The Knowing Beneath Burnout: Living in Emotional Entanglement

In this episode, we explore a quieter truth about burnout.

What if you’re not exhausted because you’re doing too much —
but because you’ve been living inside long-standing emotional entanglement and over-responsibility?

Many women, especially women 40+, aren’t just tired from work. They’re depleted from years of managing emotional climates, staying in misaligned jobs or relationships, self-silencing to keep the peace, and using willpower where support and structure were needed.

I share parts of my own story — carrying adult responsibility from a young age, appearing steady while internally overwhelmed, and experiencing a physical collapse from severe burnout in 2023. During recovery, I began using creative expression and somatic awareness to untangle what rest alone couldn’t repair.

This conversation distinguishes between ordinary overwork exhaustion and the deeper corrosion of emotional messiness and misplaced responsibility. Because exhaustion isn’t always asking for more rest.

Sometimes it’s asking for softness.
Space.
Creative healing.
A reorganization of your inner systems.

At the end of the episode, I introduce an intimate program for women called The Untangling — a held container for those ready to move from emotional overwhelm into clarity, vitality, and sustainable structure.

If this resonates in your body, you’ll know.

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Curious about working together?

Explore: 

• An Inner Softening: Softening into Presence Guided Meditation. A radical simple art practice for understanding the integrity of your body's current state of energy.
• The Untangling - a somatic reshaping using art and breath. A space to loosen what you've been holding. Email for more information [email protected]. 

Thank you for tuning in to Mindfully Disruptive.

Until next time, may your voice be rooted in truth,
and your presence be your power. 

You're Not Fading—You're Just Done Performing: Redefining Beauty in Menopause

The beauty industry has a message for women in menopause: You're fading. You're aging out. You need to fight it, fix it, reverse it.
We call bullshit.

In this unapologetic ManiPause conversation, Patricia and Marina take on the beauty industry's exploitation of menopausal women's insecurities—and why we're done buying what they're selling.
We're not fading. We're not becoming invisible. We're just done performing beauty for the male gaze, for Instagram, for a society that profits off our fear of aging.

And what happens when you stop performing? You start radiating.
In this episode, we explore:
• How the beauty industry weaponizes menopause to sell you "solutions" to a problem that doesn't exist
• The insidious ways social media amplifies aging insecurity (filters, anti-aging content, "age-defying" everything)
• Cultural differences in how aging women are valued (and why Western culture fails us)
• What self-acceptance actually looks like when you've been conditioned to hate aging
• Challenging traditional beauty standards that were never designed for us anyway
• The difference between beauty (external performance) and radiance (embodied presence)
• Role models who are aging boldly and redefining what's possible
• Why self-love and authenticity are radical acts in a youth-obsessed culture

This conversation isn't about "embracing aging gracefully." Screw graceful. This is about embodying your power, your presence, your radiance—unapologetically.

We close with reflective questions for listeners:
• What would change if you stopped trying to look younger and started radiating who you actually are?
• Where are you still performing beauty instead of embodying radiance?
• What new definition of beauty do YOU want to initiate?

You're a Manifestor woman in menopause. You're not here to fade quietly. You're here to redefine what radiance looks like.
The beauty industry can keep their anti-aging creams. We're choosing presence, power, and embodied radiance instead.
🎧 Listen now

Love what you heard? We're just getting started.
This isn't just a podcast—it's a community of Manifestor women & all women reclaiming midlife on OUR terms.

Stay connected with us:
📍 Patricia Rundblade: @patricia_rundblade
Website: Patricia Rundblade
LinkedIn: Patricia Rundblade

📍 Marina Le Menn: @coaching_with_marina
Website: Coaching with Marina
LinkedIn: Marina le Menn

Share your own menopause stories, questions, and "wait, is this normal?!" moments in the comments or on our socials—we read everything and this community is built on real conversations.

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Because the more women who hear this message, the less alone we all feel.
See you in the next episode.

