lovelustfear

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October 31 aziza | i didn't know who i was dealing with
After ending a ten-year marriage, Aziza stepped into the dating world for the first time as an adult, embracing her sexuality and believing she'd finally found the connection she had been missing. But what began with affection and excitement soon spiraled into obsession, emotional abuse, and relentless stalking, leaving Aziza and her children facing a nightmare that threatened their lives.
**This episode contains explicit content. Please listen with caution.**
music | sounds
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
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55 min
October 17 heather | i did not want to lose this man
After escaping a series of turbulent relationships, Heather finds hope in a charismatic and attractive bodybuilder. However, she soon becomes ensnared in a web of drug addiction, sex, pornography, and psychological manipulation. The relentless abuse drives her to multiple suicide attempts, leaving Heather’s life hanging in the balance.
**This episode contains explicit content including descriptions of sexual assault, physical abuse, image-based abuse, pornography, drug abuse, child sexual abuse, psychiatric situations, and the loss of a child. Listener discretion is advised.**
music | sounds
Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, cybercutie, TheoJT, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, Samuel Kamau, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay
stay aware | follow | share (heather)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
story submission information
If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
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1 hr 21 min
October 03 nillie | next time you see me, smile
Nillie grew up under the pressure of her family’s traditions and expectations, especially when it came to finding a husband. She falls for an older man whose attention feels like love, but quickly turns into control. Trapped in a marriage marked by shame, abuse, and fear, she stays for years—until one terrifying night changes everything.
** This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of strangulation and emotional abuse. Please listen with caution.**
music | sounds
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
stay aware | follow | share (nillie)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
story submission information
If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
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1 hr 3 min
September 19 ariel | i was addicted to the idea of him
After a childhood marked by bullying, anxiety, and insecurity, Ariel turned to drugs and alcohol to numb her pain. As her addiction deepened, she became caught in a cycle of unstable relationships and risky behavior, eventually meeting a man who took advantage of her vulnerabilities and drew her into a relationship that placed her recovery—and ultimately her life—in danger.
**This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of physical assault, emotional abuse, drug abuse, death, and animal abuse. Please listen with caution.**
music | sounds
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
stay aware | follow | share (ariel)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
story submission information
If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
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Spotify
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48 min
September 05cait | the whole world froze
Cait thought she had found a safe and loving relationship—until cocaine, heavy drinking, threats, and escalating violence exposed the terrifying man behind the charm. Then came a brutal hours-long attack that left her fighting for her life, followed by stalking, a controversial release on bail, and a prosecution that ultimately failed.
** This episode contains explicit content, including sexual assault, graphic descriptions of physical assault and emotional abuse. Please listen with caution.**
music | sounds
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
stay aware | follow | share (cait)
https://www.instagram.com/cait.alexander/
https://www.instagram.com/endviolenceeverywhere
https://caitalexander.com/
https://endviolenceeverywhere.org/
https://www.linkedin.com/in/cait-alexander-1aa40944/
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
story submission information
If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
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1 hr 3 min
February 15 channelle | i thought i was in a safe place
After a childhood marked by abuse and instability, Channelle spent her teenage years searching for love and safety wherever she could find it. When a next-door neighbor and his family welcomed her in, it felt like the stable home she had always longed for. But what began as comfort slowly twisted into control and abuse. She eventually escaped—until a chance reunion revealed the man she once trusted had become a predator who refused to let her go.
**This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of sexual assault, physical and emotional abuse. Please listen with caution.**
music | sounds
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
stay aware | follow | share (channelle)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
story submission information
If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
E-mail | [email protected]
Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
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Spotify
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40 min
February 03 lovelustfridays | Relationships, Red Flags, and Dating After Divorce
Host Jake Deptula is joined by family law attorney Michele Locke and Gabi Conti, an author, producer, and TV host known for her candid discussions on dating and relationships.

This episode explores the challenges of workplace romances, the impact of dating apps, and how to recognize and address emotional and physical abuse. Gabi, who previously shared her own toxic dating story in LoveLustFear Episode 4, "We Can’t Break Up," offers valuable insights on spotting red flags and empowering others through her work, including her book 20 Guys You Date in Your 20s and her podcast Bad Influencer. Michele reflects on her own hesitations about reentering the dating scene after two decades post-divorce, while Gabi provides practical advice for navigating modern relationships—emphasizing the importance of practice, staying open-minded, and prioritizing personal well-being. The discussion also features workplace anti-fraternization policies, celebrity relationship dynamics, and essential steps for identifying and escaping toxic situations.

