Luke Hand Diary

Watered plants and stuff before work. Unproductive work day. Got some cuttings on my walk. Crumby mood. Solo walk. I got accused of not having checked in at the supermarket by some sticky beak. “You don’t check-in, mate?” Wished afterwards that I would of nutted the cunt! Should of said, “Mate - the spreads and honey are in isle 4, why don’t you check if there’s any BEESWAX there with the honey and mind your own fucking business!” Black bean protein dinner. I’m bored. Bath. Bit of a headache. M: 4. E: 3. L: 0. 😑😴😓

Zonked. Got up late. Mum had left a takeaway coffee for me on the bench. Heated it up by stove top. Ugh. Probably didn’t get much caffeine out of it. Was dazed all day. Couldn’t work properly. Out of it. Cooked some pasta. Not bad. Did some potting. My new headphones arrived! Earlier than expected. I spilled beer on them within an hour of having them. Cows came up close to the house. Found a frog. Parenting show was back on tonight.

Haha. Strong Philip Larkin ‘This be the verse’ vibes from tonight’s ep. Did a light Apple Fitness workout before bed. M: 4. E: 3. L: 0. 😴😕😑

Full day. Market in the morning with cousin and child. Got flowers. Saw baby swamp hen. Mowed the lawn and used the hand-me-down whipper-snipper from Val. Did repotting and watering. Went for a drive with mum and gran out to Tower Hill and Koroit bakery. Nice drive and bants. Did some roustabout work - moving the old hay bale out of the pen, and spreading it in the paddock to disperse. Made a much needed incense holder. Got my motorcycle turning over and running again after it was conking out a lot last time I rode it. Took the bits that need welding together off. Laundry. Fresh sheets. Went down to the river to read and have a drink in the afternoon. Pretty nice. Left it too late to cook up some dinner. Just had pizza. Avocado seed starting to split. I forget how long I got with growing from an avocado seed last time I tried it. The plants from it are so cute. Want to get one grown. Bath. Pretty nice, long day. Grateful for a pretty solitary day. M: 5. E: 6. L: 0. 😇🙂😐😀

Groggy morning. Had five fillings done at the dentist. Dentist this time was really nice. I thanked her afterwards for how comforting and caring she was through the whole thing. She’s leaving the industry in the new year. Damn it. Would have liked to have gone to her again. Watched David and Mary’s horse race from the Cally. It was the favourite but didn’t place. Dang it. Visited Ash and Marty. Myrtle for dinner with mum. Watching Jonathan Livingston Seagull. M: 3. E: 3. L: 0. 🙂😑😐

Was laughing out loud last night while I was trying to get to sleep because I was remembering a bit on UYD where Seth off-handedly said that there was a restaurant that he went to regularly and that he never spoke in there and wrote things down when he would order, etc. Got a bit hysterical while remembering that. Late night and early morning - pro bono. Went too long without my meds and felt weird. Went into town to pick some up. Was at Macca’s at 10:29 AM and was able to cancel my order, change self-checkouts, and have the lunch menu option I wanted become available to me as the clocked ticked over to 10:30. Cow watched. Say at the campfire with Kellie and Les for a few hours. Was in a really crappy mood and not my best self all day. Doh. M: 2.5. E: 4. L: -10. 💩😠😤😑😐

Too cosy in bed to get up early. And it only got more cosy as the sun came up. Work. Same shit. Walk with the girls. Nice light this evening. Done some pro bono in the evening. M: 3. E: 3. L: -7. 😐🔥😑😤

Insanely busy at work today. Very frustrating. Almost cried. Ugh. Hopefully the new tool makes things more manageable soon. Was going to stay on and work after hours but can’t. Missed my pills and didn’t get to eat until after 5. Was going insane. Walk with mum and Ash. Allegedly ‘kidnapped’ child in WA allegedly ‘found.’ Frog sounds are back. Finna get up early tomorrow. I’ve completely struck out on getting any TLC from a chick through the usual apps/posts/etc route, so I’m going to have to hire a sex worker for a GFE. Even the thought of sex work is triggering for me usually, so it’s not going to be as quick as opening the Yellow Pages and making a call, but it should be quicker than waiting for no matches or no dates through apps/etc - so I guess it has to be done. Ugh. Will definitely be awkward if it happens. Ordered myself a pressie. M: 2.5. E: 3. L: -7. 😓💩😤😑

Melbourne cup public holiday. Up early. Watched the cows for a while. Walk with aunty et al. Got haircut. Browsed market. Quick dip with sister and boys. Water was a bit scummy. Looking forward to some beach swims when there are more hot days. Had a beer and chill down at the river in the evening. Parenting show ep two. Looks like the little jetty down at the mill has been removed. I really want to know the story of that. Tried bits of a lot of foraged foods today. Should try to do more of that stuff. M: 3.5. E: 3.5. L: 0. 😐😠

Groggy. Work. Long day training a new coder. Tech issues and stuff. Checked on Bambi the cow a few times. Cute. New cows delivered. Cute too. Didn’t eat all day. Then had an Eskimo pie, a McDonald’s sundae, and a bowl of ice cream with topping. I might go on a diet and try to get fit. Feel pretty ordinary. The parenting show was on and was pretty spicy! I think they should have given the parents a few wines each before they critiqued each other’s parenting though! Did the dishes. Bed. So this is what my life will be for the foreseeable future, huh? Starting to feel a bit humdrum. M: 3. E: 3. L: 0. 😑😍😠

Couple chores. Flat. Headache. Got ballache in the anti-mandate telegram chat for calling out antisemitism. Went to Kmart. Napped in the afternoon. Cousins new baby cow came. Very cute. Menulog order was late as hell and the food was crap. Feel sick. M: 3. E: 3. L: -5. 😐😑