Bipolar Disorder, pharmaceuticals, benzos, side effects, antipsychotics...things are complicated.

https://instagram.com/hollyhearingsthings/

Books:

Leader, D. (2013). Strictly bipolar. Penguin Books Ltd.

Whitaker, R. (2011). Anatomy of an epidemic: Magic Bullets, psychiatric drugs, and the astonishing rise of Mental Illness in America. Crown.

Manic in Miami and Maine! Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar Disorder with Kevin Miller, a Dad of three living on an island in Maine. I added a bit of text! Facts and opinions no one needs to know. I over edited and threw off the audio/video sync in several places. Sorry. I don’t have Premiere. This has taken all my free time, so I can’t redo it. Music by Nick County! https://open.spotify.com/artist/7CRqoi5lupDzfXXqv1oXnI?si=LsW6WVM-TzaLKGhyBrZTgg

Timestamps and links below!

for resources, triggers, disclaimer + podcast guide: https://manicinmiami.substack.com/p/manic-in-miami-mental-health-resources

Host Holly Hurricane Hearing Things https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings

Kevin Kayaking Miller contact Kevin with any comments or questions! https://instagram.com/k.b.marx/

Timestamps:

intro

(00:00)

Borderline Personality Disorder

(00:57)

 Pete Davidson shout out

(04:05)

alcoholism + mental illness discovery

(08:55)  

medication + stable life

(12:00)

Adverse Childhood Experiences, genes + intergenerational trauma

(12:57)

accepting mental illness + treatment

(18:55)

disclosing mental illness to your kids, gender equality in the family

(22:35)

take your meds + thank you for watching

(29:40)

Manic in Miami Podcast: Wild Video Episode with two "aging hipster pieces of shit"

Jonathan Price of NYC: Schizophrenic Hipster, International Spy, Ex-Sommelier, Entrepreneur, Radical Writer, Rare Book Dealer, into torture and politics.

Host Holly Hurricane of Coconut Grove, Miami: Crazy Cat Lady, International Librarian of Mystery (former expatriate), Schizoaffective former Brooklynite, into writing and rare books.

https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

Timestamps:

intro excerpts

00:00:00

fashion and interior design check

00:01:11

psychiatric institutions, human rights, official intro

00:13:30

anti-psychiatry, identity, psychotic states

00:28:06

"a lot of things are happening"

00:36:16

chewing charred remains

00:39:13

life and psychiatric history

00:43:32

present day, writing, coping

00:55:57

happy ending

01:05:41

⁠trigger: sensitive topic warning: suicide, substances, severe mental health struggles

National Suicide Prevention Hotline

https://988lifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/

17 min One year anniversary of the podcast with an update intro and never heard recordings: Manic in Africa, psychotic voicemail, Todd Tornado, Yero on Trippy Redd and schizoaffective from an unused episode, bit of Jordan unedited and cult leader further info, meaning in life with French guest Laurène who I’m meeting in Paris next month, me record speed laugh to cry Yay lol

https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

My follow-up "fun" edit: Eminem in the psych ward and 25 minutes of extended psychosis stories and "strictly psychosis" chat. Jewish Owl and Holly Hurricane, Demon Advocate, girlfriend of ghosts. Timestamps below (app only)

instagram (I talk to the imaginary and the real)

https://instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

Timestamps:

(00:00) Lose Yourself, Snap OUT of reality;

(03:31) Jewish Owl (Matthew) background;

(4:58) What is Psychosis?...REALLY;

(8:10) More of Matthew's Psychotic Experiences (and a recent one of mine) + Meaning/Insight;

(14:44) Medication;

(15:12) A demon here, a demon there and our joint mild psychosis;

(18:21) Respect, Dignity, Hearing Voices Network;

(19:57) Delusions as Metaphors + Creativity Fuel;

(23:43) Conclusion THANK YOU;

- Sincerely, Holly Hurricane the Manic in Miami

links to organizations mentioned in the episode:

National Alliance of Mental Illness

https://nami.org/Home

The Hearing Voices Network

https://www.hearing-voices.org/

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Alliance

https://www.samhsa.gov/

The Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance

https://www.dbsalliance.org/

If you are in crisis:

https://988lifeline.org/

The Wise Jewish Owl (Matthew) and Wild Tigertail (Holly Hurricane) discuss their psychosis experiences, science of trauma and psychosis, finding meaning and connection in psychosis and within community, psychoanalysis, and more. Substack link to information discussed forthcoming (update/link as episode post). TIMESTAMPS:

(00:00) intro

(02:29) NAMI + Mental Health community

(03:44) Definition + examples of psychotic experiences

(08:31) TRAUMA: physical + mental health implications

(11:54) socioeconomic barriers to MH treatment

(18:26) Philip K. Dick + Insight in Psychosis

(20:45) more on Matthew's psychosis

(23:25) psychoanalysis + childhood

(28:39) non-Western cultures + contexts

(31:25) Western individualism

(32:37) "The Most Intense Life Possible" - Jacques Derrida (philosopher)

(34:30) Repressed Memories as Demon Hallucinations ...and Eminem

(37:35) "The Body Keeps Score" explaining mind body connection in memory, trauma, psychosis

(40:30) Medication "Keeping Up with The KarXT-dashians"

(42:49) "A Demon Here, a Demon There"

(44:02) Delusion as Metaphor..Ayahuasca...

