I miss Mama…
I miss my mother, my little sister and father…
Grandaddy and my Uncle Jack I try to honor
The closer they get the more it hurts so why bother
God help…
I don't wanna do this by myself
I done took so many losses there's barely anyone left
I done cried so many tears hidden from everyone else
Don't let it show, but even the word says Christ wept
Family and friends dying, meanwhile I'm still trying
To hold onto their word cause someone gotta live by it
Some days are worse than others, I can't help but to feel tired
Smiling in public, but emotionally real private
Armed with a verse because the enemy still sliding
Voices in my head but when I pray they get real quiet
The lord is my shield so I try not to feel pious
You can test me, but not my G, I'm still riding
Abba all I got is you (is you)
Everyone else leaves when I run out
But no, not you (not you)
Father won't you please just lift me up
Lord I need healing (healing)
Lately I been feeling solo (solo)
Everything's been falling apart
And watching it's been clouding my heart
Doubts and second guesses are drowning my thoughts
It's a blessing to struggle but that don't mean it ain't hard
Job don't pay enough. Rent is all I got
Add the bills, clothes and food; something gone come up short
Don't take it wrong, I've gotten through the storm a lot
But life is a cycle so you gone get washed
Now watch…
I've come a long way from scheming and hustling
Speeding and cussing, smoking, drinking and busting
I had no peace, I was bugging, all that was leading to nothing
People coming and going and leaving me with the grudges
I found my reason in Jesus He covered me in His covenant
I survived that part of life to be relieved of my judgement
So as it's falling to pieces I won't sleep on His justice
I still believe that my season is coming
That's Job
Abba all I got is you (is you)
Everyone else leaves when I run out
But no, not you (not you)
Father won't you please just lift me up
Lord I need healing (healing)
Lately I been feeling solo (solo)
My babies mother just lost her life
A couple years after she lost her rights, right?
And all of the children, in spite of that lost, ain't cried
And what's so sad is the fault ain't mine
See, she refused to come to court, so she lost that fight
Missing calls and visitations my wife often tried
Spent many years together doing what I thought was right
But couldn't afford the cost or price
Like… Like…
I always thought she would've came right back
Tell the kids about her life and give them game like that
Life is strange like that; sometimes you can't fight back
I lost my mother too, I ain't wish them pain like that
Generational curses and hereditary diseases
You were 34 I wished you lived life with more meaning
See, you were fighting demons; I pray that you found Jesus
Rest easy because the kids are loved beyond reason
Abba all I got is you (is you)
Everyone else leaves when I run out
But no, not you (not you)
Father won't you please just lift me up
Lord I need healing (healing)
Lately I been feeling solo (solo)
Abba all I got is you (is you)
Everyone else leaves when I run out
But no, not you (not you)
Father won't you please just lift me up
Lord I need healing (healing)
Lately I been feeling solo (solo)
