22:52 22.03.2026 succeeded in keeping sexual energy for much longer. Proud. Possible because of how tired of got of how much I came uselessly in life and how much energy that took from me.

Live is not the ejaculation.

Dealt with a lot of emotions from the yoga school. Still some left.

Looking forward to love more.

23:31 15.03.2026

Recorded Thursday 12th around 1 pm

23:20 08.03.2026

I’m done with everything. It’s all so stupid.

I’m giving everyone the benefit of the doubt when they’re shit.

Can’t believe it took me this long to really see the world’s darkness.

And I’m darker sweetheart. Believe me.

Khara 3a kulshi.

22:51 01.03.2026

1. ​03.2028 is going to be a special date

How long are you willing to wait for your love? Instead of chasing it?

I bought 4 wine tasting event tickets in Berlin. - overkill?

Where would I go!

I need a plan.

After meditating 30 mins 3x a day I remember after a midday meditation I went and passed out on the couch and disappeared from consciousness for a while.

I picked a fortune cookie (I had two options, left and right) and it told me doubting my faculties is completely useless. I agreed.

I’m returning the broken sonos and getting a new one. But I don’t have a working printer so I need to print it from the shop at hbf.

Should I fight?

22.02.2026 22:33

Ramadan

Decisions made and being made

Got rid of a lot of things in the apartment

Understanding my sensitivity more and more.

23:46 15.02.2026

Commitment and growth.

To a good next 6 weeks.

There’s a floss string stuck between my molars

Couldnt take it out

Ambiguity is the word of the week - being ok with it

Ambient music. Russian dubstep. Eagle. Giraffe. Bysone.

23:52 08.02.2026

I’m recording everything now

My thoughts are coming together better

I’m understanding marketing more

I have great appreciation for shoalin monks

Im practicing japanese consistently

Im going up and down the stairs in my building often (very meditative)

I went swimming and interval running this week

I had dinner with two friends

I stretched and did kungfu exercises with Liz

I did really well in sparring sessions

From idea to execution

Job still has odd energy

Kitkat was fun - I was a black demon

Took mini dose of Mushrooms with ‘keep me secure’ intention

Wrote the whole night the next morning

Aeon flux is an interesting reality

Ice on floor got easier

Pausing USC

20:15 01.02.2025

I’m coming back to focus again.

Looking forward to it.

Love you Khalid.

Let’s go.

This is a phase of coming back to focus.

Understanding what structure is.

Having a plan and moving forward.

And shibari, somehow. I went to a shibari jam on Thursday and chilled immensely. The atmosphere was so calming. The focus everyone gave while being so calm with such ambient music.

25.01.2026 23:16

Thank you for everything.

Thank you for thankfulness

18.01.2026 22:39 I’m aliiiive and wellll.

I need to put the meat in the freezer.

I have to sleeeeep.

I sparred yesterday and today. I’m alive.

Thank you God.