This episode was recorded in 2020 when I was at the lowest and darkest point of my addiction. PLEASE proceed with caution as I held nothing back.

WARNING: I talk about

Drugs while pregnant

babies born addicted to drugs

suicide

self harm

I mean the worst of the worst is in the episode and many more to come. If I could put what addiction is in the form of an mp3 file, this would be it!!!

and if you personally are feeling how I felt in this episode, PLEASE please please reach out for help!! I know you wont believe me now, but there is HOPE FOR YOU I PROMISE!!!

Suicide & Crisis Lifeline DIAL 988

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1-800-662-HELP (4357)

Well, I knew I was making all those recordings in active addiction and abuse because I wanted to share once I overcame that. and HERE I AM!! PLEASE bare with me, I know the audio isn't the greatest but I'm self taught so it's a process :)

Hi! I am Melissa and this is my truth