This episode is me unpacking what the first week on ADHD medication has been like — the changes in my thinking, energy, memory, and daily rhythm. I talk about how strange it feels to finally experience mental calm and consistency, and why late diagnosis and treatment deserve way more conversation than they get.

This episode covers my long-awaited ADHD evaluation — which I accidentally turned into a 30-minute trauma monologue while my psychiatrist watched and regretted her career choices. By the end, the diagnosis was… obvious. We talk medication, past misdiagnoses, PTSD, old chaos, and what starting treatment feels like after years of confusion.

Today I try to untangle the existential bar fight between ADHD, anxiety, motivation, and discipline. Spoiler: motivation is fake, anxiety is a shapeshifter, and ADHD is a squirrel with a grenade.

Also, my toilet exploded and ruined my garage, so life derailed my entire day.

This episode is basically a tour of how my brain works when I’m trying to be a grown-up human with responsibilities. Enjoy the chaos.

The Thanksgiving hangover. Mike feels food sick. Mike doesn’t like people. Love languages are weird.

Mike’s dopamine taps out.

Mike goes viral. Mike realizes the internet is full of psychopaths, but he’ll take the dopamine hits.

Mike’s dopamine stream is turned off. Mike hates Apple plug confusion. Sobriety is weird.

Mike hears a little voice in his head. Mike talks about The Avengers. Mike likes music.

Mike gets sad, and happy, and nostalgic.

72 hours after the revelation, Mike still enjoys his perfect morning coffee without interruption.