After a traumatic childhood, Jaimee yearned for peace and stability. She found temporary solace in a long-term marriage, but when it ended, she was drawn to a charismatic and charming man. However, beneath his appealing exterior lay a dark reality. As the relationship unfolded, it spiraled into psychological control, emotional and physical abuse. Caught in a dangerous and toxic situation, Jaimee soon found herself in a battle for her life.

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“I was in an extremely vulnerable place…I was in a real crossroads in life. My marriage was breaking down. I was very alone. I was lacking this love, lacking attention, lacking validation.” - Jaimee

“…he was so hot and cold, so he would be super charismatic and flirty and then all of a sudden would kind of shift and become quite offhand or even slightly rude.” - Jaimee

“He called me so many names that night and I was just so taken aback. It's the first time I'd ever seen this side. I was a bitch. I was a slut.” - Jaimee

“I was just an absolute mess inside and out. My body was shutting down. I shook all day. I shook all day constantly. I had anxiety attacks constantly.” - Jaimee

“…and he locked the car doors and he drove off away from my driveway. And he said, I fooled you. I tricked you.” - Jaimee 

“I really thought that he said to me, I'll fucking kill you. I'm gonna fucking kill you. And I thought, okay, I really am gonna die here.” - Jaimee 

“That's seriously, one of the biggest things I've learned is you just, you can't, you can't outrun your trauma. It will catch you at, at some point, unless you, you face it and you deal with it.” - Jaimee 

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#CopingMechanisms #ToxicRelationships #Manipulation

#LoveBombing #EmotionalAbuse #Control #AssaultSurvivor

#Isolation #MentalHealthMatters #LeavingAbuse #TraumaHealing

#SurvivorStory #HealingJourney #SupportSurvivors #EndAbuse

#YouAreNotAlone #Resilience

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Former judge and veteran divorce attorney Michele Locke pulls back the curtain on the world of family law. From messy divorces to high-stakes custody battles and domestic violence cases, Michele brings her courtroom experience to the mic—sharing personal stories, legal insights, and real-world advice. Whether you’re facing family court or just curious about how it all works, this episode delivers a powerful, no-nonsense introduction to the emotional and legal terrain of family law.

lovelustlaw premieres July 1st!

**DISCLAIMER** The information shared in this podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only. It should not be considered as professional legal advice or a substitute for seeking professional legal advice. 

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In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke, alongside producer Haley Gray, are joined by Heather Ashley of Big Mad True Crime and Kyle Ashley from Critical Incidents to discuss the tragic story of Emma Compton. They explore the harsh realities of domestic violence, delving into the emotional and legal hurdles survivors face as well as the systemic obstacles that often block justice. The discussion highlights investigative issues in Emma’s case and emphasizes the need for improved communication between law enforcement and victims’ families. Heather shares her expertise in criminal intelligence and violent crime reduction, while Kyle brings insights from his military and law enforcement background. Together, they reflect on the importance of advocacy, mental health awareness, and sharing survivor stories. The conversation also touches on the personal challenges of working in true crime media, including managing criticism and maintaining balance.

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https://www.evaporatethemissing.com/post/with-butterfly-kisses 

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As Lisa rises to fame in the modeling world, her ambition takes her around the globe. What starts as a dream life quickly unravels when she becomes the target of a dangerous sexual predator. Exploited by those in power, she refuses to stay silent, putting herself at risk to uncover the truth and protect others from the same fate.

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"I definitely always had this personality where I like to have a voice." - Lisa

"As I became a model in my teens, it was like. The mid nineties, right? So we had all these supermodels and every little girl wanted to be a model." - Lisa

I've had certain experiences that I always felt like I could handle." - Lisa

"His whole demeanor changed. He was definitely very, very different at this point. I felt like I couldn't leave the room." - Lisa

"It just changed everything for me and my trust in men for my body, my trust in myself." - Lisa

 "They cannot be silenced anymore. That's where the shift is going to change, because when people, yes, are assaulted, they're speaking out where predators have always relied on the fact that all the victims stay silent." - Lisa

topics | #Healing #Transparency #Modeling #Identity #Podcasting #Trauma #Empowerment #Predators #Boundaries #SelfDiscovery #Grooming #Assault #Trust #Relationships #SelfPerception #Mentorship #PowerDynamics #EmotionalImpact #Abuse #ModelingIndustry #SpeakingOut #SurvivorStories #Corruption #PersonalGrowth

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Brittani Ard, host of You Probably Think This Story's About You, joins Jake and Michele on lovelustfridays for a raw and thoughtful conversation about trauma, relationships, and the emotional weight of storytelling. She opens up about her transition from a career in architecture to podcasting, and the lessons she's learned along the way. The discussion dives into the complexities of dating in midlife—particularly for strong, independent women—touching on breakups, emotional boundaries, and the process of unintentionally emasculating men. Brit also reflects on how independence can sometimes hinder connection, and why taking small, intentional steps back into the dating world can be so valuable.

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Introducing: Critical Incidents — the podcast hosted by law enforcement veteran Kyle Ashley, featuring candid conversations with individuals from diverse backgrounds, exploring the pivotal moments that have shaped their lives. From triumphs to challenges, these unfiltered stories offer listeners an authentic glimpse into the human experience.

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If you have a compelling story to share, we’d love to hear from you. Reach out to us at [email protected].

