2007
I was suffering for the dramatic breakup of my dutch guitar player Walter. So in order for me to cope with the drama in my head I wrote this song.. Needless to say Walter wasn't in any shape or abusive to me. He was kind and patient to a point to my not being able to understand how he was... in the end I changed my mind after writing this song . He taught me so much about music, although at that point in my life I couldn't understand how much impact the time I spent listening to all the jazz and rock and seeing how he just wanted to express something through his hobby.. I have learned how to play some chords and the names of some bands that I really grew to love.. So this track is not dedicated to him but to others that came afterwards, that tried to dim the light in me. but more for demons that consumed my time with nonsensical words when all I needed was to make some weird sounds out of all the torments.
So the music journey started there at 27 when I wanted to express something that I understand now at 45.. Now I make weird sounds out of the torments that used to drain me ...
