps

Living In the Devils Footsteps

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Living In the Devils Footsteps episodes

  • 1 Year Sobriety of my ED

    Hello Beauties, my name is Sabri Skoda! Welcome & thank you for listening to my podcast, Living in the Devils Footsteps

    Today's episode does have the same usual trigger warnings: eating disorders, suicide, suicide ideations, eating disorders, human sex trafficking, sexual assault, crimes against minors, drugging a minor, domestic violence & abuse, and addiction.

    Today, I speak about my Eating Disorder and how it affected me throughout my life. December 3rd, 2022 was the day I finally decided to stop obsessing over eating & the way I saw food. I hold One Full Year of Sobriety OFF of my ED. Instead of forcing myself to not eat (anorexia) & forcing myself to throw up every time I felt I ate too much (bulimia); I choose to control the way I treat my body.. positively.

    I now eat healthy.. maybe too healthy - my doctor says, but I also contain regular physical activity. Going to the gym has been a blessing to me because it saved my eating disorder & made me truly focus on what my body needs to stay in good shape & good health. I do this without obsessing over the way I look because I am beautiful the way I am (JUST LIKE YOU)! With implementing healthy habits, I am now proud of how my body is because I'm in control of my body, with healthy exercise; weight lifting, HIIT, cross training, cardio & yoga/stretching.

    I know that I have spoken about my eating disorder before, but not into such great detail.


    Resources for help with any of the following topics we discuss, will be at the end of the show notes.

    If you or someone you know is struggling please contact the:

    -National Association of Anorexia Nervosa & Associated Disorders (ANAD): The Helpline 888-375-7767 is open Monday to Friday. 9 a.m. to 9 p.m. Central Time; or email: [email protected].

    -for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

    -for Domestic Violence, please call 800-799-7233 to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

    -for Human Trafficking, please call 1 (888) 373-7888 to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

    -for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠⁠1-800-662-4357⁠⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

    or call ⁠⁠1-800-487-4889⁠⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

    This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

    If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at [email protected] 

    • Instagram @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps 
      • Personal Instagram @SabriSkoda
        • TikTok @sabri.skoda
          • Snapchat @sabriskoda13

            • Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!


            58 min
          • Three Years of Sobriety // 16

            It’s my 3 year anniversary of sobriety, so thank you for tuning into todays podcast. 

            Today I go into some of my experiences during addiction, the struggles and how I turned those struggles into my strength. Addiction is a disease, just like other diseases. You may not notice physically but mentally it destroys you from the inside-out. If you last, you will start to notice the signs from the outside. Addiction impacts your life. Addiction is hard to address, hard to get help for and hard to fix; as you can never fix it. Addiction lives with you for the rest of your life, 24/7, every second of your life. 

            I have been a drug addict since the age of 15/16 years old (not too sure because those years were a blur for me) to the age of 19. 

            Now, I can say that I am successfully able to refrain from drugs for 3 years on July 25th! Sobriety birthdays are bigger than an actual birthday because this is the day you were basically born back into that person you were prior, to all the toxins you put in your body. 

            There is hope for you & if you take a quick listen to my episode maybe you can get inspired and be motivated to get yourself the help you need, as well.

            Never feel embarrassed or scared to ask for help, that is the only way I got through it and ended up where I am today, ALIVE & PRESENT.

            Remember: trying to heal is difficult, you must become comfortable with the uncomfortable but it will be worth it, in the end. Help will only work, if you put in the same effort, if not more, than the support you receive.

            Here are some resources if you or someone you love needs help:

            -for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call ⁠988⁠ to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

            -for Domestic Violence, please call ⁠1 (800) 799-7233⁠ to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

            -for Human Trafficking, please call ⁠1 (888) 373-7888⁠ to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

            -for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠⁠⁠1-800-662-4357⁠⁠⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

            or call ⁠⁠⁠1-800-487-4889⁠⁠⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

            This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

            If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at ⁠[email protected] ⁠

            Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!

            Be sure to follow "Living in the Devils Footsteps" Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/LIVINGINTHEDEVILSFOOTSTEPS/

            My personal Instagram: https://instagram.com/sabriskoda

            My personal TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@sabri.skoda

            My personal Snapchat: @sabriskoda13 or https://t.snapchat.com/GsaLFIvE


            35 min
          • The Angel Has Your Back // 15

            Thank you for listening to another podcast of, Living in the Devils Footsteps. It wouldn't have been possible to get this far, in my journey, if I hadn't started making these podcasts. It has been a huge step towards my healing and is the reason I am almost to 3 years of sobriety. I never thought people would step into my world and actually listen to my voice, but here I am. I started these podcasts, as a therapy tool, just like journal writing but instead, voice memos. I decided to upload these voice memos and actually take podcasting seriously, after the amazing feedback I was getting and so someone could hear my story, and become brave to conquer their own demons. I wasn't consistent, due to me taking my healing seriously; so I could be the best me, that I could be. Now I will be here every other week, until I am cleared for therapy every 3 weeks, since I'm finally at every other week, last month! Which has been only possible, through this pod. Channeling all my emotions on here, has been my life saver. Seeing the audience grow, is beautiful to see and I hope, as I am now more consistent, it will build back up, to what it used to be. So thank you thank you thank you, to you. You are a GEM.

