Leadership is a hot topic on podcasts, and I end up listening to this subject often because people I enjoy revisit it. I have a peculiar view on leadership, and its come to my attention that what people like in their leaders -varies. I've been working a lot of years and I've had lots of leaders. Things I say here are because this stuff is on my mind a lot lately.

I've been having a hard time with winter lasting longer than usual, and when things get difficult PLUS a lack of sunshine, I end up dwelling. I haven't been uploading, but not because I haven't been writing. I'm writing lots and thinking lots. That makes me more quiet. But so has this topic of leadership...

A friend recently introduced me to Stoicism which is a cool thing, but has also forced me to address something I've felt for a long time and never made the effort to articulate. The topic is that anger is a choice, and while I accept so many feelings are things we choose, I see anger differently. Its a complicated emotion and I think I've finally had a breakthrough in explaining why I think that.

I caught myself asking a question I don't normally ask, and more than just once or twice...it kept coming up at random times over various topics. So I started answering and analyzing not just the question, but what MY answer is. I feel like this was a break through for me in my journey of self-awareness.

I got caught up in upset, and I let myself down. Are there people who don't do that, and are they in Possession of themselves to the point they can't be pushed outside of their nature? When you do miss-step, is there still something good in that too? So many questions, so few certainties.

This is me feeling like I need to touch base because I haven't written, recorded, and uploaded since Sept 11th. I have been writing, but not much stuff I know I will share. But as always I'm thinking, and with the loss of my wonderful cousin; I am Dwelling. I think we spend life believing life is meant to be easy while we live learning: its not. How did that "easy" thing ever get introduced? Maybe its just simple wishful thinking and the innate need to be happy. Ok...yes...I'm dwelling on this dichotomy too these days. :)

I've been learning about EFT Tapping, and experiencing immediate results. Its fascinating while being so incredibly simple. Have a listen, do some tapping, and explore it yourself. I don't want to be dramatic, but its kinda blowing my mind.

Success, achievement, mattering, and being "something special" by the end of your life. Is any of this yours to experience? I think it might not be.

Have you ever considered...the things that make you YOU might not be things you should share or show just anyone? Do you have pearls? Do you know what your pearls are? To say "don't cast your pearls before swine" makes me imagine pulling out something valuable in front of a mob boss that he's now going to kill you for so he can take it. But it's not that...its really so much more tidy and everyday. Do you do it? It's worth asking yourself. I'll explain...have a listen.

The Lack of self-awareness seems to be growing. No, nobody is perfect, but all of us can try to see what we are doing and consider possible consequence. Listen more to what you are saying, watch what you could be doing to contradict your own words, and maybe we need to start calling it out. If for no other reason than to put a pin in it so it can be pointed at later. Lots to consider in this episode.

I've changed my opinion on Longing. I think its a good thing. I think we need to do it often to keep us appreciating the Loving we do. Even the loving we do that won't equate to having. In fact...having is not a feeling we should grab hold of. I'll explain: *you pushing play*