Big Ticket and I discuss the struggles of his long distance relationship on top of being in recovery, and going public with our stories.

I welcome my first ever guest to the show. Big ticket is a guy who I met through doing meetings on zoom. We both got into the program around the same time, and had an instant connection. We reflect on our time in the program and discuss the problem with porn and how porn as affected our lives.

In episode 4 I talk early days of treatment and the moment I realized that I am not a bad person, and how I used a very important tool that I learned while I was there and forgot about.

There are always off ramps that I can take to get me out of my addiction cycle. It’s important to remember that even after I act out or use that those off ramps are always there. In this episode I physically and metaphorically turn the car around.

In episode 2 I revisit the first couple days in treatment and read some journal entries, as well as getting current with where I’m at.

My name is Big Panda and I’m a recovering sex addict. This is my journey of recovery, come with me as I share my experience, strength and hope. Episode 1 I discuss the rock bottom that I had to hit that got me into recovery.