In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke, alongside producer Haley Gray, are joined by Heather Ashley of Big Mad True Crime and Kyle Ashley from Critical Incidents to discuss the tragic story of Emma Compton. They explore the harsh realities of domestic violence, delving into the emotional and legal hurdles survivors face as well as the systemic obstacles that often block justice. The discussion highlights investigative issues in Emma’s case and emphasizes the need for improved communication between law enforcement and victims’ families. Heather shares her expertise in criminal intelligence and violent crime reduction, while Kyle brings insights from his military and law enforcement background. Together, they reflect on the importance of advocacy, mental health awareness, and sharing survivor stories. The conversation also touches on the personal challenges of working in true crime media, including managing criticism and maintaining balance.

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https://www.thehotline.org/stakeholders/domestic-violence-statistics/ 

https://www.strangulationtraininginstitute.com/impact-of-strangulation-crimes/important-facts/ 

https://www.wdbj7.com/2023/11/24/family-emma-compton-layne-still-seeking-justice-six-years-after-her-murder/ 

https://www.yourgv.com/news/local_news/reward-offered-in-search-of-missing--year-old-cody/article_31787f4a-59e0-11e7-a45e-7f5dc8ffffb9.html 

https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Halifax-County-missing-woman-search-continues-two-weeks-later-431832353.html 

https://www.wsls.com/news/2017/08/03/vigil-being-held-for-missing-halifax-county-woman/ 

https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Human-remains-found-in-Halifax-Co-foul-play-expected-459605953.html 

https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/Family-believes-human-remains-found-in-Halifax-County-belong-to-Emma-Layne-460626173.html 

https://www.wdbj7.com/content/news/SHARE-Police-search-for-missing-woman-from-Halifax-county-429921923.html 

https://www.evaporatethemissing.com/post/with-butterfly-kisses 

https://www.facebook.com/HelpFindEmmaComptonLayne 

https://www.yourgv.com/news/lightmare-says-sister-of-missing-cody/article_d96de88e-6d86-11e7-a1cd-d3a4270a79ed.html 

https://www.yourgv.com/obituaries/sylvia-whitlow-mccurry/article_5d5effb4-b1e5-11e7-95a9-8bf90331c580.html 

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As Lisa rises to fame in the modeling world, her ambition takes her around the globe. What starts as a dream life quickly unravels when she becomes the target of a dangerous sexual predator. Exploited by those in power, she refuses to stay silent, putting herself at risk to uncover the truth and protect others from the same fate.

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"I definitely always had this personality where I like to have a voice." - Lisa

"As I became a model in my teens, it was like. The mid nineties, right? So we had all these supermodels and every little girl wanted to be a model." - Lisa

I've had certain experiences that I always felt like I could handle." - Lisa

"His whole demeanor changed. He was definitely very, very different at this point. I felt like I couldn't leave the room." - Lisa

"It just changed everything for me and my trust in men for my body, my trust in myself." - Lisa

 "They cannot be silenced anymore. That's where the shift is going to change, because when people, yes, are assaulted, they're speaking out where predators have always relied on the fact that all the victims stay silent." - Lisa

topics | #Healing #Transparency #Modeling #Identity #Podcasting #Trauma #Empowerment #Predators #Boundaries #SelfDiscovery #Grooming #Assault #Trust #Relationships #SelfPerception #Mentorship #PowerDynamics #EmotionalImpact #Abuse #ModelingIndustry #SpeakingOut #SurvivorStories #Corruption #PersonalGrowth

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Brittani Ard, host of You Probably Think This Story's About You, joins Jake and Michele on lovelustfridays for a raw and thoughtful conversation about trauma, relationships, and the emotional weight of storytelling. She opens up about her transition from a career in architecture to podcasting, and the lessons she's learned along the way. The discussion dives into the complexities of dating in midlife—particularly for strong, independent women—touching on breakups, emotional boundaries, and the process of unintentionally emasculating men. Brit also reflects on how independence can sometimes hinder connection, and why taking small, intentional steps back into the dating world can be so valuable.

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Introducing: Critical Incidents — the podcast hosted by law enforcement veteran Kyle Ashley, featuring candid conversations with individuals from diverse backgrounds, exploring the pivotal moments that have shaped their lives. From triumphs to challenges, these unfiltered stories offer listeners an authentic glimpse into the human experience.

