#S2.1 Why first love never lasts

We were young, dumb and fool

done stupid things thought it was cool

can't deny the fact we were growing up

we needed our space the things were slowing us up

gone through changes

losing our senses

so much we were learning, it was hard enough to take

we gave our hearts may be knowing the fact that it gonna break

our introduction to real life we had our own perceptions

we were meant to fall apart no matter how strong was our connection

we couldn't find any reasons things happened unexpectedly

everybody commit mistakes at that age stupidly

bond that was for years broke in a minute

we woke up from our dreams on our different bed knowing we were in it

years gone but I know u can still feel it

I know its hard to deal cuz it was matter of hearts but I kept that memory in my past

realized fairy tales doesn't exist that's why first love never lasts.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#21. God left a long ago

God not always helps you

sometimes u got to do it yourself 

with all the injustice in society

with all the agony and pain

cosmic powers in human mind

controlling the outcomes you can't explain

and the devil is on the upper hand 

these days are tough

heartbreakers disguise as lovers it's hard to trust love

and yet again you find yourself alone in this hell

loneliness taking a toll on you , you want some stories to tell

but there's no shoulders to cry only people searching their profits

I too had a heart soon I realized in this cruel world I lost it

and again I was looking for a savior and a peaceful place to go

looked around, the world is full of devils and realized God left this place a long ago.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#20. Jaisi teri marzi

Jaisi teri marzi tu waise hi rehna

Dil mein aayi baat zara khulkar tu kehna!Duniya ye dogli.,tujhe peeche hi kheechegi!

Par Muskurate hue tujhko aagey hai badhna!!

Har kadam aage na dekha maine peeche

pohocha is mukaam pr baki sare mere neeche

aakh meeche dekha ek khwaab

kai sare sawal mere pas na koi jawab

likhta gya khayalat bas main aur meri kitaab

sapne kitne toote? koi nhi hisaab

badhta rha aage kyuki ye Waqt humesa bhaage

samay ka Khel sara tute kai vaade

Lekin main na badla, badla to sirf ye waqt

duniya tujhse cheenegi jispar hai tera haq

ladhna h 2jhe na kuch sehna

aur bas yahi kehna

Jaisi teri marzi tu waise hi rehna!

Dil mein aayi baat zara khulkar tu kehna!Duniya ye dogli.,tujhe peeche hi kheechegi!

Par Muskurate hue tujhko aagey hai badhna

Written by Saurav Kanojia and Shivaji Sikdar voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#19. To love someone again

Saw a girl with the prettiest smile

she was on a road with her friends

I stared her for a long time

and thoughts were spinning in my head

she was beautiful as heaven

kind of woman every man desire

thought of making a move although I haven't had such experience in this department

my heart was beating fast

in that second of time frame I think of all the possibilities that I can gain

thought of all the bad past experiences and pain, I got to admit it's hard to love someone with all your heart again.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#18. The fear of being attached

The fear of being attached was always on my mind

maybe with the right person but at the wrong time

early in life, age is the factor

some people fake it so well they are the real actors

don't want to pause again

neither wanna search for the cause again

because later you regret the time you spent on that pain

good thing I learnt from that bond

I found myself in this world full of vagabond

now the world looks brighter like I found heaven in my sight

I know I'll get my special one when the time is right but the struggle was real I maybe took a lot of time

don't wanna loose myself again that's why the fear of being attached is always on my mind.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#17. 3 AM

It's 3 Am and I'm still thinking about you

I'm still thinking about my life 

I'm still thinking about what was true

all those places that I lived and left behind

came back to haunt me the times of helpless grind

it's 3 am and I found myself again standing alone on a crossroad

with my friends all gone and the world is turning cold

don't know where it's all leading

I ain't wounded but it feels like I'm bleeding

from a cut in the past or what all that I left behind

but I got to blend with these commotions for the peace of my mind

it's 3 Am and I'm still jotting my deepest thoughts

just like a folklore by a soldier from a restless battle he fought

I don't wanna think much I just pray for the future and goodwill

though a lot is lost but yet there's still a lot to fulfill

so lord don't forget about me remember this face

as I tryna find some peace to wake up again and fight for my place

and if doing so I may fall 

I hope you give me the courage to stand tall

because I've been a fighter you know all the words that are unsaid

so I rest my head as I peacefully tryna sleep on my bed.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#16. One day at a time

It's hard to wake up in the morning

to start a new day when the demons start you calling

in your head you can see these children in need

no relieve tell me why we are so full of greed?

