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Stephanie is 19, homeless, and fighting battles most people never see. In a late-night conversation outside a West Sacramento grocery store, she opens up to Frederick about childhood trauma, time spent on the streets, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and her dependence on methamphetamine and fentanyl.
As Stephanie shares the reality behind the voices, the fear, and the overdoses, Frederick reminds her that she is more than her diagnosis or addiction. Together, they take the first steps toward safety, treatment, and hope.
This powerful episode explores trauma, mental illness, substance use, homelessness, compassion, and the possibility of recovery.
Content warning: This episode includes discussions of childhood abuse, homelessness, mental-health symptoms, substance use, fentanyl, overdose, and trauma.
If you or someone you know is experiencing a mental-health or substance-use crisis, call or text 988. If there is immediate danger or a medical emergency, call 911.
It's 1:15 AM outside an AM/PM on Lake Washington Boulevard in West Sacramento. No microphone. No recorder. Just a journalist, a wire-bound notebook, and a man named Kevin sitting flat on the concrete with his back against an ice machine.
Kevin is 40-something, schizophrenic, bipolar, and addicted to fentanyl and alcohol. He has two daughters — Maddison, 11, and Chloe, 9 — and a family a few miles away with a bed, a shower, and people who love him. He chooses the street anyway.
In this raw, unedited conversation, Kevin breaks down what it actually feels like to wake up on concrete when your mind is a circus inside a hurricane. He explains why fentanyl isn't a choice — it's the only thing strong enough to silence the voices. He talks about the things he's done that make it hard to look in the mirror. And he tells us, with startling clarity, exactly why he stays away from the people he loves most.
This is not a story about addiction. It's not a story about homelessness. It's a story about a man fighting a war inside his own head — and the impossible math of loving someone too much to let your darkness touch them.
Listener discretion advised. Contains candid discussion of mental illness, substance use, and street survival.
in this episode of Living with a Schizophrenic Addict, host Frederick Hernandez sits down with Sarah, known to many in West Sacramento as "Mama S." Living on a gravel turnout off Jefferson Boulevard for six years, Sarah shares a raw and unflinching look at life on the streets. From the childhood trauma that fueled her addiction to the heartbreaking loss of her daughter, Sarah’s story challenges the surface-level judgments of passersby and reveals the person behind the "ghost."
In this episode, Frederick Hernandez strips away the "soft hippie" stereotypes surrounding spiritual growth to perform a raw, analytical dissection of Eckhart Tolle’s global bestseller, The Power of Now. This isn't just a book review—it's a strategic breakdown of the human mental operating system.
Frederick explores the "Ghost in the Machine"—the egoic mind that keeps us trapped in a perpetual loop of past regrets and future anxieties. The episode takes a unique turn by examining the words of Jesus not through a religious lens, but as elite psychological pointers on consciousness. From the true meaning of "The Kingdom of God" to the ancient Greek roots of "Sin" as an internal error, this deep dive provides a blueprint for reclaiming your power from the "Pain-Body" and mastering the strategic move of surrender.
in this episode, Frederick Hernandez and Natalie explore the recent medical findings surrounding Gabapentin, a widely prescribed medication for nerve pain and off-label conditions. They discuss the "cognitive paradox"—the alarming link between long-term use and an increased risk of mild cognitive impairment and dementia, particularly in younger adults. The hosts break down the clinical data, explore the biological impact on brain plasticity, and provide practical advice for patients currently managing chronic pain with this medication.
oin host Frederick Hernandez for a raw, on-site interview from South Sacramento. We sit down with Maya, a 22-year-old battling fentanyl addiction and unmanaged schizophrenia on the streets. Maya shares her harrowing journey—from her birth as a product of violence to her mother’s tragic legacy of mental illness. This episode explores the brutal reality of survival on "the track," the failure of the healthcare system for the homeless, and the human being behind the statistics. A powerful look at trauma, dependency, and the desperate hope for a fair chance at life.
In this raw episode, host Frederick Hernandez interviews Christopher, a 34-year-old in Sacramento living with schizophrenia and methamphetamine use. From a motel off Watt Avenue, Christopher explains how he uses the drug as a "control board" to manage his diagnosis and the city's overwhelming frequency. He describes his life as an "iron suit" and a "front-row seat to the universe," challenging traditional ideas of rehab. A gritty, unfiltered look at survival and life in thirty-minute increments on the North Side pavement.
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