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EPISODE TITLE: Inside the Mind of the Golden State Killer || Profiling Evil with Former FBI Agent Julia Cowley

What does it take to hunt one of the most prolific serial predators in American history? In this episode of Critical Incidents, I spoke with retired FBI profiler Julia Cowley about her in-depth work on the Golden State Killer case — before the world even knew who he was. Julia unpacks the behavior patterns that linked a string of burglaries, sexual assaults, and murders across California. She also shares her unexpected path into the FBI’s elite Behavioral Analysis Unit (BAU), the truth behind what profilers really do, and how behavioral science guided one of the most chilling investigations in modern history. We also dive into strange DUI cases and forensic toxicology. Plus, Julia reflects on the emotional toll of seeing life interrupted — and how she finds peace through purpose. Topics Covered: Profiling the Golden State Killer Behavioral patterns of serial offenders FBI profiler selection + training process Israel Keyes, DUIs, and crime scene analysis Mental health, family, and coping with trauma Subscribe, rate, and share if you’re into real stories of criminal psychology, unsolved mysteries, and frontline law enforcement insight.

Jenna Brister is a comedian, actor, and screenwriter behind the feel-good Hallmark movies adored by millions. She bravely opened up about her harrowing experience of being trapped in an abusive marriage with a volatile chef in episode 6 of lovelustfear, titled “No One Gets Out This Early,” Now, she joins Jake Deptula to reflect on the red flags she faced, the healing power of comedy, and how her real-life romance with her new partner—who she’s traveled the world with—mirrors the kind of love she now brings to life in her scripts. Jenna shares her journey of surviving trauma, finding her own leading man, and how food, humor, and holiday movies helped her write her way to a true happy ending.

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Introducing: Ice Cold Case — In 2002, Madison McGhee’s father, John McGhee, was shot and killed in his own home in Belmont County, Ohio. Driven by her desire to find justice she began conducting her own investigation into his murder that remains unsolved to this day. The police investigation did not yield any significant leads, leaving Madison and her family with more questions than answers - until now. Join her not only on a quest for justice, for closure, for answers and she stops at nothing to answer this question: Who Killed J.C. McGhee? It doesn’t get more personal than this.

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EPISODE TITLE: A Case as Cold as Ice

This is the story of what happened to J.C. McGhee on July 11, 2002 according to police records — some of which may not be entirely accurate nor adequate. Twenty years later, the search for answers begins.

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Ice Cold Case is brought to you by Yes!

It is written and produced by Madison McGhee

Also produced by Jeremy Benbow

Recorded by Danny Sellers

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With creative direction by AJ Christianson

In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke are joined by Heather, who previously shared her emotional journey in episode 18 of lovelustfear, titled "I Did Not Want to Lose This Man." Heather opens up about her battles with self-worth, controlling relationships, and emotional and psychological abuse, revealing how she found the courage to break free and rebuild her life. Heather and Michele also discuss their unique rivalry-turned-friendship, shedding light on the complexities of love, vulnerability, and personal growth. The conversation delves into Heather's experiences navigating the worlds of fitness competitions and the legal community, highlighting how predatory attitudes, misogyny, and gossip have impacted her life.

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topics | #LovelustFridays #SelfWorth #TraumaRecovery #HealingJourney #EmotionalAbuse #FindingYourVoice #FreedomFromControl #PsychologicalHealing #SupportNetworks #RebuildingTrust #Faith #PersonalGrowth #OvercomingAdversity #HopeAndHealing #SurvivorStrength #HealthyBoundaries #ToxicRelationships #Recovery #SelfReflection #Fitness #Bodybuilidng

After enduring sexual harassment in her early teens, Lynn turns to older men for comfort as she enters adulthood. She becomes pregnant by an abusive partner, faces the heart-wrenching decision of abortion, and suffers further assault. Despite her longing to heal, she becomes caught in toxic cycles, growing increasingly isolated and trapped. Driven by the need to end the cycle of abuse, she fights to break free.

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“I developed very fast. I felt like I almost went from being a little girl to being a young woman, who was leered at and gawked at…” - Lynn

“They became abusive…you never knew what kind of person you were gonna get with him.” - Lynn

“…there's no way that I'm gonna get pregnant. and that's exactly what happened.” - Lynn

“A few months later I got a phone call from the father of the baby, from my previous boyfriend, He broke into the house in the middle of the night. He walked into my bedroom, scared the hell out of me. And then in the morning he had left me this incredibly creepy note that said, amongst other things, I just wanted to watch you sleep.” - Lynn

“…that was his way of getting me away from everything that I knew, my job, my friends, my hometown, any connection that I had to anyone to get me alone in a new state to isolate me.” - Lynn

“I encourage everyone out there who has experienced any type of abuse, whether it be emotional or physical, psychological, sexual, to find a good outlet.” - Lynn

“I feel like every time I tell the story, now that I gain a little bit of myself.” - Lynn

topics | #Relationships #EmotionalAbuse #ToxicDynamics #Trust #SelfWorth #AbusiveRelationships #EmotionalManipulation #SexualAssault #ToxicRelationships #RedFlags #Support #Silencing #Fear #Trauma #Reporting #Assault #GenerationalTrauma #Healing #Partner

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To assist those whose lives have been affected by family and sexual violence by providing safety, services, and developing partnerships that lead to hope, healing, and prevention.

