A song about a time when I felt incapacitated by my own anxiety, but like, make it fun, kinda.
Lyrics:
Defenseless
Stripped of every habit that protects me
Sexy
If you like neurosis and fear of closeness
Precocious
Quick to fall apart thanks to a big headstart
Red heart
But what it pumps through me is
Matte beige and unvivacious
Afraid that I'm contagious
Afraid to turn the pages
And see what happens now
But it'll happen anyhow
Distracted
Trapped in autopilot, blankly smiling
Beguiling
If you like 'em vacant-eyed and pacing
Erasing
Everything but that which found me hapless
Cat piss
Soaking all my idle time and I'm at
Wit's end and feeling half-witty
I don't want to want it but I need your pity
If I don't get it I'll make do with my own
And my head in a cone
My life's completely blown
I spent it all just dealing