            Feel free to leave a 5 star rating (if that's what I deserve, for putting my heart and soul into your earphones) and so others: who may be struggling, may know someone struggling, or once were struggling themselves, can find that motivation within themselves to get help, find their passion or finally take a step forward to their next goal!

            Resources for help with any of the following topics we discuss, will be at the end of the show notes.

            If you or someone you know is struggling please contact the:

            -for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

            -for Domestic Violence, please call 1 (800) 799-7233 to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

            -for Human Trafficking, please call 1 (888) 373-7888 to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

            -for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠⁠1-800-662-4357⁠⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

            or call ⁠⁠1-800-487-4889⁠⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

            This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

            If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at [email protected] 

            Instagram @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps 

            Personal Instagram @SabriSkoda

            TikTok @6oth6host6irl

            Snapchat @sabriskoda13

            Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!

            39 min
          • The Devil of Mental Illness

            Hello its Sabri Skoda here, thank you for listening to another one of my episodes! If you're new welcome! If you are not, welcome back! You will hear a lot more of me from now on, thats every Tuesdays, to you.

            Today we go into some of my personal struggles with mental health illness and eating disorders. From my upbringing & first memories of my childhood, to when my mental illnesses were more pronounced at the age of 12 years old, I started to act on those needs to do something about the way I felt. I walk you through the unhealthy ways I dealt with those issues, which I try to show my listeners, are the way NOT to handle them. If I had only known about therapy earlier on in my life, and had a family that understood and knew where it came from, I could have been saved a lot of struggles. In no circumstance, do I put the blame on my family, it is just that they did not know that mental health can affect someone, who seems to be happy. - But today we know that a lot of people with pain, cover it up with smiles and laughter, to disguise the way they feel, as a coping mechanism. This is not healthy because as we know, not facing your feelings and emotions head on, affects your mental welfare more and more negatively the longer you ignore it.

            Today's episode does have the same usual trigger warnings: suicide, suicide ideations, eating disorders, human sex trafficking, domestic violence & abuse, and addiction.

            Resources for help with any of the following topics we discuss, will be at the end of the show notes.

            If you or someone you know is struggling please contact the:

            -for Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.

            -for Domestic Violence, please call 800-799-7233 to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.

            -for Human Trafficking, please call 1 (888) 373-7888 to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.

            -for Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, ⁠1-800-662-4357⁠ - Treatment Referral Routing Service

            or call ⁠1-800-487-4889⁠  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

            This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.

            If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at [email protected] 

            Instagram @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps 

            Personal Instagram @SabriSkoda

            TikTok @6oth6host6irl

            Snapchat @sabriskoda13

            Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!

