Midnight Wisdom

22:51 01.03.2026

1. ​03.2028 is going to be a special date

How long are you willing to wait for your love? Instead of chasing it?

I bought 4 wine tasting event tickets in Berlin. - overkill?

Where would I go!

I need a plan.

After meditating 30 mins 3x a day I remember after a midday meditation I went and passed out on the couch and disappeared from consciousness for a while.

I picked a fortune cookie (I had two options, left and right) and it told me doubting my faculties is completely useless. I agreed.

I’m returning the broken sonos and getting a new one. But I don’t have a working printer so I need to print it from the shop at hbf.

Should I fight?

22.02.2026 22:33

Ramadan

Decisions made and being made

Got rid of a lot of things in the apartment

Understanding my sensitivity more and more.

23:46 15.02.2026

Commitment and growth.

To a good next 6 weeks.

There’s a floss string stuck between my molars

Couldnt take it out

Ambiguity is the word of the week - being ok with it

Ambient music. Russian dubstep. Eagle. Giraffe. Bysone.

23:52 08.02.2026

I’m recording everything now

My thoughts are coming together better

I’m understanding marketing more

I have great appreciation for shoalin monks

Im practicing japanese consistently

Im going up and down the stairs in my building often (very meditative)

I went swimming and interval running this week

I had dinner with two friends

I stretched and did kungfu exercises with Liz

I did really well in sparring sessions

From idea to execution

Job still has odd energy

Kitkat was fun - I was a black demon

Took mini dose of Mushrooms with ‘keep me secure’ intention

Wrote the whole night the next morning

Aeon flux is an interesting reality

Ice on floor got easier

Pausing USC

20:15 01.02.2025

I’m coming back to focus again.

Looking forward to it.

Love you Khalid.

Let’s go.

This is a phase of coming back to focus.

Understanding what structure is.

Having a plan and moving forward.

And shibari, somehow. I went to a shibari jam on Thursday and chilled immensely. The atmosphere was so calming. The focus everyone gave while being so calm with such ambient music.

25.01.2026 23:16

Thank you for everything.

Thank you for thankfulness

18.01.2026 22:39 I’m aliiiive and wellll.

I need to put the meat in the freezer.

I have to sleeeeep.

I sparred yesterday and today. I’m alive.

Thank you God.

22:37 11.01.2026 recorded on the 9th at around 10pm

I’m uploading this from the airport as I wait for the border control.

Had a horrible sleep on the plane and felt a bit.. odd

Have been rather uncreative days and haven’t been able to write as I’d like.

Guess it’s the movement

Letting go of something again and allowing for something new. Let’s see how we grow and deal with this city.

I wanted to cry. A lot. And held it back. The sadness is real. And it’s fine. An opening of my heart.

14:31 04.01.2026

Feels sad to know I’m leaving here soon.

I see how emotionally regulating it is to have people around you who treat you as people instead of another object in their atmosphere. I understand why I broke at my ex housemate how I did. And how that energy and selfishness around me isn’t something to admire or appreciate.

I see that I’m forgiving of people too much instead of taking a stance at them that revives the energy I have in me. I can release that energy.

I can also see how letting emotions out in front of people who can hold them is quite great to move on quickly from things instead of holding on to them over and over.

I see how I’m procrastinating at work because I made it something thay it really isn’t in my head. I need to drop that and work well.

Alohaaaa

22:49 28.12.2025

In the hotel room. Excited but tired.

Tomorrow is a new day!