When I was younger I was able to party more easily because there were no hidden fees. Any exclusiveness was front and center. The cost at the door determines what your double would be. Ten dollars at the door definitely meant you were going to double that once inside. For women you usually got in free and so your double at that time meant the drinks would be around seven or eight dollars.

Also clubs was were fun. You go in to go to the dance floor. That was always the plan. Today is more like everyone wants to look cute then sit down. No one is used to wearing heels to the club because now people are wearing tennis shoes more often than not. The art of balancing on a vaulted shoe while walking or dancing feels lost.

This isn’t the hidden cost I write of. It is all of the fees and surcharges. I now hav

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I love to rest but I also love a good time. Dancing releases so much pent up frustration for me. I become so much more jovial when dancing.

I went dancing recently at this club-a rooftop bar. Women are there sitting like it's a brunch. Smiling about little comments or super small talk. Men are sitting on their phones or dapping each other up a for what - iono. The music was loud. You had to scream your drink order out.

Its amazing what sound panels do. I couldn't hear much from the door.

Dancing by myself was great. A friend and I came together. We are both dancing by ourselves, but together :). I only dance with men not for them - well ya know.

Then I went dancing at the Southern Feedstore… we originally went for food but i heard music. I go order some food and the head back to the dance floor. I start sashaying my hips to the rhythmof the music. A guy approachesme and extends his hand. I say yes because I came to dance! Boy did we dance. He was an excellent lead. I kept up with him.

It was the most amazing dance I've had in a while. I was dancing Semba! He asked how long have I been dancing Semba. I said I dont, you are a great lead. The dance was so sensual. I felt like I was in a movie the way I kept up. People were looking and clapping. It was amazing. My friend said I was cheesing so hard.

The night ended great without a date. He was not in my age range. Check out the shoe for the first half of the night.

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*I can’t remember where this art work is from. If it is yours I can change it.

I decided to share this writing from 2000. I typed it out. A picture of a section is below.

“When is the age we stop living life? This unconscious state of living drives me cray. People stop living mentally; not physically or being brain dead medically. Trying to maintain a conscious state of mind drives me crazy. The reason people only use 10% of their brain is because [they] get tired of thinking. Sometimes I don't feel like I am a part of this world. I try to force people to think by not thinking all the way through myself. Trying to be a humanitarian, I hurt myself by losing my brainpower because I want other people to think. I've thought these same thoughts when I was younger and decided not to spill.

People say thinking is too hard. How about not thinking is harder. If you forgot how to tie, buckle, or strap your shoes you would be a Pandora box ready to blow open. You would be ready to take it out on other people.”

Do you go back to your past writings to see if you have changed? Do you still carry some of your core beliefs from adolescence? How have you changed or expanded your viewpoints?

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July 29 is the beginning of a personal legacy. It isn't celebrated by anyone but me. I love this date for the many opportunities that were presented to me. It is the date that Beyonce released an album on 29 July 2022 - Renaissance. I actually channeled that date on twitter. I added to my bio before the date was released.

The numbers two and nine equal eleven which by numerology is a master number for building…

I hope I am able to remember it for always. Not for the heck of it but what happened on and after that day. The July 29 of a particular year that hard-launched me into adulthood. I was ready. I wanted to be wherever July 29th was taking me.

Did I have hard moments come about after July 29th? Yes! They don’t surpass the pains I experienced prior to July 29th. I don’t every wish to return to where I was before then. I only wish to have the flat stomach of when I was 19. July 29 reminds me of the chance I took on myself . How I became the master builder of my future.

Do you have numbers that resonate with you?

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Terms:

Delay - a period of time by which something is late or postponed

Deny - refuse to give or grant (something requested or desired) to (someone)

What is it about life and delays? Why can’t the answer/solution/goal just be completed with very little resistance. Resistance is natural, you expect a little resistance. Delays…as soon as there is a delay the line follows.

“I don’t think this is gonna(going to) work.”

There are many types of delays. If you have worked in an office of some sort you recognize what those are immediately. Delays are not just at the personal level. Delays can be within or out of your control. Delays can be excusable and inexcusable. There are cognitive delays, emotional, and physical delays. How you approach or deal with those delays in some ways determines the crux of your denial.

Here I want you to focus on denials within your control. Take a look at one thing on your plate of work orders or tasks that are within your control.

Have you started that outline for that book?

Have you spoke your idea into existence?

Have you ordered that item yet?

Have you reached out and asked for help?

Take a chance to step out from behind of the thoughts of things you can't do because you are waiting on someone or something else. Maybe you can't write the entire book today; though you are able to start with a small spiel of why you want to.

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Like the raven said “Forever more…”

Lying is avoidable. The definition of lying is not telling the truth. You have to be not doing something that should come natural to do. Lying is biggest peeves. I don’t even want you to tell a fib, which is still a lie but now it sounds like a “small” lie - whatever that is supposed to mean.

To be made part of the lie is even worse. That person that was offended is pointing at you and you are pointing to the person who did the offending. By the world’s opinion you are all are told to look at yourself and see how you contributed to the lie.

THAT IS THE CRAZIEST PUBLIC GAS-LIGHTING MOVE!

And it has to stop. The ignorant, non guilty parties do not need to be given grace for something that was outside of their knowledge. What they want is the truth and to be allowed to make a decision.

*this is a re recording of 7. The first one was garbage.

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What excites you? Is it the new things you encounter. Is it the old and gently weathered ideas that return every 20 years amongst the collective.

How do you find excitement if it isn't through nostalgia? Do you explore different concepts, people, places, and ideas? I challenge myself by approaching life with an, although structured, open mind - my curiosity is my super power.

Take the time to find what excites you in life.

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What is love? Like how do you do it? Every since I hade the business management course at Saint Leo online, I've formulated that relationships also adhere to the forming, storming, norming, performing, and adjourning model. Only that storming stage occurs often for some, a great deal often. Also performing comes earlier with all involved.

The performing part of the relationship always sets the tone of how hard the storms will be. Were you here for the betterment of your partner or to win an award for best performance?

The performance part of a relationship is so important during the storms. Adding the the different scenes up, returns the bigger picture. That maybe the person you thought could be for you was only for themselves.

Could you be with someone for the rest of your life if they were only in it for themselves? Would your anger incite them to do something stupidly. I've done some things and they have all been worth it.

Love should be kind but love is what love does.

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Being an oldest daughter comes with advantages. You are able to ease into leadership roles naturally. Your foresight is usually pretty good. You can size up a situation immediately upon entering and getting it under control. Chaos doesn't seem to overwhelm you so much as an older daughter. You are also naturally encouraging to those around you.

Oldest daughters suffer from feeling lonely when not used for something. It's not easy being a naturally quiet leader. Restless and ready. Who shows sympathy when the same isn't always granted.

We do have to grow from that mindset and feel true rest by allowing space for someone else to take up the mantle.

In what ways was as an oldest doaughter did you find peace with your duty.

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