Pleasure Bound

Episode 9 - Rage, Release, and Reclaiming your “Nasty”

Episode Description:

Episode 9 is equal parts triumphant, tender, and delightfully raunchy. We kick things off with a raw conversation about processing anger — adult temper tantrums, breathwork, and why letting yourself be pissed off is actually good for you. Kate shares a major PT win, which sparks a deep dive into the delicate dance of hope after disability, and the slippery slope of not letting the ‘desire for more’ eclipse the fullness of life as it is.

Then things get spicy. Kate recaps her experience at a kink event: the furniture, the trust, the playmates, the paddle, and the unexpected (and very welcome) orgasm she had in a room full of people. We talk about what it means to claim space, advocate for your desires, and rediscover power through curious surrender.

Kelsey shares her experience with the Dipsea app, hands-free exploration, and a "baby orgasm" she wasn't totally expecting. We wrap up with a candid conversation about sacred sexuality, social media vulnerability, building a pleasure practice, and the great debate on what to call the lady bits.

Equal parts real talk and ridiculous fun. As always, we're messy, unapologetic, and on the path to pleasure as we learn to expand what it means to LOVE the bodies we live in

Timestamps:

(0:00) – Intro

(0:46) – Frustration to Gratitude - Rage & Release 

(1:17) – Adult temper tantrums: Breathwork, Screaming, Shaking

(2:25) – Anger is valid — let yourself Feel it but don’t live there

(5:24) – Kate's major PT win

(7:53) – Emotional moments & Gratitude for this Body 

(10:30) – The tricky dance with Hope after acquiring a disability

(12:00) – "My life no longer revolves around a cure" — Kelsey on detaching from the outcome

(13:27) – Celebrate little wins without letting it consume you

(17:25) – Homework check-in: Kate gets kinky

(19:00) – Putting on the hat, Navigating the space & diving into desire

(23:20) – Choosing the furniture and advocating for her desires

(24:55) – The scene unfolds: supportive playmates, Sensual exploration and feeling powerful

(28:13) – Dirty details leading to Blast off

(33:35) –  Coming back down to Earth & Confidence Reset after One bad blow-job

(35:00) – Claiming Sensual agency and the Reclamation of Queen energy

(38:00) – Sacred f*cks, social media vulnerability, and choosing who gets access to your body AND your Story

(40:35) – The containers we create for sharing our Sacred, Sexy, Selves

(43:20) – Building the pleasure Rolodex and showing up for yourself

(44:40) – Kelsey's homework: the Dipsea app and erotic audio stories

(45:33) – Access to Fantasy, imagination, and what we're missing out on

(47:50) – Kelsey has a baby - Hands-free orgasm achieved

(49:35) – Yucks and yums in dirty talk — "that's my girl" = a hard no

(51:20) – The great vagina vocabulary debate: kitty, yoni, beaver, or... basement?

(55:15) – Wrapping up: what Kate & Kelsey are working on for the week

(59:12) – Outro

Resources:

Dipsea app - https://www.dipseastories.com/

Dipsea app - TED talk https://www.ted.com/talks/gina_gutierrez_the_relationship_between_sex_and_imagination

Mystery cults Substack - https://amandayatesgarcia.substack.com/

Pleasure Bound Substack - https://carecollective.substack.com/?utm_source=global-search

Pleasure, Pain & Overcoming Overwhelm

Life can be beautiful and brutal at the same time — and this episode holds space for both.In a tender, raw, and deeply human conversation, Kelsey and Kate explore  their relationships  with pleasure during seasons of exhaustion, pain, and overwhelm. 

Together they get honest about intimacy, dissociation, desire, and the longing to feel fully present in their bodies again. 

Kelsey shares how she's been reconnecting through water — as a tool for intentionality, nervous system regulation, and moving through life with more care and awareness. Kate opens up about her desire for a Rolodex of care-minded fuck buddies, and what we're really craving when we want to "fuck the pain away."