(44:45) Human Condition + Connection

(45:30) Interpersonal Relationships, Healing, Pop Psychology Problems

song: Matthew Wilder "Break My Stride" related to manic story in episode

Substack: https://manicinmiami.substack.com/

Manic State of Mind podcast: open.spotify.com/show/78R5vOVvX4Fyee9UR0MJA3?si=qmMEp1CoR5G-zRK_QXcoiw

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings/

Timestamps:Intro

brutal honesty (00:01:10)

Sky's ro-manic heartwarming story and LOVING a manic depressive (00:01:53)

Me reading an actual manic text from Dec 2021 + manic word association (00:06:24)

False identities + self-awareness (00:11:36)

psychosis: like psychedelics? (00:13:55)

mania and free expression and making connections, human-to-human, etc.: manic life

Russian Doll + NYC (00:28:08)

manic episode incoming: checklist NUDES + other facts about manic states: (00:30:37)

manic RAGE (00:39:23)

other stuff. just listen to the episode heheheSAVECROSS-POSTPrevious

I'm on the front page of The Miami Herald, and Manic in Miami was shouted out in the article!  https://www.miamiherald.com/news/business/real-estate-news/article269439622.html

Yero the Street Saxophonist with Schizoaffective Disorder, formerly UNHOUSED IN MIAMI (see: article) . Informative, funny, fascinating. Delusions of walking dead, doubles, cyclops...and assholes.

Timestamps below with topics!

Timestamps: 

(0:00) Intro

(1:43)   "We're all mad here" (everyone is mentally ill)

(2:17) What it is: Schizoaffective Disorder & Bipolar 1 w/ psychotic stuff 

(4:40)  The Collected Schizophrenias by Esme Weijun Wang

(5:55)  Diagnosis, Cause, Family History

(9:27)  Hallucinations, Stigma 

(13:03) Homelessness, Mental Illness, Addiction (have compassion) 

(18:32) Plato, Psychosis

(19:23) Homicidal thoughts hahaha edited out: he meant the flashes of horror we all experience 

(19:33) Cotard's delusion: excerpt & Yero's personal story 

(22:45) Psychosis delusion: entertainment or real life? excerpt & Yero's story 

(25:25)  One of my paranoid delusions & recent relapse

(27:44)  More delusions: Yero's stories CYCLOPS! 

(29:22)  Psychosis & Spiritual Meaning 

(31:03) Mania Theory: the LACK 

(32:19) one last delusion example: grandeur 

(34:09) Conclusion

Manic in Miami website  with subscribe buttons to major podcast platforms

Manic in Miami Substack a little absurd writing 

Special Intro from moi! Sky Menhardt, Host of Manic State of Mind podcast, kindly invited me on to discuss manic depressive life. 

Timestamps:

(0:00) my intro

(2:38) intro: manic state of mind 

(5:04) my "mental health journey"

(11:15) childhood psychology practice 5 cents + fearlessless in bipolar 1

(15:03) Kanye West

(16:53) difficulties and living with bipolar disorder

(25:58) shame and regret

(32:24) positive aspects of bipolar disorder

(44:00) how to help yourself (note: I am no expert..) and stigma

(48:31) Bipolar 1 vs Bipolar 2

(54:55) conclusion

Find her podcast here: https://open.spotify.com/show/78R5vOVvX4Fyee9UR0MJA3?si=9WMJzfhdRumR9lJObg9PcA 

And her Instagram here: https://instagram.com/manicstateofmindpodcast?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=  https://www.instagram.com/hollyhearingthings https://manicinmiami.com

**spontaneous and unscripted and unfiltered part 2?** 

Timestamps

(0:00) intro

(0:40) hearing voices + talking heads

(2:33) psychotic break: visual hallucination/recurring nightmare

(5:32) Jordan's hallucinations in Bellevue

(8:46) where do the psychotic experiences come from? 

(9:32) recovery, hospitalization, anhedonia

(14:12) does everyone experience a psychotic break?

(17:20) conclusion of story

My psychotic features of bipolar type 1 have been very rare and most recently occurred in February 2022. 

instagram: hollyhearingthings

site: Manic in Miami