When Menopause Isn't a Choice: Ana Roxana's Journey Through Medical Menopause and Reclaiming Power

Some women enter menopause gradually. Anna Roxana Lia Chaga was thrust into it—medically induced at a young age during breast cancer treatment.

In this raw and powerful ManiPause conversation, Patricia and Marina welcome Ana Roxana—power systems engineer, artist, holistic practitioner, and Splenic Manifestor—for a deeply personal dialogue about navigating menopause when it's not on your timeline, not your choice, and compounded by cancer treatment.

Ana shares what most people don't talk about: the brutal reality of anti-hormonal therapy side effects, the loss of identity and sexuality, the fear that comes with a cancer diagnosis, and the long journey back to reclaiming your body, your power, and your sexual health.

This conversation goes deep:
• Medically-induced menopause during breast cancer treatment (and how it's different from natural menopause)
• Managing severe side effects from anti-hormonal therapy while trying to live your life
• The grief of losing your body's natural rhythm before you were ready
• Navigating perimenopause AFTER medical menopause (yes, that's a thing)
• Embracing her identity as a Splenic Manifestor and what that means for healing
• Reclaiming sexual health when your body has been through trauma
• The Breast Cancer Confidence Project and supporting women through the journey
• Holistic practices that supported her healing beyond Western medicine
• Trusting yourself and not letting fear dictate your decisions

Ana's message is clear: Don't let fear run your life. Trust yourself.
Whether you've been through medical menopause, natural menopause, cancer treatment, or are supporting someone who has—this conversation will remind you that reclaiming your power is possible, even when your body has been through the unthinkable.

This is what happens when Manifestor women refuse to let circumstances define them.
🎧 Listen now

Guest Info & Links:
Ana Roxana Ciupuliga
(Ah-nah Rok-sah-nah Choo-poo-lee-gah)
“I’m a Power Systems Engineer with a PhD, working as a Senior Policy Advisor in the energy sector, and I’m also an artist and holistic practitioner integrating various modalities.”
Website: anaroxana.com - music & creativity & arcofjoy.com - the place for spiritual, wisdom, healing, and shamanism. Offering at the moment: Photon Light Therapy.
Instagram: @anaroxanamusic & @arcofjoy

Love what you heard? We're just getting started.
This isn't just a podcast—it's a community of Manifestor women & all women reclaiming midlife on OUR terms.
Stay connected with us:
Patricia Rundblade: @patricia_rundblade
Website: www.patriciarundblade.com
LinkedIn: Patricia Rundblade
Marina Le Menn: @coaching_with_marina
Website: Coaching With Marina
LinkedIn: Marina Le Menn

Share your own menopause stories, questions, and "wait, is this normal?!" moments in the comments or on our socials—we read everything and this community is built on real conversations.
Help us spread the word:
* Share this episode with a woman who needs to hear she's not alone
* Leave a review (it helps us reach more listeners!)
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Because the more women who hear this message, the less alone we all feel.
See you in the next episode.

Nobody's the Boss of Me: Jewel's Journey from Resistance to Liberation and Awakening her heart

"Awakening the hearts of humanity is a tall order. And there's nothing else for me to do."

That's Jewel's orientation point—the place she comes back to at every turn, every challenge, every crossroad in life. And it's the thread that runs through this entire conversation.

In this deeply spiritual Manifestor-to-Manifestor dialogue, Patricia welcomes Jewel, an Emotional Authority Manifestor, for a conversation about soul purpose, surrender, and the courage to live from your heart—even when it feels impossibly big.

We explore:

• Finding your orientation point and having the courage to live it
• The spiritual journey of awakening—both your own heart and the hearts of others
• Intuition as your compass (and learning to trust what you know)
• The cyclical nature of life: rest, creativity, death, rebirth
• Grieving as a sacred practice (Jewel shares her journey through her sister's death)
• Navigating the tension between wounded and liberated heart expression
• Spiritual maturity: trust, surrender, and letting go of control
• The next edge: showing up from your heart without needing safe environments
• Soul purpose and entrepreneurship as spiritual practice
• Jewel's Oracle deck and programs for alignment and awakening

Human Design is woven throughout—not as the center, but as a map that validates what we already know in our souls.