From sensuality and overwhelm to embodiment, disability, and the exhausting mental load of directing your own care — this episode is a space for the messy, nuanced reality of pleasure as both refuge and reconnection. Plus: a surprisingly profound extended ice cream metaphor, you won't want to miss!

Raw, reflective, and deeply human — this conversation invites you to ask: what does pleasure look like for you right now, and what would it mean to come back home to yourself with intention?

Content note: This episode touches on pain management, substance use, and numbing behaviors. If you're struggling, you are not alone — please reach out to a trusted resource or helpline. 24/7 helpline 844-289-0879

References:

Dr Emoto Hidden Messages of Water book - Dr. Emoto Hidden Messages of Water

Francis Weller, The Wild Edge of Sorrow - https://www.francisweller.net/books.html

Sinners Movie - https://www.imdb.com/title/tt31193180/

Dipsea app for sultry stories- https://www.dipseastories.com/

Substance Abuse and Addiction Hotline- 24/7 helpline 844-289-0879

Time Stamps

(0:00) – Cold open: Kate's poem about power & disability

(1:17) – Intro: Accessing pleasure in times of pain, burnout & overwhelm

(2:42) – Check-in: How they're each arriving (tired, overstimulated, survival mode)

(4:07) – Balancing Productivity, Pressure & Pleasure 

(9:19) – Survival Tip: Pleasure doesn't have to be big

(12:00) – Nature as medicine: trees, Mabel, grounding rituals

(15:09) – Channeling Tina Turner & calling in divine help

(18:20) – Kelsey's go-tos: grief, pain, isolation & connecting with water

(23:55) – Dr. Emoto & the healing power of water; whispering intentions into tea

(26:00) – Kate's go-tos: Ho'oponopono: talking to your body in pain

(29:35) – Pain relief: shame, fear of addiction & Numbing vs. Conscious relief

(34:29) — What’s underneath the urge to "want to fuck it away”

(38:11) — Kelsey's turning point: grief group, dance improv, The Wild Edge of Sorrow

(41:50) — "It doesn't have to be overcoming" — inviting pain to the table instead

(43:33) – The healing that comes through authentic connection, art and community

(46:01) – The exhaustion of directing: disability, caregivers & communicating every need

(49:49) – The Rolodex fantasy: needs, connection & “care fucking”

(56:50) – Ableism in dating & the fear of not being enough for a partner

(1:01:25) – Challenging conditioned thinking, Pleasure as Power

(1:03:41) – Homework time: how are you finding pleasure this week?

(1:03:47) — Kelsey: Dipsea app, self-pleasure & exploring orgasm in a new body without pressure

(1:06:15) — Kate: masturbation as medicine, breathwork orgasms & the ice cream metaphor

(1:10:00) – Ice cream as a metaphor for self-pleasure & exploration

(1:13:06) — Outro

Episode 7 is a slow burn—opening with Kelsey showing Kate her incense ritual, lighting it from between her lips—setting the tone for a conversation that’s honest, raw, and just a little dirty. This week, they dive into re-sensualization and the hot mess, highs, and lows along the path of adventurous pleasure. Together, they explore the possibilities—and risks—of taking pleasure too far, and what happens when we get caught in the moment and override our body’s cues.

Kelsey shares the climactic consequences of slowing down and following her senses—literally—in the tub, and how these conversations and “pleasure practices” can guide both body and mind toward deeper regulation and peace. Kate opens up about riding the waves of life “reverse cowgirl style,” reflecting on how her self-pleasure practice as a single quad has evolved as she rewrites her relationship with trust. She speaks candidly about the fear of repeating old patterns with new partners, and how learning to listen to her body is teaching her entirely new ways to feel.

Together, they unpack coping strategies for overwhelm and the dual nature of fantasy—how it can both disconnect us from ourselves and expand us into something more.

