Luke Hand Diary

Work. Busy day, with still more work pouring in all day. Fuck sake. One chat with one lady about another project coming along. She’s very nice and thoughtful, so that was nice. That new project that’s coming along is also on an intense and potentially triggering subject as well. There seems to be many projects that we’re working on concurrently that are really heavy. Crazy rain and hail and wind all day. Worked a bit later after 5, but my conversation with the 29 year old Tasmanian receptionist quickly became more interesting than work and I packed it in for the day. Had a glass of wine and some cake. David was very blue and I talked with him and - I think I saved his life. He now accepts that he’s in a tough situation right at the moment but that this time will pass and life will be good again soon. M: 4. E: 2. L: -4. 😓😠🙂

Woke up early. Recorded birds singing on the deck. Played the birdsong back to them and the birds really reacted and flew right over to me. Walked. Crappy mood and annoyed by everyone. Bored as hell. Cooked soup. Snoozed all day and feel crap. Didn’t get to things I wanted to do this weekend. M: 3. E: 3. L: -7. 💩😤😴😑

Nephews got me up in the hour of 7 AM. Cuddles with the little one. They got on my nerves by 9 and I froze them out. Work - blergh. Was so tired all day. TGIF. Dawson’s Creek. Ushered a fly out a window. The mix of feelings you get when you finally get a fly out is one of those things that I could imagine that there is a word for in other languages but not a direct English translation for. I love it. M: 3.5. E: 3. L: -3.25. 😴😓😐

Work. Lots of check-in chats. Good to riff with a couple of the squad now that we’re over the hump with a couple of big projects. Still accelerating and getting more busy for your humble fabulous though. A higher-up explained the various files or processes that we talk of when we say “lookups” at my work. Clarified for me that we are talking about completely separate things half the time when someone talks about “lookups”. Words matter! Had a big bowl of ice cream in the drive across town. Fed the magpies. Sox ate some of the protein I put out for the birds. The birds weren’t impressed. Thank God it’s Friday tomorrow. What a week! Had a bath while fully dressed for a laugh. M: 3. E: 3.5. L: 0. 😇😍😐😔

Norm Macdonald “bought the farm,” E-I-E-I-O! F. That was sad news in the morning. I might need to watch a bunch of clips when I get a chance. Had a beautiful Chinese gooseberry at breakfast. Wooooooooorrrrrkkk. Got some work finished in the end. Bit short tempered today after staying up til after 2 on that fucking [REDACTED] job last night. Fed the birds. A magpie came inside. Dropped some stuff up to the hospital for [REDACTED]. Snacks. Dawson’s Creek.

Was thinking about how it’s both good and bad to be the nicest guy I know. On the one hand, i don’t have to feel jealous of someone being nicer than me constantly. On the other hand, it’s frustrating because if everyone was just a bit nicer, then we’d all be better off! M: 4. E: 4. L: 0. 😇😐😍😆

Work. Fast day again. Me and my work wife [REDACTED] have totally got this! Two days into our new era and things are still going swimmingly! Need to work out how much is enough to feed the magpies. Seems like they’ll just come back often all day if I feed them every time they ask for food. Met with the nephews down at the river to wet a couple of lines. Had a foot race around the oval and I nearly died. Mowed the lawn. Back home for some pro bono in the evening. I want this current project finished. So fucking annoying. Having a night coffee. Going to put on some jumping rock n roll music to keep me awake. There’s an Apple event at 3 AM tomorrow I think. Might catch it live at this rate. We’ve got a fox lurking around the yard apparently! 👀 M: 3.5. E: 5. L: 0. 😐😓😑😇

Work - day went fast. Walk with mum. My knock-off Apple Watch band arrived - $5 of the purchase price goes to the fine folks at Beyond Blue. Might have to order some more bands through this mob. Listened to the last Low album a couple times and most of the new one. Bloody hell, this sounds great. Can’t wait for more music tomorrow! Bit more awake today, thank god. Some Dawson’s Creek before bed. Damn some of these girls in this are cute. M: 4. E: 5. L: 0. 😐

Got up in the middle of the night. My sleeping is all out of whack. Watched a bit of Rage. Then slept in. Helped mum set up grandma’s shower seat thing. I hope to hell that that was done alright actually. Good to have a chat with Chief. Was tired and snoozed half the day. I think I’m stressed about a big job that’s sort-of-due tomorrow. Could just start on it now but I’m being avoidant of how much there is to do and of copping grief for it being late. Not ideal. Had a headache all day. Pretty crap mood. Flat. Bit sick of masks as well, while I’m complaining. My average heart rate today: 72 bpm. M: 3. E: 2. L: 0. 😴😐😢😑

9/11 twentieth anniversary. Nephews visited. They were funny and nice today. A few cuddles. I stayed home and napped while they went out. Watched a tonne of Dawson’s Creek. Starting to get good. Big veg cook up. M: 5. E: 4. L: 0. 😐😴😆😍