MY Healing Journal..From Once Broken To I AM

You do not fit in, because you do! You are unique - own it!

Have a limitless mindset , your soul tribe , ancestors and destiny helper may not like you.

There is no light without darkness

Adversities was never meant to break you.

Saying goodbye to what you once knew will be easy. However, to embrace your authentic self, you have to release the old you.

This is my experience , my unique blueprint.

The quote I used on my forgiveness journey was

“ It is within me that I seek, not on me, not for the validation of others.” First I had to be comfortable knowing :

Sometime I will be the villain in someone’s else’s story and that’s okay:

sometime i will be the warriors and hero in others.

Not everyone will agree with me and that was normal.

I have always here the saying: “Forgiveness is not for the perpetrators it is for you. “

I never truly understand this until I was on a journey called THE DARK NIGHT of THE SOUL.”

A journey that brings up scratching unbearable pain. A journey that trigger anger towards myself for what I allowed all my life.

A journey that trigger me to forgive myself and release guilt and shame.

A journey that requires me to forgive my entire family and walk away for them all. The root in which all my traumas started since birth.

A decisions that broke my heart severely but brings peace to my soul and respect for myself. A respect that kept on elevating to the highest version of self.

I wanted to forgive and I needed it to be genuine.

I was tired of living in a repeated toxic cycle.

I was ready to heal..

I was ready to take accountability for my action.

I was ready to forgive myself.

I was ready to let go of all my guilt and shame.

During my healing I realize I had to be my own villain I had to be resilient I and to be aggressive and rebellious to the negative and procrastinating thoughts.

I could not heal with passiveness I had to heal with aggressiveness.

I had to command self-respect

I had to command self-love

I command consistent

I command discipline

And most importantly

I command staying grounded In my uniqueness.

First I had to understand that I can forgive everyone that hurtled me and never give them access to my life ever again:

Secondly.. I had to understand that I had to forgive on my own terms, not on the expectation of others or society's standards.

Not only did I have to forgive emotionally.

It had to be felt on a energetic level.

From failure, there is no other way but to win.

Adversities were never meant to keep you down, it was meant to shape you into the strongest version of yourself.

Your respect for yourself, and your drive to win has to be stronger than your feelings.

Yes, it was not fear of what had happened to you, but how long are you going to let it define you?

The hardest part of my healing was changing my mindset from limited to limitless. From worthlessness to know I am worthy. I just know I was tired of the basics and I wanted more I wanted to elevate into the highest version of myself.

Was it easy? Goeh no but I refused to give this time around.

No one was coming to save me and even if someone tried to come and save me. If I was not ready to be saved, that effort would have been in vain.

Only I have the blueprint for my mind and energy therefore only I can decide when enough is enough.

My healing journal from once broken to I am.. Was not an easy road. My Healing requires dedication, discipline and consistency.

I cannot and will not convince anyone to start healing. I can only used my experience as an example.

Know who you are and demonstrate it. Be fearless and courageous, there will always be that final test. How you handle it, is on you. Close toxic cycle without judgements.

Do you mind explaining these questions

If Lucifer is the ruler of this world,

Does that mean we are in hell?

Is this the reason why we should celebrate death and mourn birth?

So above as below, does that mean above is light and below is dark?

Is the reason for so many different religions and beliefs, is it because we came from different planets?

Is earth a school for hard lessons, prison for some, karmic death or lesson or a mentor a teacher leading to consciousness?

What if,

we are here either to fix our karma and make things right or just here on a divine mission to help ppl see the light?

Careful though while here fixing karma or on a divine mission We do not create new karma or didn't finish or even start our healing or our mission. What on the day of expiration of the flesh we are denied access to our planet of origin, because we failed our mission. So, we have to come back and repeate it. What if you can't stop success, because we are up next.

Do you stay in guilt and shame or do you move forward?