References -

Thoth Tarot Deck Large book by Aleister Crowley https://share.google/bovpzFUjgyb7P0vkR

FetLife - https://share.google/aG59SPIno8tFZLvsC

Barbie Girl Song - Aqua. “Barbie Girl.” Spotify. https://open.spotify.com/track/7atIHMnLUJ5ikdnosz1GwU

The Quad Squad - https://www.facebook.com/groups/768461760410189/ (Awesome FB group with a pre-requisite of quadriplegia)

Timestamps -

(00:00) – Sexy, Skilled Incense Ritual 

(01:47) – Intro

(02:06) – Tarot Cards & Embodied Truth

(04:05) – Kate’s Truth: Surviving (and riding) the chaos—Pleasure in the Mess 

(06:35) – Disability, Sex & Safety listening to the body—navigating limits

(09:04) – Orgasmic reflections & Truths of taking things too far

(13:09) – Self-Pleasure milestones - Orgasms in the bathtub

(15:45) – Celebrating changes since the start of PB

(18:45) – The Gift of Slow Sensual Awareness 

(24:00) – Fantasy: Liberation vs. Erasure

(29:25) – Erotic imagination, Accessibility, and New Portals to Pleasure  

(32:32) – Exploring the Excitement accompanied by New sexual experiences

(36:09) – Self-pleasure, Independence, and Fear around future partners 

(42:40) – Dirty, divine, and embodied—Reclaiming all parts of self 

(44:00) – Kink, Platonic intimacy & Redefining connection beyond sex

(48:13) – Physical Connection & Touch Post-Paralysis

(51:52) – Rediscovering Sensation, Pleasure & the Body

(53:14) – Playing with definitions of Spaces & Relations 

(56:27) – Homework & Wrap-Up

Welcome back, Pleasure Rebels! In Episode 6 (SEX), Kate and Kelsey are getting real, raw, and unapologetically honest. Kelsey shares a major milestone — her first orgasm with a partner post-injury — and what made that experience so expansive. From toy use and lube talk to autonomic dysreflexia and the art of checking in, they get into the nitty-gritty of navigating sex with a disability.

The conversation goes deeper as Kate and Kelsey explore the shame around needing help, the radical power of receiving care, and how giving and receiving are truly symbiotic. Kate opens up about learning to feel safe in her body for the first time, navigating caregiving relationships, advocating for herself during vulnerable moments, and what it means to have sober sex — possibly for the first time in her adult life.

They also dive into fantasies (and realizing whose might be ableist), the magic of long-distance intimacy, bridging fantasy into physical reality, the "Sacred Blow Job" guide, and why weird sex might just be the best sex.

Honest, messy, and always pleasure-forward — this one's a ride.

References:

Layla Martin's Sacred Blowjob Guide - https://laylamartin.com/blowjob-guide

Body safe lube - https://getmaude.com/collections/lubricant

Timestamps:

(0:00) — Intro & Welcome to Episode SEX

(0:51) — Episode topics preview: fantasies, sexy times, care & more

(2:41) — Catching up: Kelsey's sexy holiday visitor

(4:00) — Milestone moment: First orgasm with a partner post-injury

(5:55) — Using a toy with a partner for the first time & dropping the ego

(7:26) — Going too hard & learning the limits of autonomic dysreflexia

(11:01) — Lube talk: water-based vs. silicone, and why it matters

(13:42) — The shame of needing help & care as our ultimate currency

(16:41) — Giving and receiving as symbiotic acts

(19:43) — Kate on lacking safety, finding it & redifining

(23:52) — Navigating caregiver relationships & intimacy

(26:36) — Advocating for your body with a caregiver — even when it's scary

(31:02) — Transitioning to: fantasies & long-distance intimacy

(31:23) — When your own fantasies are ableist (and what changed that)