Gabi - Episode Link
"We Can’t Break Up"
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear-gabi-we-cant-break-up/id1735876283?i=1000654153175
https://open.spotify.com/episode/3GFc3ga6PgAKaAOGqySQFY

links

Live Event 12/6 Los Angeles, CA
See Gabi in Holy Cannoli Comedy at the Hollywood Improv Lab on 12/16
https://improv.com/hollywood/event/holy+cannoli+comedy+with+jaclyn+marfuggi+caprio+and+gabriella+maria+conti%21/13938693/

Gabi Conti
personal website | https://www.gabiconti.com/
instagram | https://www.instagram.com/itsgabiconti/
tiktok | https://www.tiktok.com/@itsgabiconti
twitter | https://twitter.com/itsgabiconti
book | https://www.gabiconti.com/book-twenty-guys-you-date-in-your-twenties-by-gabi-conti
bad influencer | podcast | https://link.chtbl.com/LdLb8v6u

Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/

Additional Links
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

guest + story | submission information
If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below.

E-mail | [email protected]
Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear

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39 min
February 03 lovelustfear | presents | lovelustlaw: Family Law 101 (Navigating Divorce, Custody Battles, and Domestic Violence)
Former judge and veteran divorce attorney Michele Locke pulls back the curtain on the world of family law. From messy divorces to high-stakes custody battles and domestic violence cases, Michele brings her courtroom experience to the mic—sharing personal stories, legal insights, and real-world advice. Whether you’re facing family court or just curious about how it all works, this episode delivers a powerful, no-nonsense introduction to the emotional and legal terrain of family law.
lovelustlaw premieres July 1st!
**DISCLAIMER** The information shared in this podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only. It should not be considered as professional legal advice or a substitute for seeking professional legal advice.
Subscribe Here:
lovelustlaw - Apple Podcasts
lovelustlaw - Spotify Podcasts
lovelustlaw - Amazon Music
Credits
lovelustlaw is hosted by Michele Locke
Jake Deptula is Executive Producer
Haley Gray is Producer, Writer, & Researcher
Jared Landis is Sound Editor & Mixer
Links
Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/
Jake Deptula
www.instagram.com/jaked3000
lovelustfear
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283
https://open.spotify.com/show/0e3ndcf5u8lZ5lhN1lvWec
https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
Strictly Stalking
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083
https://open.spotify.com/show/5dw1NJIObaOsj0o7JdruVQ
https://www.instagram.com/strictlystalkingpod/
Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher
https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch
www.HaleyGrayResearch.com
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
topics | #FamilyLaw #DivorceAttorney #MicheleLocke #CourtroomInsights #LegalAdvice #FamilyCourt #LegalPodcast #TrueCourtStories #BehindTheBench #LawUnfiltered #NoNonsenseLaw #RealTalkLaw #DivorceSupport #CustodyBattles #MessyDivorces #ChildCustody #DivorceDrama #FamilyLawMatters #DomesticViolenceAwareness #SurvivingFamilyCourt #EmotionalJustice #CourtroomRealities #FamilyLawTruth

55 min
February 03 Galentine’s Day Unwrapped: A Deep Dive Into Celebrations, Expectations, Gifting, and Love Languages | lovelustfridays
Jake, Michele, and Haley team up with Lauryn (lovelustfear) for an epic battle between Galentine’s Day and Valentine’s Day, sharing awkward dating experiences that have shaped their views on the holiday. They dive into the communication struggles between men and women, the decisions behind regifting, and how their understanding of love languages has changed over the years. Their conversation also touches on classic Valentine’s Day topics—proposals, gifts like chocolates and stuffed animals, and the pressure to make the day unforgettable. To wrap it up, they get playful with games like ‘Never Have I Ever’ and ‘Love it or Leave it.’

