Origins - The Unconscious Journey of the Conscious Soul

(Hint: I did, in fact, sign up for this)

Discussing my own contract to be a medium, and how, I cannot stress this enough, it was not my choice. It was my contract. (so yes technically it was my choice but it doesn't feel like it.. it was not my EGO's choice.)

But this is also why I'm a hella good psychic: my ego doesn't give a damn.

Discussing soul contracts, the things we did and did not sign up for, and how free-will can impact their completion.

Story of my planet of origin, origin wounding, how and why I got sent to this doomscape (earth) and how my family or origin in this lifetime provided me the opportunity to heal the pain from lifetimes and lightyears ago.

This is the Autisthicc Mystic.

Recorded after receiving a very touching email from a client.

Listen,

I work in the spirit world and with people on the other side. And we all get to the otherside through death, and we all leave people behind after death (or, this is how it feels to be the grieving person—left behind).

I’ve talked about this before, but again I’ll mention it again, I believe the etymology of my mediumship abilities kicked on because of my brothers passing in 2014, though my gifts didn’t become evident until about ten years later, Divine timing and all that.

This is my take on how to support someone that is going through the early stages of the grief process.

But I cannot emphasize this enough: there is no time limit for the “early” stages of grief.

Grief is lifelong. Be kind, or remove yourself from their life asap so that a more fitting support can step in (OR I WILL PERSONALLY HUNT YOU DOWN AND CHOKE YOU OUT WITH MY TEDDY BEAR).
00:00 — "Let Me Know If You Need Anything" Yeah? Well, let me know when your done being a dummy.
00:39 — You are not in survival mode-- they are; respond accordingly
01:03 — Figure out what they need and provide it to them
01:50 — Don't be a little bitch-- virtue signaling is for losers.
02:07 — THE COST OF LOVE IS GRIEF THE COST OF LOVE IS GRIEF THE COST OF LOVE IS GRIEF
02:23 — Show up and don’t be a little bitch
02:32 — Gummy bears and whole milk lattes kept me alive (I love you Derek and forgive you for not leaving me)
02:40 — You don't "get over it"
02:52 — Pay their rent
03:00 — Don't be a little bitch

WHY some relationships persist across lifetimes and this WHY certain family dynamics feel impossible to escape.

Individuals become "tied" through a combination of blood, guilt, and energetic entanglement. I discuss how these ties may manifest in family systems, why certain relationships feel chronically draining, and how to break those patterns!!!!

Topics include:

• Blood ties and energetic inheritance

• Family relationships that feel impossible to resolve

• Guilt as an energetic tether

• Why some people repeatedly show up across lifetimes

• No-contact decisions and energetic boundaries

• Protecting yourself during healing work

• Remote viewing and accessing deeper layers of consciousness

• Reclaiming your energy and autonomy

00:00 Introduction: Blood ties, blood curses, and energetic inheritance
00:00:57 What spirit means by “non-sentient beings”
00:02:05 How these beings allegedly incarnate through blood connections
00:03:18 Sentient vs. interstellar/intergalactic consciousness
00:04:01 Past-life example: how a blood tie was formed
00:05:02 The role of guilt in creating energetic attachments
00:05:51 Why these ties continue across lifetimes
00:06:05 Family relationships that feel impossible to escape
00:06:43 Why guilt becomes an energetic siphon
00:07:16 The “golden ticket” concept explained
00:08:09 Why spirit says anger isn’t useful in these situations
00:08:22 The purpose of these beings according to the channeling
00:09:03 Why Earth is described as a “vacation” for them
00:09:13 Bloodshed, intention, and energetic contracts
00:09:33 Childhood example of how a tie can begin
00:10:17 Breaking the connection through no contact
00:10:37 Why healing work can sometimes feel worse before it feels better
00:11:01 How energetic siphoning allegedly continues at a distance
00:11:36 Protecting yourself during shadow work and inner-child healing
00:12:15 Releasing guilt
00:12:53Everybody is already remote viewing
00:14:02 Practical steps to break energetic ties
00:14:54 Final recap and closing thoughts
00:15:29 How to connect with me!

Hint. Because it does.