(34:19) — Bridging fantasy into physical reality: their first meeting

(39:35) — The Sacred Blow Job guide & creative positioning

(45:47) — Quad sex = weird sex? Embracing unconventional pleasure

(48:29) — Kate opens up about HSV, disclosure, and navigating intimacy

(52:21) — Kink as shadow work & the power of leaning into discomfort

(54:24) — Sober sex for the first time as a disabled adult

(58:01) — Brainstorming how to ride the d (pool sex & slow motion)

(59:55) — Teaser for next episode: sensation & sex as a quad

(1:01:30) — Outro

In Episode 5 of Pleasure Bound Kelsey and Kate explore “toys and boys,” pleasure practices, and navigating intimacy in changing bodies. Kate shares a vulnerable solo experience blending microdosing, meditation, and full-body pleasure, while Kelsey opens up about long-distance dating, sexting, and intimacy as a quadriplegic. Together, they touch on erotic mysticism, surrender, and the power of honesty and humor—This conversation is funny, raw, vulnerable—and full of the kind of truth that makes you feel less alone in your own body.

Because pleasure isn’t about getting it “right.”

It’s about being present for what’s actually here.

And sometimes… that means letting it be a little weird.

References:

Sexual Outlaw, Erotic Mystic: The Essential Ida Craddock By: Vere Chappell

Existential Kink: Unmask Your Shadow and Embrace Your Power; A Method for Getting What You Want by Getting Off on What You Don't By: Carolyn Elliott PhD 

Dr. Joe Dispenza

Product Links:

Satisfyer Pro 2 Clitoral Vibrator: 2nd Generation - Vibrators | Adam & Eve https://share.google/ycTOBOdBrHCMZgDAm

EaZyHold Aqua Universal Cuff Hand Gripper, Silicone Adaptive Grip Aid https://share.google/cc6rPsC8uIm6ibvVR

Timestamps:

(00:00) – Pleasure Bound Manifesto

(01:36) – Episode Setup and Themes

(02:44) – Kate Homework Wild Solo Session

(04:15) – Erotic Mystic Inspiration

(10:47) – Microdose, Crystal 

(16:36) – Alien Orgasm Storytime

(22:15) – Power in Surrender

(23:20) – New Toys and The Rose

(24:54) – Kelsey’s Long Distance Spark

(27:30) – Dropping Expectations in Sexual Exploration

(30:40) – Meditation Meets Pain

(32:20) – Let go - Be Your Own Tender Lover

(37:50) – Intimacy With Colostomy

(40:54) – Keeping It Weird and Real

(42:37) – Sexting as Energy Play

(44:44) – Dating Older With Vulnerability

(47:08) – Letting Go of Performance Pressure

(47:10) – Owning Your Body and Truth

(50:20) – Herpes Disclosure - Shame / Support

(53:27) – Curiosity as Self Discovery

(55:20) – Kelsey’s Homework -  Playful Desires

(56:28) – Toy Stories and Pop Culture

(58:30) – Kate’s Homework - Sensual Exploration 

(1:01:11) – Holistic Caregiving & Sexual Health

(1:03:43) – Sensory Tools & Sex Toys - Show and Tell

(1:06:10) – Toy Intensity, “Sloth Sex” & Alchemizing Desires

(1:11:19) – Positioning Hacks for Quads

In this deeply honest and expansive episode, Kate and Kelsey explore the intersection of pleasure, power, and the subconscious through the lens of shadow work, and self-discovery.

From cosmic, full-body experiences of pleasure to unpacking shame around desire, the conversation weaves through personal revelations, evolving relationships with sexuality, and the ways we’ve been conditioned to disconnect from our bodies. The hosts dive into insights from Carolyn Elliott's book Existential Kink, to discuss the reclamation of taboo desires and reflect on how pleasure can be a pathway to healing, embodiment, and self-trust.

This episode also touches on themes of disability, identity, aftercare, nontraditional intimacy, and the role of curiosity in expanding what’s possible within our bodies and our lives.