This conversation isn't about labels or systems. It's about remembering who you are beneath all the conditioning. It's about choosing liberation over safety. It's about speaking from your heart even when it shakes.

If you've been searching for permission to live your soul's calling—even when it feels too big, too vulnerable, too much—this conversation is your reminder: there's nothing else for you to do.

The world needs your awakened heart.

🎧 Listen now

Guest Links:
Jewel Veitch
Spiritual Mentor for those seeking soul level fulfillment in all areas of their life and purpose work.
Facebook: veitch123
Linked In: Jewel Veitch
Instagram: @jewel.veitch
Website: Jewel Veitch
Ask about her - IGNITE program - For Soul Purpose Activation

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Explore: 
* Not sure if you are a Manifestor or one of the other non sacral energy types, grab a FREE chart here!
🎤 Want me to be a Manifestor Guest and share your story? Email me at [email protected]  
Let’s co-create something unforgettable.

Thank you for tuning in to Mindfully Disruptive.

Until next time, may your voice be rooted in truth,
and your presence be your power. 

Navigating the Symptoms: What Your Body Is Actually Telling You

Hot flashes. Anxiety. Weight gain. Brain fog. Insomnia. Mood swings. Joint pain. The list of perimenopause and menopause symptoms can feel endless - and when you're a Manifestor already managing unpredictable energy cycles, it can be completely overwhelming.

But here's what nobody tells you: there's no one-size-fits-all solution. What works for your friend, your sister, or the influencer online might not work for YOUR body. And that's okay.

In this episode, Patricia and Marina get personal about:

Their own symptom journeys - the real, messy, trial-and-error process of figuring out what actually helps versus what's just noise.

The full spectrum of symptoms that can show up during this transition - because naming what you're experiencing is the first step to addressing it.

Holistic approaches that are working for them - from acupuncture and dietary changes to supplement regimens and lifestyle modifications.

Medical interventions worth exploring - because sometimes you need both holistic AND medical support, and that's perfectly valid.

Why listening to YOUR body is more important than following anyone else's protocol - your authority knows what you need.

The power of boundaries, stress reduction, and lifestyle changes that actually honor your Manifestor design and menopausal reality.

This isn't about prescribing one "right way" to handle menopause symptoms. It's about empowering you to experiment, listen to your body's wisdom, and initiate your own path through this transition.

Your symptoms are real. Your body is communicating. And you have every right to try every approach until you find what works for YOU.

Love what you heard?
We're just getting started.
This isn't just a podcast—it's a community of Manifestor women & all women reclaiming midlife on OUR terms.

Stay connected with us:
📍 Patricia Rundblade: @patricia_rundblade
     LinkedIn: Patricia Rundblade
     Website: www.patriciarundblade.com
📍 Marina Le Menn: @coaching_with_marina
     LinkedIn: Marina LeMenn
     Website: Coaching With Marina

Share your own menopause stories, questions, and "wait, is this normal?!" moments in the comments or on our socials—we read everything and this community is built on real conversations.

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Because the more women who hear this message, the less alone we all feel.
See you in the next episode.

Full Circle: My Year-End Ritual: How I Close One Chapter Before Opening the Next

Most people stumble into January carrying everything unresolved from the year before. But what if you could close the year consciously—with clarity, completion, and intention?

Since 2016, I've practiced a year-end ritual that changed how I move through life. It's not about setting goals or making resolutions. It's about reflection, wisdom-gathering, and bringing closure to what's been—so I can enter the new year in balance and alignment.

In this episode, I pull back the curtain on my personal process and invite you to create your own.

