#S4.2 Ostracism

Now can you picture a young man's thoughts

battling in his own mind what misery it brought

plus I got some demons running free they coming for my throat

nights are different, it reminded me of the wars that I fought

so don't blame me for being me in a world I didn't create

raise by hustlers, never bow down always retaliate

because when the fate arrives I gotta be strong 

never lose hope always praying, lord take me where I belong

there's too much injustice 

got me screaming fuck it!

how can we rely when they use us, how can I trust this ? so I bust this

now comprehend where we come from 

youth getting high and why there are guns drawn?

who got the power to suppress the revolution?

modern slavery ain't no part of human evolution

it's a notion so understand the scene 

lean to the truth 

before the whole goddamn generation becomes an aimless youth 

I see head wid no brains

bigger thoughts hard to understand by an average man 

it's insane when you realised the bigger picture 

sitting low watching time fly, drinking cheap liquor

so I never saw it coming

was too busy bullshitting always running

so I learnt lessons as I grow old

time of our lives got memories like gold

but there's ain't no more love in the hood so my heart's gone

jealousy and envy are factors got me roll alone 

bad times revealing who's real and who's fake

sorry if m a late bloomer but this moment is mine to take.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#S4.1 Preached 

Preached, is  description of  what a youth go through in the world, all the stuffs that made him think and wonder is he's the only one witnessing it or the world doesn't even care, he speaks for what he witnessed therefore preaching to the people about the stuffs most people aren't paying attention.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#Bonus 1  MIND MINING - "School Life" With Sumon Gohain 

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School Life -

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#S3.10 Bedtime thoughts

Bed time thoughts are mad

it makes you think of what you had

all the tensions and worries

all the hustle and struggle stories

the people that left never returned

the book of life, lessons we've learned

stuck in your adversity 

real eyes make you see the reality

the memories of past nostalgic inside

it only comes when your lonely or else these things just hide

you bring out your sorrow 

pray for a better tomorrow 

with a hope that everything will be alright

so you console your heart and try to make it through the night

tired eyes it's been a long day how long it'll be like this so we pray for better days

so before I sleep I asked is it ok or not

may be it's just me and my bedtime thoughts.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#S3.9 If I die young

If I die young don't cry don't mourn 

because through the pain and sorrow the life goes on

I'm glad I made it till here in my heart no fear

clear thoughts and clear mind

we all got to go but may be for me it's the best time

so I'm leaving everything behind I'm goin on

don't cry no more because life is all about just carrying on

don't worry I'll be doing good

now I wonder if heaven got a hood

I'll be uniting with my dad up there

lookin down and smiling telling we made it till here

my people gonna cry but they'll learn

I was a soldier that can't be burn 

my soul gonna travel to a different world

away from these miseries away from my girl

see me up there I'll be the sky

feel me I'm the wind that can't die

I hope my people will understand about my pain 

I had nothing to lose died trying something to gain

Rest in peace nah! I'm a soldier in peace

and to all my enemies soon got to decease

my homies don't cry their tears won't fall

cherish my memories and stand tall

tell my stories to your kids

and all the crazy things we did

I hope they'll learn from it on how to lead

the life I lived I hope it'll be inspiring

listen to my words I hope it'll be desiring

friends my time is up I ain't getting another day

keep ya'll head up and push the drama away

now I'm laying down surrounded by these flowers

my last smile to the world and they'll talk about my last hours

these are the things that you got to learn

when I think about what if I die young!

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#S3.8 There's a place I wanna go

There's a place I wanna go 

away from the burdens and sorrows

where the grass is greener and sun shines for a better tomorrow

though it seems crazy 

but I'm just a dreamer baby

and maybe when the time will stop 

I'll just keep you in my heart

because there's no pleasure in this life 

where the past might make us slow

so there's a place I wanna go

there's a place I wanna go

the product of modern creation

I've died thousand lives

I don't know about nirvana but my soul always somehow survives

the only thing that left of me was always me 

from the depth of my solitude to the fear in the eyes of my enemies

I climbed mountains and I crossed the rivers

you can call me crazy 

but I guess I'm a believer

times keep running for true colors to show

so there's a place I wanna go

there's a place I wanna go

where the light meet the darkness

where the fallen meet the hope

my soul still left with the sparkles

so I know there won't be a murder with rope

where there is peace of mind

time after time it does reminds

that the sun will come there won't be forever snow

so there's a place I wanna go

there's a place I wanna go.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

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#S3.7 Hustler's lullaby

It's been a long day I know you need a good night sleep

you took your chances the struggle was deep

another day gone things you've learned

alone on your own affection you yearn

so rest your stress head on your pillow

forget about your sorrow

remember there's still tomorrow

dont worry dont cry

rest your head as I write you this hustler's lullaby

dont you worry about your misery and tragedy

nothing's hidden from the lord soon he'll give you the remedy

all your pain will go away soon and you'll rise from bottom

always remember if you need spring you got to go through autumn

your adversity will turn into ambition

you can do whatever you want like freedom is a religion

I pray to the lord for the broken souls

I pray for you hustlers, just stand tall, don't worry don't cry

rest your head and sleep as I sing you this hustler's lullaby

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#S3.6 Trouble Soul

Lord help me with my trouble soul

when the time comes I hope I can stand tall

and don't fall for their trick moves

because in time I got some things to prove

never lose hope in your misery

maybe you'll get the answers in future for your history

and it's a mystery how you changed as a person

and others that you lost and then gain some

I try to search for the happiness

losing my soul I admit I'm happy less

I'm living blinded needed guidance lord can you hear me

I shed tears for the people I lost that are not near me

trying to see it clearly so I'm riding solo

thoughts in my brain my pen trying to follow

it's just another way to reflect what I don't show

how much going on in my head nobody will know

so I spend time alone on my own loneliness is a thriller

thoughts of a killer

I hope I can find a healer 

R.I.P to Chester, Juice and Mac Miller

because things are changing  all the time

and I still remember how it used to be in my mind

things to find that I lost in time

I don't wanna sound like a loser but I'm losing my mind

so when the time comes I hope I can stand tall

on my knees praying lord help me with my trouble soul.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#S3.5 I was lonely again

It was night and it was around 3 in the morning 

I watched my ceiling for a long time as I was lying on my bed 

thinking and reminiscing about old times

the thoughts made me feel I was not alone

I had my friends in those thoughts

I had all those people who used to be with me

all I had to do was to close my eyes and feel their presence

but when I opened my eyes I felt, what a terrible change the time can make to a person

there was a peculiar ache in my existence, 

I roll over and realized those thoughts were gone and I was lonely again.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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#S3.4 Things that breaks a man's heart

Boys that used to be brothers

strangers that used to be lovers

hope that has shattered

stress that has entered

places that we left behind

memories in our mind and the helplessness grind

the souls who need help

people who are there by themselves

family that died

blurry eyes that has cried

deepest fear of nightmare

struggle that nobody bothers to care

the things that I used to call mine

the game of the clock and the old times

such things breaks a man's heart

but through all these a man always plays his part.

Written and voiced by Saurav Kanojia

Published by Sumon Gohain

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