In this episode I talk about why I was drinking and how alcohol started to consume so much space, misconceptions about what an alcoholic looks like and why I continue to choose not to drink. You can follow my blog and contact me at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about watching a family video from before my husband died, how I struggle with finding a balance between what feels like self care and what feels like avoiding my life and the judgment I was having for myself for needing to rest. You can follow my blog and contact me at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how isolating grief can be, how resisting my emotions would result in panic attacks and how much I relate to Christina Applegate’s character in Dead to Me. I also read my blog post, “Other Widows Don’t Feel This Way.” You can follow my blog and contact me at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how I never really learned to trust myself, deciding who I want to be now that my husband is gone and how I make myself a priority to show myself that I matter. I also share my blog post Survival Mode. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about the stigma around suicide, how I respond when someone asks me how my husband died and how I was able to turn my anger into empathy. I also read my blog post, The “S” Word. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.

In this episode I talk about how my husband and I met, common misconceptions about addiction and alcoholism, the events leading up to Brian’s death and why I choose to tell my story. You can follow my blog at mymessylittlelife.com.