Here's what we explore:

• Why rituals matter (and how they ground us in transition)
• My year-end reflection process: gathering wisdom from what worked and what didn't
• How Human Design and Gene Keys inform the way I close and open cycles
• The power of acknowledging BOTH successes and failures without judgment
• Why I don't set goals anymore—and what I do instead
• How to identify guiding words or phrases that anchor your year ahead
• Creating an intentional life free from the pressure of achievement

This isn't about productivity. It's about meaning.

If you've been racing through your days without pause, if the year is ending and you haven't processed what it taught you, if you're tired of goals that feel empty—this episode is your invitation to slow down and close the circle.

Your year deserves a proper ending. And you deserve to begin the next one with clarity, not chaos.

Grab your journal. Let's do this together.

If this episode stirred something true within you, share it with a fellow soul on the path.

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🌿 Email: [email protected]

🌿 Website: www.patriciarundblade.com

Curious about working together?

Explore: 
* The Full Circle: A Human Design End of Year Ceremony — for the full Full Circle ceremony and the downloadable PDF.
* Learn more about my secret members-only podcast, Burned and Reborn, where I drop real-time insights and spill the tea on the behind-the-scenes moments of what it looks like to live as a non sacral who burned out in a sacral ruled world and the path back to rebirth following my Human Design and Gene Keys profiles.
* Not sure if you are a Manifestor or one of the other non sacral energy types, grab a FREE chart here!

Thank you for tuning in to Mindfully Disruptive.

Until next time, may your voice be rooted in truth,
and your presence be your power. 

When Human Design Saves Your Life: A Conversation with Tshu Cardamatis

Some people discover Human Design out of curiosity. Others discover it because they're drowning—and it becomes the lifeline they didn't know they needed.

In this Manifestor-to-Manifestor conversation, Patricia welcomes Tshu Caradamatis for a deeply personal dialogue about how Human Design didn't just inform her life—it transformed it.

Tshu shares her journey into Human Design during one of the most challenging periods of her life, and how understanding her design as an Emotional Manifestor changed everything: her relationship with herself, her approach to parenting, her creative expression, and her capacity to finally stop fighting who she is.

This isn't just another Human Design conversation. This is about survival, healing, and coming home to yourself.

We explore:

·       The moment Human Design clicked and why it felt like permission to finally be yourself

·       What it's really like to live as an Emotional Manifestor (the wave, the initiation, the misunderstanding)

·       How understanding your design changes the way you parent—and the gift of raising children who know their design from the start

·       The healing power of creative expression when you're designed to initiate and impact

·       Advice for new Manifestors who are just beginning to understand their energy

·       What happens when you stop trying to fit into templates that were never meant for you

If you're a Manifestor who's been feeling like you're too much, too intense, or just fundamentally different—this conversation will remind you that you're not broken. You're designed exactly as you should be.

And if you're a parent trying to honor your child's unique design while navigating your own? Chu's insights will give you hope and practical wisdom.

This is what Manifestor-to-Manifestor conversations are meant to be: raw, real, and deeply initiating.

In the truest of transparency, we have some points that need to be corrected from the show:

• I, (Tshu) mentioned the 44–24 channel, but it’s actually 44–26. I’m not sure where the 24 came from — it’s my South Node, so I love it, but it’s in the Ajna, not the Ego. Close enough in number value though! 😄
• The other thing was about midlife transitions — I, (Tshu) bundled Uranus, Chiron, and Saturn into “returns,” when Uranus actually takes about 84 years to return, so it’s really his opposition around age 42.
• I’ve sat with it for a bit, but it still feels important to let you and your listeners know. 

Guest Info:
Tshu Cardamatis
Path Weaver, Clarity Guide, Creative
Guest Links:
Website: www.tshu.au
Facebook: Tshu Theres Cardamatis
Instagram: @iam.tshu

🎧 Listen now

If this episode stirred something true within you, share it with a fellow soul on the path.

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🌿 Email: [email protected]

🌿 Website: www.patriciarundblade.com

Curious about working together?

