50+ answers off the cuff no prior thinking in response to:

This Journaling Exercise Changed My Life + Free Prompts For Rapid Growth

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpwWi2MTTuc

THANK YOU Andrew Kirby

Post meditation wisdom from the well:

gratitude beats doubt, jealousy & resentment.

Taken right after the session where I revealed finding Childhood Emotional Neglect and how I want to turn towards my childhood.

Instead but the heated session turned towards insecure attachment theory with a focus back to medication concerns.

CORRECTION: I'm sorry that I made a mistake when talking about abuse. When I talked about abuse in saying that the message was "I hate you" only, I was wrong. I realize after listening to this abuse could be the same as CEN's message of "I love you" "I don't love you" as many abusive relationships leverage this mixed messaging. I'm going to research abuse more and so far have found out that CEN may be a subset of abuse.

SUMMARY: Getting through fear of sharing feelings with my current therapist recorded a few hours before the big "real problem" reveal

WARNING: there are a couple swear words in this episode

I've been angry for 30 years but mentally ill for only 20.

This episode finds an older problem before the problem.

This episode captures the 1st week of my journey to heal my mind with my mind.

In the late 1990s, the Sheriff came to our house and strapped me to a board and

put me in an ambulance.  They took me to a mental hospital and locked me in a room.

I have been "sick" for decades wading through hospitalizations, therapy, meds, etc.

and finally, thanks to YouTube and the internet, I believe I have had a breakthrough.

This week has been incredible because I have discovered the root cause of decades of anger.

Thank you for joining my journey :)