then I look at sky 

another ghetto bird died 

before it learn to fly

so don't ask me why 

why these kids stay high

got my heart broken to see 

these communities in need

where people can't breath 

because they kill them on the streets

defeat to mankind 

no compassion I'm terrified

when I realized it's destructive to keep a cause alive

we suffer and suffocate but how long we'll suffer?

soon we'll turn violent when they start stealing our supper

but we got to defy the upper hand 

and make a stand

to make them understand

that it's a god's plan

to reveille the truth 

to these hopeless youth 

where they take children's life while they still alive call it a unforgettable loot,

shoot the world it's full of destruction

too many demons screaming it's hard to function

so until we learn to fly keep your eyes open wide

empathy and kindness you got to choose a side

and keep a destructive mind

peaceful thoughts  it's one of a kind

so we continue growing one day at a time.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#15. Revolutionary thoughts

Revolutionary ideas plotting my assassination

but someone need to speak up before they cause the annihilation

this ain't a petition for their breach

this is the result of freedom of speech

so it can reach to you, for you to see

that even in a democratic nation the freedom isn't free

they tryna sell my nation

divide us based on our caste and religion

fuck their decisions

and their motherfucking legislation

we wanted development but you brought inflation

so it got harder for a poor to get its ration

accept it cuz you can't deny this

and then  there's the increasing job crisis

the youths are on the streets protesting

against your coalition resisting

but what will u do when their patience runs out?

when the push comes to shove all the truth comes out

it's a turmoil n it's hard to see

that we went from a free nation to partly free

we are still hoping for a change

youths still looking for a chance

to see a time where we can spend more on unemployment and poverty than the military defense

take it as a reality check my words of wisdom

cuz everybody is a part of this nation whether it's a poor or unemployed but rather than helping them they wanna eliminate them from the system

I'm just speaking the facts n praying to lord

that this nation will remain free as I'm plotting to raise awareness of casualties with my pen my sword.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

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#14. My school life

As I close my eyes I see memories

the place where I used to live free

the folks whom I used to roam with

time moved so fast, catching life became a gauntlet 

back in the time when we were going to school

I used to wake up late and it was a struggle to reach school, before morning prayers

and when we were in assembly a random kid used to tremble and fall then everybody used to stare

teasing the juniors 

because we were the seniors

some look out for girls

and some stay lost in their own world

asking friends how much time left for the period 

and teacher look at us like we all are weird

during recess we used to hung around that big tree that was our corner 

we talk about our classroom shits, watching a new bike asking who's the owner?

some stay busy in their relationship

some just wish when they'll be in a relationship

but top of all it was all abt friendship

if we got a fight we would start a war

riding our bikes and start racing like who would go far

we used to wait for our games period I remember those matches

I remember my football goals and cricket catches

we used to tease our friends whenever they talk with a girl

my school was amazing it was a different world

we made groupies and had fun 

a day before the test we used to study till we see the sun

I remember the annual days and all the other functions

at that time school was our only junction

don't know when these days past

but we celebrated it with a blast

damn I just wish if only I could capture those moments in my eyes

cuz whenever we think about school our eyes shine brighter than the morning sky

now those times will not come back but it's time for us to cherish them

because listening to old songs still bring nostalgia about school

so I sit back and reminisce about KV Nazira my one and only school.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#13. Pursuit of happiness 

Keep my eyes on the prize

doesn't matter what's the size

of the demon inside my head because still I rise

came out as a surprise, most of you didn't realize

you were searching for the truth but you believed them lies

look up at the skies and wave me bye byes

because I am evading the scene while your soul in the grave your just living to die

ya your just living to die because your mind so toxic

forget me for my art, what can I do I'm just an artist

you think you know better you think you know everything

that's the damn reason why you fall for anything

and many things you wanna achieve 

I get that, you want to succeed

but the things that you want are they really the things that you need ?

or are you so full of greed? 

might as well rectify your creed

because this materialistic possessions

raising your obsessions

but this is my confessions

brain storming sessions 

because it's all about inside out rather than outside in

money makes the world go round but it doesn't rule within

this is my pursuit of happiness that money can't buy

you can buy a Lamborghini but what's the point if you don't have real ones to ride along your side ?

I hope you read situations I hope you look at the bright minds

the one who are millionaires are the one who were in it for the grind 

I hope you read these signs then you'll understand

believe that happiness is from within and don't ask why

it's like believing that planets are in the galaxy they can tell you how but they can't tell you why

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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