Explore: 
* The REVAMPED Session — for creative souls, changemakers, and leaders ready to embody their energetic truth, voice their medicine, and move with unapologetic clarity.
* Learn more about my secret members-only podcast, Burned and Reborn, where I drop real-time insights and spill the tea on the behind-the-scenes moments of what existential exhaustion really looks like and the many paths that helped me find my way - it may help you too!
* Not sure if you are a Manifestor or one of the other non sacral energy types, grab a FREE chart here!

Thank you for tuning in to Mindfully Disruptive.

Until next time, may your voice be rooted in truth,
and your presence be your power. 

When Your Manifestor Burst Meets a Hot Flash: Menopause at Work
You're in the middle of a creative surge - ideas flowing, momentum building, ready to make things happen. And then your body says "plot twist" with a hot flash, brain fog, or exhaustion that hits out of nowhere.

Welcome to being a Manifestor navigating menopause in the workplace.
Your Manifestor design already means your energy works in bursts and rest cycles - unpredictable by nature. Now layer on menopausal symptoms with their own chaotic rhythms, and you're managing double the unpredictability in workplaces built for sameness and consistency.

In this episode, Patricia and Marina get real about:

• The unique challenges menopausal Manifestors face at work - when your natural energy patterns collide with hormonal chaos and corporate expectations of "showing up the same every day."
• Why menopause symptoms like brain fog, fatigue, and mood shifts get misinterpreted (and sometimes weaponized) in professional settings - and how to navigate that without shrinking yourself.
• Self-advocacy that doesn't require apologizing for your biology - practical strategies for communicating your needs while honoring your Manifestor design.
• What workplaces actually need to change - from flexible schedules to open dialogue to real support that goes beyond lip service.
• Managing your energy and avoiding burnout when you're already working with two unpredictable cycles at once.

• Whether you're navigating corporate culture or running your own business, this conversation offers honest insights on moving through this transition with your power intact. Because menopause at work isn't about "managing symptoms quietly" - it's about creating space for natural transitions in professional environments.

Join the conversation. Your experience matters.

Love what you heard? We're just getting started.
This isn't just a podcast series—it's a community of Manifestor women & all women reclaiming midlife on OUR terms.

Stay connected with us:
📍 Patricia Rundblade: @patricia_rundblade
     LinkedIn
     Website: Patricia Rundblade
📍 Marina Le Menn: @coaching_with_marina
     LinkedIn
     Website: Coaching with Marina

Share your own menopause stories, questions, and "wait, is this normal?!" moments in the comments or on our socials—we read everything and this community is built on real conversations.

Help us spread the word:
* Share this episode with a woman who needs to hear she's not alone
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Because the more women who hear this message, the less alone we all feel.
See you in the next episode.

Resource Links: 
https://news.stanford.edu/stories/2025/03/menopause-earnings-economics-study
https://swhr.org/study-shows-only-31-of-women-feel-comfortable-talking-about-menopause-at-work/
https://www.shrm.org/topics-tools/news/inclusion-diversity/viewpoint-understanding-the-impact-of-menopause-in-the-workplace

Boredom as Medicine: What Your Exhaustion is Really Asking For

We're terrified of boredom. So we fill every empty moment—scrolling, consuming, moving, doing—anything to avoid the discomfort of stillness.

But what if boredom isn't the enemy? What if it's actually the medicine your exhausted body has been begging for?

In this episode, I dive into something deeper than physical tiredness—existential exhaustion. The kind that makes you wonder if you can keep going. The kind that rest doesn't touch because it runs so much deeper than your body.

I share my own journey through Gene Key 40's Shadow of Exhaustion, recounting journal entries from my darkest burnout moments and a panic attack I had while working at the Grand Canyon that forced me to finally stop running.

Here's what I learned: The exhaustion wasn't asking me to do more. It was asking me to pause. To be still. To be bored.

