I sense that humanity is entering a collective era where logic & control will dissolve bc things will be unexpected & disruptive. And what happened in my own life that made me realize that the only way forward is through surrender.

I talk about my journey to tawakul & reflect upon the lessons of prophet Musa alayhissalaam & his exodus in surah ash-Shua'araa (26) & how remaining present makes you a conduit for miracles.

I'm exploring how a sunny day lead me through a network of analogies involving the immune system, personal power, movement of energy & coordination of the body. Be warned that it's very scattered brained.

I'm exploring the impact of losing the context of a culture, shared experiences, collective meaning & being judged & demeaned for buckling under that life-distorting impact. When we understand what's behind difficulties & inability to move forward, we can have more compassion or at least hold back on the acidic shaming.

When you're in a survival mode, you're decentralized & preemptive while suppressing all other non-essential parts of you. When healed, these parts come online with their own energy & need, requiring you to become more centralized in how you interpret need & meet those needs.

Part of post-healing is to examine the images & visions that provided motivation. For me it meant that they expired bc they were part of the old conditioning of adapting to the status quo for survival bc of shame. So I'm in a liminality where creating space is very painful bc I have to connect to everything that was blocked before.

No one prepares you for what healing actually entails: disconnecting from the filters & contexts that automated living for you. You're now forced to immerse yourself in existence, & to feel the tension of that complexity. Post-healing is like the ashaabul kahf who woke up after 300+ years when their reality framework had expired.

I'm thinking about trauma as our sun dying and that death destroying how planets & life functions. And how healing is to discover an internal sun but then discovering that you can't go back to your old timeline, to society with that much energy. You have to get rid of yourself to be accepted. So now I'm in a space of being stranded. How do I form a new context for myself?

There are missing pieces connecting the mental health crisis, ecological destruction & hyperconsumerism. Any attempts at solving these problems in their vacuum only works to suppress & further fragment our collective psyche. Will we stop this runaway train in time?

I analyze the soul urge that made me pull the plug on the machine & some of the worrying patterns emerging on platforms like Twitter, changing us without our awareness.