If you’ve ever wondered what lies on the other side of shame—or how to access deeper, more authentic pleasure—this one’s for you.

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(00:00) – Cold Open

(00:55) – Intro to Pleasure Bound

(02:09) – Episode Kickoff

(03:25) – Kate’s “Homework” Evolution

(06:25) – Introducing Existential Kink

(07:45) – Taboo, Shame, & Subconscious Desire

(13:25) – Kate’s Kinky Dream

(15:00) – Normalizing Pleasure & Being Seen

(18:50) – Shadow, Disability, Identity & Power

(20:00) – Power Dynamics, Submission & The Opportunity to Reframe

(24:00) – Release. Emotional Orgasms

(27:00) – Voice, Sound & Pleasure Activation

(29:40) – Kelsey’s HW – New Romance & Fantasy

(32:15) – Self-Pleasure & Aftercare Awareness

(38:45) – SCI Orgasm, Sensation & Body Awareness

(43:30) – Excavating the Sacred Slut

(46:30) – Rewriting Expectations Around Orgasm & Desire

(48:50) – Microdosing & Emotional Processing

(50:50) – Divinity, Grief & Heightened Sensation

(57:35) – Safety, Responsibility & Personal Choice

(1:02:00) – Homework & Closing Reflections

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⚠️ Content & Wellness Disclaimers

This episode contains open and explicit conversations about sexuality, kink, self-pleasure, and adult themes. Listener discretion is advised.

⚠️ Wellness & Personal Responsibility Disclaimer:

This podcast shares personal experiences and perspectives for educational and storytelling purposes only. Discussions around topics such as embodiment practices, sexuality, and altered states of consciousness—including references to psilocybin—are not intended as medical, therapeutic, or legal advice. Any decisions regarding your body, mental health, or substance use should be made with informed consent and in consultation with qualified professionals where appropriate. Listeners are encouraged to research, understand local laws and regulations, and prioritize their safety and well-being.

Episode 3: Kink, Care, and Loving the Disabled Body

Curiosity can unlock entire worlds of pleasure. In this deeply embodied episode of Pleasure Bound, Kate and Kelsey explore what happens when you follow the whisper of “what if?” — into kink spaces, onto the dance floor, into breathwork, and back into your own body. This week, Kate shares her experience attending kink events, while Kelsey reflects on embodiment, grief, dance floors, and artist dates. 

Together, they explore:

This episode invites listeners to ask themselves a simple but radical question: What would it look like to fully claim your pleasure?

(00:00) – Curiosity as the Catalyst

(00:24) – Intro 

(02:30) – Rolling Into  the Kink World for the First Time

(06:20) – Finding Pause in Pleasure Packed Spaces

(08:00) – Representation on Stage & Feeling Seen

(09:00) – Surrender, Control & Unexpected Desire

(10:00) – Alter Egos, Wigs & Becoming Someone New

(13:00) – Existential Kink & Healing Through Exploration

(14:00) – Playing with Sensation, Boundaries & Tools

(16:00) – Care & Erotic Safety

(18:00) – Opening up to Receive & Redefine Worth

(19:30) – Self-Care vs. Pleasure 

(22:30) – Mental Monsters & Freaky Friends

(26:00) – Artist Dates & Dancing as Medicine

(28:40) – Privileged Pilgrimage to See Widespread Panic

(30:00) – Sensual Awakenings Through Music

(32:00) – Sexiness in Spontaneity

(36:00) – Trust & Surrender

(37:40) – Redefining Pleasure Beyond Climax

(41:00) – Being Seen Is Hot (and Terrifying)