EPISODE TITLE: Inside the Mind of the Golden State Killer || Profiling Evil with Former FBI Agent Julia Cowley

What does it take to hunt one of the most prolific serial predators in American history? In this episode of Critical Incidents, I spoke with retired FBI profiler Julia Cowley about her in-depth work on the Golden State Killer case — before the world even knew who he was. Julia unpacks the behavior patterns that linked a string of burglaries, sexual assaults, and murders across California. She also shares her unexpected path into the FBI’s elite Behavioral Analysis Unit (BAU), the truth behind what profilers really do, and how behavioral science guided one of the most chilling investigations in modern history. We also dive into strange DUI cases and forensic toxicology. Plus, Julia reflects on the emotional toll of seeing life interrupted — and how she finds peace through purpose. Topics Covered: Profiling the Golden State Killer Behavioral patterns of serial offenders FBI profiler selection + training process Israel Keyes, DUIs, and crime scene analysis Mental health, family, and coping with trauma Subscribe, rate, and share if you’re into real stories of criminal psychology, unsolved mysteries, and frontline law enforcement insight.

Jenna Brister is a comedian, actor, and screenwriter behind the feel-good Hallmark movies adored by millions. She bravely opened up about her harrowing experience of being trapped in an abusive marriage with a volatile chef in episode 6 of lovelustfear, titled “No One Gets Out This Early,” Now, she joins Jake Deptula to reflect on the red flags she faced, the healing power of comedy, and how her real-life romance with her new partner—who she’s traveled the world with—mirrors the kind of love she now brings to life in her scripts. Jenna shares her journey of surviving trauma, finding her own leading man, and how food, humor, and holiday movies helped her write her way to a true happy ending.

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Introducing: Ice Cold Case — In 2002, Madison McGhee’s father, John McGhee, was shot and killed in his own home in Belmont County, Ohio. Driven by her desire to find justice she began conducting her own investigation into his murder that remains unsolved to this day. The police investigation did not yield any significant leads, leaving Madison and her family with more questions than answers - until now. Join her not only on a quest for justice, for closure, for answers and she stops at nothing to answer this question: Who Killed J.C. McGhee? It doesn’t get more personal than this.

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EPISODE TITLE: A Case as Cold as Ice

This is the story of what happened to J.C. McGhee on July 11, 2002 according to police records — some of which may not be entirely accurate nor adequate. Twenty years later, the search for answers begins.

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Ice Cold Case is brought to you by Yes!

It is written and produced by Madison McGhee

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In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke are joined by Heather, who previously shared her emotional journey in episode 18 of lovelustfear, titled "I Did Not Want to Lose This Man." Heather opens up about her battles with self-worth, controlling relationships, and emotional and psychological abuse, revealing how she found the courage to break free and rebuild her life. Heather and Michele also discuss their unique rivalry-turned-friendship, shedding light on the complexities of love, vulnerability, and personal growth. The conversation delves into Heather's experiences navigating the worlds of fitness competitions and the legal community, highlighting how predatory attitudes, misogyny, and gossip have impacted her life.

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topics | #LovelustFridays #SelfWorth #TraumaRecovery #HealingJourney #EmotionalAbuse #FindingYourVoice #FreedomFromControl #PsychologicalHealing #SupportNetworks #RebuildingTrust #Faith #PersonalGrowth #OvercomingAdversity #HopeAndHealing #SurvivorStrength #HealthyBoundaries #ToxicRelationships #Recovery #SelfReflection #Fitness #Bodybuilidng

After enduring sexual harassment in her early teens, Lynn turns to older men for comfort as she enters adulthood. She becomes pregnant by an abusive partner, faces the heart-wrenching decision of abortion, and suffers further assault. Despite her longing to heal, she becomes caught in toxic cycles, growing increasingly isolated and trapped. Driven by the need to end the cycle of abuse, she fights to break free.

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“I developed very fast. I felt like I almost went from being a little girl to being a young woman, who was leered at and gawked at…” - Lynn

“They became abusive…you never knew what kind of person you were gonna get with him.” - Lynn

“…there's no way that I'm gonna get pregnant. and that's exactly what happened.” - Lynn

“A few months later I got a phone call from the father of the baby, from my previous boyfriend, He broke into the house in the middle of the night. He walked into my bedroom, scared the hell out of me. And then in the morning he had left me this incredibly creepy note that said, amongst other things, I just wanted to watch you sleep.” - Lynn

“…that was his way of getting me away from everything that I knew, my job, my friends, my hometown, any connection that I had to anyone to get me alone in a new state to isolate me.” - Lynn

“I encourage everyone out there who has experienced any type of abuse, whether it be emotional or physical, psychological, sexual, to find a good outlet.” - Lynn

“I feel like every time I tell the story, now that I gain a little bit of myself.” - Lynn

topics | #Relationships #EmotionalAbuse #ToxicDynamics #Trust #SelfWorth #AbusiveRelationships #EmotionalManipulation #SexualAssault #ToxicRelationships #RedFlags #Support #Silencing #Fear #Trauma #Reporting #Assault #GenerationalTrauma #Healing #Partner

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To assist those whose lives have been affected by family and sexual violence by providing safety, services, and developing partnerships that lead to hope, healing, and prevention.

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We confront interpersonal violence against adults and adolescents of all genders. We specialize in trauma-informed law enforcement responses—from the first interaction with a victim through the investigation and potential prosecution. Positive outcomes for survivors require everyone working together, so we also champion collaborative practices, with multidisciplinary training for health care providers, prosecutors, advocates, and others who respond to survivors.

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The National Training Center on Crimes Against Women (NTC) is a state-of-the-art facility in Dallas, Texas that provides year-round training for those addressing violence against women. Leveraging the rich history of the Conference on Crimes Against Women, NTC offers learning opportunities ranging from basic to advanced levels. Additionally, NTC builds community in the region by hosting free events, even those outside its primary focus areas.

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