Pay It Forward Radio

Normally i just share experiences that others may relate to. I want connection and the only way i can truly get it is to be honest with myself. this was a really uncomfortable story to tell, but it's mine. 

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had a convo with a friend that sparked this conversation. really just exploring what it means for me to be a man and what masculinity actually means in this world. 

People that i look to that have mentored me directly or indirectly, emotionally or spiritually, thank you guys so much.

Bryan Reeves @Bryanreevesinsight
Steve Wood @itsstevewood
Silvy Khoucasian @silvykhoucasian
Nzinga Moore @iamnzingamoore
Munday Smith @smithmunday

My Spiritual Community: @therealprayermovement

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Reconnecting with myself has been a struggle, especially as i've had some new experiences that have been cool. One thing that's been healing to me is to keep small promises to myself,. this is one of them.

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To kick off Season 4: A Recap of my journey so far with Pay It Forward - where it is now, and where it's going next, and the latest thing ive been working on: silencing the external voices and listening to the still, small voice. 

Shoutouts to:
Steve Wood @itsstevewood
Nzinga Moore @iamnzingamoore
Christina Barsi @thebarsi
Sonn Eidem @twostepsaheadpodcast
Bryan Reeves @bryanreevesinsight

Our friends help us find the way home.

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In this last (or possibly second to last episode) of the year and last episode of the season I've been letting myself feel some things that were unsafe for me to feel before my dad died. one of them has been disappointment.

it's sucked, ima be honest. its not a feeling I'm too comfortable with. and maybe that's okay too. 
 I put a few tips in for anyone who's feeling like me - that disappointment isn't ok, and maybe for you it isnt...and that's okay too.

love y'all.

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Election week has felt very intense. lately I have been feeling stress, overwhelm, anxiousness, excitement, contentment, fear, and a few other things.

Lately, I have also felt numb to those feelings.

And that's OK. 

This is my exploration of survival mode, what feeling our feelings actually does,  and how allowing ourselves to feel, is one step closer to allowing ourselves to BE.

and in doing so, maybe we end up fulfilling our purpose after all.

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A Emotionally inspiring and challenging month, this is my growth and experience in letting God be God and what being authentic means to me and my faith in the next stage of my life

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My experience with my Prayer Group, Real Prayer Movement, at the BLM Los Angeles Protest, and what it was like meeting some cops right after and praying with them, and realizing i hadn't felt really deeply in a while. My experience this last few weeks with the reality of trauma and emotional addiction, learning how to feel again, and making the choice to allow my feelings to flow, and accepting and choosing peace.

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Been feeling numb and with some inspiration from @bryanreevesinsight...realized I gotta open up more to myself.

feels like rambling maybe it’s finding the way home.

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When a caterpillar becomes a butterfly, it passes through a period of being sludge.

Nobody told me what it was gonna be like to change

My whole equilibrium is changing and it's disorienting, and here I am.

You're not alone.


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