0:00 – Impostor syndrome around her intuition; why she's confident in it0:46 – The consequences of ignoring her intuition were nearly fatal multiple times1:25 – She's overcorrected and now trusts herself to a fault — and she's okay with that2:19 – Her big life mission she didn't choose; it just came with her2:46 – Having a big life purpose means being targeted3:09 – Shadow government, celebrities signing contracts, remote viewing3:27 – Too many awakened people to be stopped; "bioluminescent"4:40 – If you have a big life purpose, you already know you're being targeted6:46 – Client told her she was "lucky" to have her gift — she pushes back on that7:29 – She's still a human with conditioning, biology, and constant information overload8:07 – Thought she had OCD; intrusive thoughts vs. actual intuition8:46 – PMDD, suicidal ideation during luteal phase, medication helping9:22 – 93% of women with ADHD/autism report PMDD symptoms10:59 – Working with her guides to make intuitive signals clearer11:14 – The "sandwich effect" — how she reads people when first meeting them12:28 – She always trusts the initial hit now, even when she can't explain it13:14 – Can't think of a time the initial read was wrong14:26 – One instance she listened and avoided a friendship that would have ended in betrayal16:37 – Past betrayals from not listening to her downloads17:20 – One of her three life regrets: ignoring her intuition18:02 – Hints at undisclosed current situation with serious repercussions19:00 – Emotional close: she's learned her lesson; calls herself delusional and owns it19:49 – Would rather be wrong and trust herself than ever ignore her intuition again

Explaining why it can be tricky to identify the specific role a client's loved one played in this life, and discerning between role and consciousness.

Unpacking why the conventional idea of meditation — stillness, silence, grounding, and bodily calm — can feel inaccessible or even dysregulating for neurodivergent people, especially those with ADHD, autism, PTSD, trauma histories, or chronic nervous system activation. Through personal stories, somatic processing, movement, EMDR parallels, and energetic metaphors, she argues that intuition is often accessed through motion, sensory engagement, physical exertion, rhythm, and bodily safety rather than forced stillness.

The piece critiques “gentrified spirituality” and reframes intuition as deeply individualized. For some people, intuition arrives while hiking, lifting weights, writing, sitting in water, bouncing on a trampoline, or physically grounding through sensation. The essay ultimately gives readers permission to stop forcing spiritual practices that feel unnatural and instead trust the ways their own nervous systems naturally connect to insight, emotion, and inner knowing.

Mini Trampoline

Mediation neck rest

I cannot emphasize this enough: other people believed in me before I could believe in myself and I am eternally grateful for this.

Two years ago, a medium stopped my reading three minutes in and said: you know you're a medium, right?

I felt .. dismayed to say the least. Not excited. Not gleeful. Nothing. I was at the peak of my painting prolificness, churning out paintings before and after my nine to five; I wanted to yell at her: NO, I"M AN ARTIST.

But I knew she was right. I KNEW I could speak with my dear brother, passed on, and slowly, others of passed on family members started poking their heads through the veil.

I didn't allow myself to consider: can I talk to other people on the other-side? What else can I do?

Because I knew what that would mean. It would mean that all of the times I felt I knew something, but was told I was "insane" or "crazy", I actually did know. It meant that those people-- family, friends, were only family by blood and friends by their standard.

It meant if I could access information and loved ones from the other side.. The rest of my life would be inservice to other people. Success as a knower and a seer is contingent upon the things you know and see being of benefit to other people. It's not a one man arena.

My ego had other plans. I wasn't ready. So I did what every main character of their own story does — I turned away from my destiny and pretended I didn't see it. OSTRICH IN THE SAND, PEOPLE.

The universe DID NOT LET UP YA'LL. Just a few months later, I had my first paying clients. I WAS NOT LOOKING FOR CLIENTS. But these people had desire to reconnect with their loved ones, and I could do that for them. And these people believed in me, before I believed in me.

Grief wore away at the veil and I was able to connect with my soulmate and brother, with in months of recognizing this, I was then in communication with other passed on family, then it was my closest friend's parent and past live information, and finally, within six months, I was connecting strangers to their loved ones. All of this, because one medium, one friend, and about a half a dozen women I'd met a community event believed in me before I believed in me.

Nobody has ever seemed more surprised by what I can do than me. Two years in, this still rings true.

Sometimes, other people can see us more clearly than we can see ourselves. Their belief in me changed my life. Consider letting someone's belief in you change yours.