In a world that glorifies productivity and demonizes downtime, boredom has become radical resistance. It's the space where your nervous system can finally exhale. Where your soul can speak. Where wisdom emerges from the quiet.

In this episode:

• Why existential exhaustion requires more than physical rest
• Gene Key 40's Shadow of Exhaustion and what it reveals about our relationship with stillness
• My panic attack story and the moment I realized I couldn't outrun my exhaustion
• Why we're so uncomfortable with boredom (and what that discomfort is protecting us from)
• The restorative power of doing absolutely nothing
• Practical ways to incorporate stillness into daily life without it feeling like another task

Your exhaustion has been trying to tell you something. Maybe it's time to get bored enough to finally hear it.

If you've been running from the quiet, this episode is your permission slip to stop.

If this episode stirred something true within you, share it with a fellow soul on the path.

Leave a review to help amplify voices like yours — voices that disrupt, remember, and realign.

Let’s stay in sacred conversation:

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🌿 Email: [email protected]

🌿 Website: www.patriciarundblade.com

Curious about whats on offer?

Explore: 
* Burned and Reborn — a private podcast that spills the beans on my journey from existential exhaustion to emergence with a renewed understanding of how to live in alignment with my Human Design.
* Want to go deeper into your exhaustion and discover your own path to the medicine within your chart - check out REVAMPED
* Not sure if you are a Manifestor or one of the other non sacral energy types, grab a FREE chart here!

🎤 Want me to bring this energy to your stage, circle, or sacred space?
Drop me an email at [email protected]. 
Let’s co-create something unforgettable.

Thank you for tuning in to Mindfully Disruptive.

Until next time, may your voice be rooted in truth,
and your presence be your power. 

When the External Guide Goes Quiet: Finding Your Manifestor Energetic Rhythm in Menopause

For years, you may have linked your Manifestor rhythm to your menstrual cycle—that reliable rise and fall of energy, creativity, and rest. But what happens when perimenopause and menopause make that rhythm irregular, unpredictable, or gone altogether?

In this episode of ManiPause, Patricia and Marina get real about the energy cycle confusion that comes with this transition. When your body stops giving you that obvious hormonal signal, how do you know when to initiate and when to rest? How do you recalibrate when the external guide goes quiet?

We share our personal experiences navigating these unpredictable energy waves, exploring how to tune back into our bodies without the menstrual cycle as our compass. From lunar cycles to listening more deeply to subtle body signals, we discuss practical strategies for honoring the Manifestor 80/20 rhythm (rest/initiation) during this transformative phase.

In this episode:

• How perimenopause and menopause shift the Manifestor energy cycle
• What to do when your reliable rhythm becomes unpredictable
• Tuning into body signals beyond the menstrual cycle
• The role of lunar cycles in finding new rhythm
• Honoring rest when you can't "see" the pattern anymore
• The lessons of surrender and trust this transition demands
• Practical ways to recalibrate and embrace your creative bursts

This isn't about losing something—it's about relearning how to listen differently. Your Manifestor rhythm didn't disappear. It's just asking you to find it in a new way.

Reflection question: How has your energy cycle shifted, and what new signals is your body offering you?

Love what you heard? We're just getting started.

This isn't just a podcast—it's a community of Manifestor women & all women reclaiming midlife on OUR terms.

Stay connected with us:
📍 Patricia Rundblade: @patricia_rundblade
Website: www.patriciarundblade.com
LinkedIn: Patricia Rundblade
📍 Marina Le Menn: @coaching_with_marina
Website: Coaching with Marina
LinkedIn: Marina Le Menn
📍 Follow other content on Instagram @the.unholy.mystic.crone

Share your own menopause stories, questions, and "wait, is this normal?!" moments in the comments or on our socials—we read everything and this community is built on real conversations.

Help us spread the word:
* Share this episode with a woman who needs to hear she's not alone
* Leave a review (it helps us reach more listeners!)
* Like and comment—tell us what resonated with you
Because the more women who hear this message, the less alone we all feel.
See you in the next episode.