MISCELLANEOUS JOURNALING: 🗣️....🖋️

The libraries are one of my safe spaces.
I will not allow anyone particularly children to corrupt that space.

What's happening and being done now didn't just start.
The fact that she's STILL using
manipulating/triangulating tactics after all these years.
I've had enough.
I will NOT be silent!

I won't stop or be bullied out of going to this park.
This is MY park!!!😡

Why I stopped going to Roy Wilkins Park.

White stuff in kettle
Gouges/scratches in floor
Roach (new bldg, NONE in refuge room)

All of these things are happening makes one go hmmm 💭

Dear Lord I speak to you from a sunken place. A place that I am being kept by evil oppressors.
Help me Lord for the wickedness and cruelty that has besotted me I do not deserve.
A comprehensive effort is being contrived to keep me down to keep me poor.
I put my trust in you GOD for this evil to stop.

Whatever I speak about that affects me in a negative way the enemy will do it more.
Whatever I speak about in a POSITIVE aspect the enemy will turn that same thing to something negative.
They will have people I considered good or kind to be unkind, rude or disrespectful towards me.
I am surrounded by so much HATE and EVIL.

If it wasn't for GOD.....

Don't spend your dollars where you are NOT respected nor appreciated.
Why didn't he want to look under that cashier's counter?🤔

GOD knows I can't do anything about it right now.
I have to take it.
She tells people when I'm coming off the elevators.
Tells people when I'm coming off the bus.
Tells people when I'm coming off the train.
Tells people when I'm leaving the bldg.
I can only put my trust in the most high.
All the neighbors know what goes on on my phone.
I never gave them my number.
I don't even know them.

I've been applying to many jobs.
Even when I fit the position they are told not to hire me.
This sort of discrimination has had a significant toll on my mental well being.
In a future podcast I will go into much more detail on the racism and discrimination I'm facing in the good ol blue state of NY.
Imagine someone who uses manipulation and racist tactics to keep a black woman in poverty in modern day America.