Discussion Links
https://rosetoyofficial-us.com/ (Tell them Michele sent you!)
https://stlzoo.org/give/zoo-parents-program/valentine
https://www.farmsanctuary.org/news-stories/2025-valentines-day/?utm_source=chatgpt.com
https://www.walmart.com/ip/DesignPac-Jack-Links-Valentine-Meat-Fur-You-Heart-Box-0-625oz/2465067498
https://manlymanco.com/products/meathearts?variant=31479920951379
https://www.etsy.com/market/valentines_coupons
Series Links
lovelustfear
https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
lovelustfridays
https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays
Jake Deptula
www.instagram.com/jaked3000
Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/
Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher
https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch
www.HaleyGrayResearch.com
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
music | sounds
On Hold for You Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 License
http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/
guest + story | submission information
If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below.
E-mail | [email protected]
Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
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Spotify
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Apple
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topics | #ValentinesDay #Relationships #RealityTV #Psychology #GalentinesDay #Love #SelfAcceptance #Pressures #Dating #Friendship #Intimacy #Vulnerability #ChildhoodExperiences #GenderDifferences #Communication #Expectations #Celebrations #Midwest #Chicago #Boston #LoveLanguages #GiftGiving #SelfLove #Design #Events #PersonalConnections #ThoughtfulGifts #PersonalGrowth #EmotionalConnections #CreativeIdeas #SelfReflection #Compatibility #Nostalgia #PopCulture #EmotionalBaggage

1 hr 15 min
February 03lovelustfridays | From Tragedy to Advocacy: How Peggy Klinke Inspired a Movement
In this episode of lovelustfridays, host Jake Deptula and producer Haley Gray discuss the importance of National Stalking Awareness Month. They discuss the legacy of Peggy Klinke, whose tragic murder led to the establishment of National Stalking Awareness Month, and discuss the significant work done by advocates like her sister, Debbie Riddle, and organizations such as SPARC. They delve into the often-overlooked crime of stalking, its relationship with domestic violence, and the misconceptions surrounding it. Haley shares her personal experience with stalking, highlighting the realization and challenges faced by victims. The conversation emphasizes the need for awareness, better legal support, and community resources for stalking survivors. Resources and contact information for further support and advocacy are provided.
Stalking Support | Links
https://www.stalkingawareness.org/
https://www.standupresources.com/
https://www.actionagainststalking.org/
https://victimsofcrime.org/
www.womenslaw.org
www.victimconnect.org
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.lenoraclairellc.com/
Additional Links
Peggy’s Strictly Stalking episode https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083?i=1000556692586 Haley’s Strictly Stalking episode https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083?i=1000683900247
Strictly Stalking Podcast
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strictly-stalking/id1494237083
https://www.instagram.com/strictlystalkingpod
Moms And Mysteries Podcast
https://www.momsandmysteries.com/
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

Case Source Links
https://web.archive.org/web/20230115111213/https://www.cdc.gov/injury/features/prevent-stalking/index.html
https://spu.edu/-/media/administration/safety-and-security/documents/History-of-Stalking-Awareness-Month.ashx#:~:text=NSAM%20began%20in%20response%20to,to%20stalking%20and%20save%20lives

links
lovelustfear
https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
lovelustfridays
https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfridays
Jake Deptula
www.instagram.com/jaked3000
Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/
Haley Gray | Producer & Researcher
https://www.instagram.com/HaleyGrayResearch
www.HaleyGrayResearch.com

guest + story | submission information

If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below.

E-mail | [email protected]
Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
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subscription links

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Apple
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topics | #relationships #lawenforcement #dating #trauma #domesticviolence #trust #intimatepartnerviolence #caseanalysis #accountability #emotionalresponses #legalanalysis #officerbehavior #patternsofabuse #investigativestrategies #communication #casestudies #nsam2025 #nationalstlakingawarenessmonth #peggyklinke #debbieriddle
45 min

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lovelustfear exposes real stories about toxic dating and relationships. Every episode explores true dating and relationship stories—from the awkward and uncomfortable to the shocking and bizarre to the disturbing and downright dangerous. Host Jake Deptula (Strictly Stalking) welcomes storytellers into candid conversations, revealing the decisions they made and dilemmas they faced when better judgment got lost in a haze of desire. If you would like to share your story on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us at [email protected]