            2 hr 4 min
          • An Angel Who Got Out of Hell - Survivor Jose Alfaro // 13
            Today's story is a real survivor story, who was saved from enduring more hell, then a child should ever have to go through. 
            Jose Alfaro is a true inspiration to a lot of people, me being one of them.  Male sex trafficking stories are not often talked about, so this is why I wanted to share this empowering life experience. As I have been sex trafficked, it has been hard to continue life's realities after getting out of an environment where you are forced into things you never thought would happen. Listen to Jose's story, as it will bring awareness to human trafficking to not just females but mainly for males and the gay community. It is important for people to know that there are forces in life that you can't always control, but to be aware, may save your life or someone else's.
            Spread awareness and share this podcast to your friends; so we keep everyone aware of the dangers that are out there, in this world.
            TRIGGER WARNING: MAY INCLUDE ABUSE AGAINST CHILDREN, CHILDREN EXPLOITATION, SEX TRAFFICKING OF A MINOR, SEXUAL ABUSE, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SUICIDE, SUBSTANCE USE.
            Instagram: @livinginthedevilsfootsteps or @sabriskoda
            TikTok: @6oth6host6irl
            Snapchat: @sabriskoda13
            Share Your Story with a theme of - Mental health, substance abuse, domestic violence or human trafficking at the Email: 
            [email protected] - You may be anonymous by just stating that in your email or include your name if you want!
            Thank you for taking your time, to listen to me speak, and I will see you all next week.
            Remember: You are NOT a VICTIM, You are A SURVIVOR!
            National Human Trafficking Hotline - Call: 1 (888) 373-7888 or SMS: 233733 (Text "HELP" or "INFO")
            Suicide and Crisis Lifeline - Call: 988 or SMS: 988
            SAMHSA’s National Helpline for Substance Abuse - Call: 1-800-662-4357 or SMS: 435748 (Text HELP4U)
            National Domestic Violence Hotline - Call: 1(800)-799-7233 or SMS: Text START to 88788
            ALL THESE LIFELINES ARE OPEN 24/7, SO WHATEVER DAY IT MAY BE, THEY ARE HERE TO HELP.
            1 hr 2 min
          • From the Devils of Domestic Violence Pt. 3 // 12
            TRIGGER WARNING! THIS PODCAST MAY INCLUDE TOPICS OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SEXUAL ASSAULT, BEING DRUGGED AND BEING PHYSICALLY ASSAULTED; LISTENER DISCRETION IS HEAVILY ADVISED!
            Hello! Thank you for listening to my personal story of Domestic Violence that recently happened to me. It has been tough healing through this new hardship but I am back. I would like to apologize for the time I have been away. Yes, my podcasts will now continue weekly once again and I will not leave you hanging from now on. 
            While we continue to want to grow, we choose the heal & as much as we choose the heal, the stronger we become, as humans. Sometimes, there are events in life that we do not have control over, so never blame yourself. Strength comes in all shapes, sizes, genders, races, financial status's, & beyond. I am here to lift you up when you feel hopeless, helpless or if you are just interested in learning more about what I have gone through and others experiences. Learning more about peoples trauma and experiences, you can learn to differentiate the signs and dodge as many of these situations as possible, but of-course some things are just inevitable.
            For safety, download the app NOONLIGHT, which I talked about in my podcast. This is another self defense mechanism you can have, if you forget your taser or pepper spray or just want to double up on your life's protection. I definitely recommend this app, as it calls Emergency Dispatch straight to your location, in just a click of a button, without needing to talk to anyone. Save your life by downloading this app, you'll thank me later.
            If you or someone you know is going through Domestic Violence, please call 800-799-7233 to reach the National Domestic Violence Hotline, or you may text START to 88788.
            If you or someone you know is going through Human Trafficking, please call 1 (888) 373-7888 to reach the National Human Trafficking Hotline, or you may text "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733.
            If you or someone you know is experiencing Suicidal or Homicidal Ideations, please call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline or text 988.
            If you or someone you know is going through Alcohol or Substance Abuse, please call SAMHSA’s National Helpline, 1-800-662-4357 - Treatment Referral Routing Service, or call 1-800-487-4889  which is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders. This service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. You may also text 435748 to find help near you.
            If you want to be starred on one of my upcoming podcasts, you can email me your story (which must include, one or some of the following, Human/Sex Trafficking, Domestic Violence, Mental Health and/or Alcohol/Substance Abuse) at [email protected] 
            Instagram @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps 
            Personal Instagram @SabriSkoda
            TikTok @6oth6host6irl
            Snapchat @sabriskoda13
            Thank you for listening and always REMIND YOURSELF: YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM, YOU ARE A SURVIVOR & I will see you next week. I love you all!
            45 min
          • From the Devils Domestic Violence Footsteps Pt. 2 // 11
            TRIGGER WARNINGS! DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SEXUAL ASSAULT, RAPE, BEING DRUGGED, SUICIDE, THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE, DRUG USE...
            In today's podcast, I talk about specific events in my life, where I experienced domestic violence. I go into the depths of 3 different relationships, that caused me to be faced with this criminal act. I talk about the acts of which I was both mentally, emotionally and some of the physical violence that occurred in those relationships. I don't go into too much detail on the physical violences that took place because I, myself have not processed that in therapy yet. I do, though, talk about the physical violences that was brought on by sexual abuse and manipulative gas-lighting that caused some of it. This resulted in being drugged prior to the act of physical abuse and caused me to take my own life, via suicide or trying to hurt myself, to try to end my life. These boys who looked like men took advantage of the fact that i was under the influence, after most of them would drug me and would therefore use my body. Being a minor, my naiveness definitely clouded my judgement about them. I thought i was in love and i thought they loved me the same, but if someone loves you, they NEVER take advantage of you mentally, physically, emotionally nor sexually.