(43:00) – Finding Pleasure in New Ways

(44:00) – Breathwork as Erotic Awakening

(46:00) – Authentic Embodiment Can Be Orgasmic

(47:40) – Creating the Container for Pleasure

(49:00) – Living With Caregivers & Accessing Pleasure

(54:00) – Homework: Getting Loud & Breathwork for Hands-Free Orgasm

(56:00) – Fantasy as Medicine & Rewiring Internalized Ableism

(58:00) – Platonic Pleasure & Desire for Intimacy Without Sexpectations

(01:00:00) – Celibacy, Sobriety & Redefining the Erotic

(01:04:00) – Pleasure Outside of Sex

(01:06:00) – Closing Reflections & Next Week’s Exploration

Content Warning: This episode discusses loss, addiction, grief and self-pleasure

Episode 2: Grief, Orgasm, and the Courage to Feel

In this deeply personal episode, Kelsey opens up about the recent loss of her brother to addiction, exploring how grief intersects with pleasure, embodiment, and healing. She and Kate discuss the courage it takes to feel all emotions fully, the importance of staying connected to our bodies during profound change, and how pleasure practices can be acts of resistance and self-love. They share vulnerable stories about rediscovering sexuality after paralysis, creating sensory experiences for self-pleasure, and finding joy amidst overwhelming grief. This episode honors the complexity of being human - holding both sorrow and celebration, loss and liberation.

Resources Mentioned:

Book: "Come As You Are" by Emily Nagoski

Podcast: Emily Nagoski's podcast

Song: "Older" by Lizzy McAlpine (from Platonic Season 2)

Song: “Drip for Me”  by FREAQUE

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TIME STAMPS

(0:00) - Content warning and dedication to Nathan

What happens to pleasure when your body changes forever?

In this opening episode of Pleasure Bound, hosts Kelsey and Kate—two quadriplegic women living full, sensual, complicated lives—introduce themselves, their stories, and the why behind this podcast. Together, they open an unfiltered conversation about disability, sexuality, grief, embodiment, kink, shame, desire, and the radical act of reclaiming pleasure in bodies shaped by trauma and paralysis.

This episode reflects on life before and after spinal cord injury, the grief of losing familiar sensations, the cultural forces that desexualize or fetishize disabled bodies, and the courage it takes to re-enter pleasure—without comparison, without apology. Along the way, they explore kink, shadow work, adaptive tools, orgasm myths, brain-based pleasure, and why connection—not perfection—is the true medicine.

This episode sets the tone for Pleasure Bound: a space for messy, erotic, hilarious, deeply human conversations about coming home to the body—again and again

Music by Freaque 

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6xmxsU99bvYcGrvdsw3pFk?si=GSH_oqRIRmyb-I9Y5_-hXQ

Content Warning:

Episode Timestamps

(00:00) — Juicy behind the scenes clip about our WHY

(01:20) — Welcome to Pleasure Bound

(03:26) — Meet the Hosts: Kelsey and Kate

(15:00) — Road Blocks to Pleasure, Grief & Identity

(41:19) — Personal Goals and Commitments

(44:22) — Exploring Neuroplasticity & Pleasure Practices

(46:10) — Pleasure Beyond Orgasm

Pleasure. Power. Peace. In every body.

Pleasure Bound is a juicy, honest podcast about reclaiming joy, desire, and embodiment—especially in bodies shaped by disability, marginalization, trauma, grief, and profound change.

Hosted by disabled storytellers Kelsey Peterson and Kate Steele, this show blends vulnerable storytelling, cultural truth-telling, laughter, and lived wisdom to explore what pleasure really means—and how to access more of it on your own terms. We talk sex, yes—but also sensuality, nervous systems, self-advocacy, embodiment, and the radical act of loving your body as it is.

Each episode offers real conversations, practical tools, pleasure practices, and experiments in joy. We unpack shame, ableism, toxic cultural narratives, and the stories we’ve been handed about whose bodies get to feel good—and then we rewrite them together.

Pleasure Bound is a space for curiosity, collective care, softness, and spice. A place to say the quiet parts out loud, celebrate our differences, and remember that pleasure is your birthright.

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