No Man Knows My Herstory

Sisters Cari and Kelsae address feedback by a listener that Club Fuck Packer is anti-semitic. TL;DR it is, we're sorry, we'll do better.

For full show notes and links, go to: www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/062

This week, Cari and Kelsae discuss the nonsense one Elder Oaks got into during the month of February. But Sisters, you may say, it is now March. That’s right, it is. And honestly they’re still upset about what he said, so chances are you are too. For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/061

TRIGGER/CONTENT WARNING: Mentions of suicidal ideation/other consequences of poor mental health due to participating in a cult.

This week, Cari and Kelsae discuss that old Mormondy Mormon favorite, enduring to the end and the myriad ways it can mess up your mental health. It’s almost like being told to just hold on in spite of everything being awful to get some imaginary benefit after you die is bad for meaty monkey brains. In fact, it isn’t almost like that. It is that. In case you haven’t figured it out yet, Mormon-Mormon-Mormonism is bad for brains, so just stop already and get a therapist.

For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/060

This week, Cari and Kelsae discuss post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and how it pertains to the ex-Mormon experience (hint: all cult survivors have trauma!). Sisters Cari and Kelsae (but mostly Kelsae, let’s be real, yay for MSWs!) discuss symptoms, brain chemistry, and one special part of your brain that may interpret your history of trauma as meaning that you are in danger only all the time. Join us on this journey, though lo, it is fraught. For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/059

This week, Cari and Kelsae discuss the recent changes to the temple ceremony which remove some of the most overt sexism. This is clearly cause ol’ Rusty has the red phone to Jesus and not because of the work of exMos, progressive Mormons, or, oh I dunno, Ordain Women, am I right? Tangents abound, as does rage at anyone telling anybody to give the Mormon cult any kind of credit for these changes. For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/058

This week, Cari and Kelsae review the results of a survey they put out into their Facebook group regarding negative experiences within Mormonism. They also say goodbye to 2018, both for the podcast and themselves, and set some intentions for 2019. There have been big changes, which we are proud of, and we hope you have some to be proud of, too. For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/057

CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING: A few mentions of suicidal thoughts. This week, Cari and Kelsae get stoned and watch a recording of the Mormon endowment ceremony, per listener request. You’ll laugh, you’ll cry, you’ll rage against the cult. If you are watching the ceremony along with us, use the link in our full shownotes (on our website!) to the version we watched and pause the video after every room change.

For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/056

CONTENT/TRIGGER WARNING: Frank discussion of suicide (including some details of a recent suicide in the news), suicidal ideation, and mental illness.

Sister Cari put together this minisode discussing the recent suicide of a 19-year-old woman at BYU. She talks about her own BYU experience, and how the culture (heavy on the cult) of the institution helped create the situation of her own suicide attempt at age 20. She also talks about how her experience writing for the 100 Hour Board (an online, formerly BYU-affiliated publication) led to contact with many, many desperate BYU students, each of whom thought they were alone. There’s a lot of sniffling. This is a heavy one.

For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/minisode-byu-suicide

This week, Cari and Kelsae discuss Leah Remini’s show Scientology: The Aftermath and why y’all should go watch it. They’ll get to the temple (they promise), but it just wasn’t happening this week. But seriously, go watch some cult documentaries. Scientology may be a scarier, more aggressive cult, but watching the experiences of Scientologists has helped Sisters Cari and Kelsae put their own experiences into context. (And yes, if you’ve done the math, Cari was 10 in 1998, not eight, and yes, Cari is a real life math tutor. In the words of Nina Bonina Brown, “Sue me.”) For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/055

This week, Sister Cari does a solo episode in which she shares apostate, queer, and just general gratitude from members of the No Man Knows My Herstory Facebook group. Also, we are doing an endowment ceremony episode next week, so think back to your innocent days of believing the temple would actually be awesome and spiritually enlightening instead of creepy and culty. Imagine what you believed about it all before you knew better, and bring that state of mind with you into next week.

For full show notes and links, go to: https://www.nomanknowsmyherstory.com/episodes/054