            If you, or a loved one, even an acquaintance is under-going these violent criminal acts, please reach out to me or to the 
            National Domestic Violence Hotline: Call- 800-799-7233 or Text- START to 88788
            National Human Trafficking Hotline: Call- 1 (888) 373-7888 or Text- "HELP" or "INFO" to 233733 
            National Suicide Prevention Hotline: Call or Text- 1-800-273-8255
            National Mental Health Helpline: Text- D2L@494949 or 
            Visit their Website to Start Chatting with an Expert: https://d2lrevolution.com/?gclid=CjwKCAjwt7SWBhAnEiwAx8ZLaqnC9XRFIsftJi4GKZk3LSep_BRpfSkc9iVub8TvORsp1c1UG0TLcxoC5zwQAvD_BwE
            If you enjoyed my podcast, please RATE 5-STARS & SHARE ON YOUR SOCIALS, so we can help other victims, fight to become a survivor. This will help bring along hope, to those ears that may be struggling, like we once were. Don't be afraid to ask for help & if you are, I have created an Instagram just for my Podcast listenership, so follow & DM me @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps There you can find a link in my BIO that will take you to a Facebook Group created for those who need inspiration, help or even just for support. There are others out there struggling the same way you may be or once were. We are here for YOU. 
            My Personal Instagram is: @6oth6host6irl
            TikTok: @6oth6host6irl
            Snapchat: @sabriskoda13
            & If you want to become a Special Guest on my upcoming podcasts please feel free to DM me on my Podcast's Instagram @LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps or Email me at my new email created just for my listeners at [email protected]
            57 min
          • From the Devils Domestic Violence Footsteps Ft. Charlotte // 10
            Welcome back to my podcast everyone! I am so sorry for not posting for 6 months, but i was doing Intensive Therapy so that i can carry on with my podcasts at my 100% best self, for all my listeners. I will now be posting weekly, every Tuesday, so be sure to share with your friends and family, as we build a community of like-minded people who have experienced/are experiencing/know people experiencing the struggles of human sex trafficking, domestic violence, mental health illness and/or addiction and recovery. 
            Today's podcast presents one of my best friends who I have known for about 5-6 years and counting, Charlotte. These experiences are 100% real and the true life stories of both Charlotte and I, Sabri Skoda. In this weeks podcast, we talk about the overview of what we have gone through, during our drug use and addiction. We cover some of the domestic violence we have been in, including-but not excluded to, manipulation, gas-lighting and grooming of toxic relationships we were involved in, due to the drug use. We dive into, the facts of when Charlotte visited me when i was sex trafficked in San Francisco and how that came to be possible. 
            We would both like to thank you so so much for the continued support of my podcast and hope you are more aware about the issues we talk about.
            Be sure to Follow me on Instagram: www.instagram.com/6oth6host6irl or my Podcast Instagram: www.instagram.com/LivingInTheDevilsFootsteps or email me at [email protected] Snapchat: @sabriskoda13 
            If you would like the information on the Guest I have in this podcast, please be sure to email me or slide into my DMs on Instagram, with the info i provided above.
            Trigger warnings include: sex trafficking, domestic violence, drug use, addiction and suicide. Please be aware. that there is hope for you. If you are struggling with any of the issues we talk about today, here are some resources for you: 
            National Sex/Human Trafficking Hotline: 1(888)373-7888 or SMS: 233733 Text- "HELP" or "INFO"
            National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1(800)799-7233 or SMS: 88788 Text- "START"
            National Drug and Alcohol Treatment Hotline/Substance Abuse and Mental Illness (SAMHSA): 1(800)662-4357
            National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1(800)950-6264
            National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1(800)273-8255
            52 min
          • I’m in Control of My Voice - Living in My Own Footsteps // 9
            In this episode I reveal 4 REAL names of my abusers, who took my teenage years from me and left me broken for life. I am now in control and no one can take my voice away from me, at least not anymore. Don’t let people take advantage of you because most of them just use you for their own benefit. Be careful. Love yourself. & don’t let anyone take you for granted. If people do, you must leave before getting hurt even worst. With that being said, Be the change you want to see in this world. Just because some days may be unfortunate, we must keep going to fight for our goals and dreams in life. Please share my podcast channel to friends and family, so people know that Human Trafficking is real. Domestic Violence (including: physical and emotion/mental) abuse is real. Mental health is real. Addiction is real. We all have a story, we all go through events in our life that may seem impossible at the moment but if you work toward making things better; you may soon see the brighter side. We must not lose hope. If any one is a victim call a hotline or reach out to me on my social media. Instagram: @sabriskoda TikTok: @gothghostgirl Snapchat: @sabriskoda13 REMINDER: We are not just victims, we are survivors! Much love to you all and thank you for listening to my story
            56 min
          • Pain & No Justice - Living in the Angels Footsteps // 8
            Although this season is the ‘Angel’s’ season, Angels still go through pain. Just because it’s the brighter side doesn’t mean that dark doesn’t lurk around, so be careful. In this episode, I bring up the situation of my sex trafficker and where his case with the FBI is with. This is the most important episode I have made, due to the context that is on this episode. Constantly more and more pain but I know I’m a survivor so I can handle it. Also I have things like my clothing company that is launching next year!Lastly, I am coming up on a year of sobriety on July 25th. Come celebrate with me! Follow me on Instagram @sabriskoda Snapchat @sabriskoda13 TikTok @6oth6host6irl YouTube COMING SOON.
            19 min

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