To provide hope of future generations through prevention and be a leader in saving and transforming lives affected by family and sexual violence.

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We confront interpersonal violence against adults and adolescents of all genders. We specialize in trauma-informed law enforcement responses—from the first interaction with a victim through the investigation and potential prosecution. Positive outcomes for survivors require everyone working together, so we also champion collaborative practices, with multidisciplinary training for health care providers, prosecutors, advocates, and others who respond to survivors.

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The National Training Center on Crimes Against Women (NTC) is a state-of-the-art facility in Dallas, Texas that provides year-round training for those addressing violence against women. Leveraging the rich history of the Conference on Crimes Against Women, NTC offers learning opportunities ranging from basic to advanced levels. Additionally, NTC builds community in the region by hosting free events, even those outside its primary focus areas.

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In this episode of lovelustfridays, hosts Jake Deptula and Michele Locke explore the intersection of spirituality, relationships, and personal transformation with guest Amber Rasmussen, host of Next Realm and Ex-Wives Undercover. Jake opens up about his intense connection with a karmic soulmate, while Michele shares her deep-seated fear of visiting a psychic. The conversation unpacks the role of psychics, spiritual mediums, and the often-misused concept of twin flames, exploring cosmic and karmic connections. Amber shares how the death of her nephew ignited her spiritual curiosity, leading her to uncover signs and experiences that shaped her beliefs. The discussion also highlights how spirituality and religion can influence relationships, helping individuals set boundaries and recognize toxic patterns. Amber details the real-life story behind Ex-Wives Undercover, revealing how she and her co-host exposed a serial manipulator, ultimately saving a woman’s life. The episode includes a thought-provoking discussion on the contrast between spirituality and organized religion and their impact on love, trust, and personal growth.

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“Extraordinary Measures” Movie https://www.imdb.com/title/tt1244659/ 

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The Visitation Podcast: https://www.listennotes.com/podcasts/the-visitation-the-visitation-podcast-JDzQ82-hGKs/

Jake’s Karmic Soulmate interview: (Jake is credited as “Charlie M.”)

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The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma (Book)

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After escaping a series of turbulent relationships, Heather finds hope in a charismatic and attractive bodybuilder. However, she soon becomes ensnared in a web of drug addiction, sex, pornography, and psychological manipulation. The relentless abuse drives her to multiple suicide attempts, leaving Heather's life hanging in the balance.

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**This episode contains explicit content including descriptions of sexual assault, physical abuse, image-based abuse, pornography, drug abuse, child sexual abuse, psychiatric situations, and the loss of a child. Listener discretion is advised.**

“I had a boyfriend, he cheated on me…I was so devastated. I just hated men. I hated what they did to me. I hated how they made me feel. I hated who I was trying to please them.” - Heather

“I ended up dating again because I love relationships. I do. I like to be in one. I like to feel special to somebody.” - Heather

“We were married. And he told me that one of his fantasies was to have two girls and a guy.” - Heather

“When he found out that I had this emotional relationship, I allowed him to do certain things that were very humiliating…but I felt like I deserved it because of what I did.” - Heather

“At one point I prayed. I'm like, God, listen, Just make me okay with being alone and then, a month later is when I met (him).” - Heather

“I found my perfect man, like in every sense of the word, this man was everything I didn't think I deserved, but knew I deserved.” - Heather

“He had to tell me what kind of relationship he wanted. And he presented to me something called the hot wife lifestyle.” - Heather

“Every single time that we did anything, it would just suck another piece of my soul 80 percent of our conversations only revolved around sex, only revolved around who he wanted me to sleep with.” - Heather 

“We're doing drugs so much we couldn't communicate unless we were fucked up, unless we were high.” - Heather

“I would succumb to whatever he wanted to do. My anxiety was through the roof. My depression was just getting worse and worse And so that's when I actively tried to commit suicide.” - Heather 

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