Are you confused? What?! Why did you?! OH! YOUR LIFE! YOUR PRECIOUS LIFE! The more you struggle against this internally; the more doubt, fear, pain, rage, grief, confusion, and WHAT?! you feel, the more likely you will be not to die by the hand of your nearest enemy. I encourage you to then become overwhelmed with joy. Embrace those you would have killed. Let the. Embrace you. Heal your wicked hearts on WAIT!!!