In a world where everything is accessible, and anything is permissible, yet not all is worth doing.

To paraphrase the good book, the things I once hated I now love and the things I once loved I know hate.

In context this is profound, so my advise is get your context right and see what new things The Great I AM will do in your life..

When a child is born

they have no concept of the world that they are living in.

There have no point of reference, besides the faces that are within the preview.

They have no bad memories, no good memories.

Devoid of traumas and possibly full of anticipation and wonder.

There are so many things that they have not learnt, haven't unlearned or even discovered. All there is, is the, present and all there was is ?

Purgatory 

Ends with renewed awareness 

Ends with renewed appreciation 

Begins the flow of joyousness 

The epitome of your existence 

Happiness will find you 

As you have been promised a life 

Not without troubles 

But 

One of great adventure and 

Ultimate ascension 

Search 

No more 

Look 

No more 

Explore that 

Which is given to you 

Without hindrance 

Or doubt

Without fear 

Or coyness 

Believe in what you have found

What has been given to you 

Who has been given to you 

No strings attached 

Ok maybe a little 

Only that you improve 

You grow

You let go of past hurt 

You learn from what has been 

Focus

Tunnel vision 

5:22

Ephesians 

Speaks of submission

Speaks of presentation to self without blemish 

And it is in that I remind you to 

 Search 

No more 

Look 

No more 

Discover 

What it’s like

To give yourself 

Fully 

To let go and soar

Have you ever felt like Existence is a holding place,

Like the moments are meant to pass you by

Like there is no need for you

Just like the wrapper of an item once you unwrap it

Have you ever felt like you needed to look twice at creation

The eyes are said to be vision into ones soul. Windows to the soul to be grammatically correct. Look past the shallowness of the color of my eyes, and see your love for the world. See the innocence that everyone possesses deep within. Corrupted by the rat race, the jungle fever, the clogged up traffic, like a drain pipe filled with debri. Take your time to learn what you partners soul looks like, feels like. You never know tomorrow's not promised today.

The beginning of anything, from life to death. There's a point where something begins, even at the end of one thing another takes its place, whether simultanously or not. Take your time in this life, do not rush through it, the end is not worth getting there faster than you need to. This life was meant to be experienced and enjoyed.

My struggling Prayer

I struggle..

with the cruelty of the world

The uncertainty of the future

The unfairness that exists

The self indulgent nature of people

The expectancy of everyone

To be handed things

To be given what is not earned

To trample on the very nature of my humility

And expect me to release fortune cookies

To disregard the nature of love kindness and understanding

To put forward the interest of revenge and ownership

I struggle

Everyday

To not lose all control

To not shove everyone and anyone down a hole 🕳

The deep darkest hole possible

Away from my ever so vulnerable feelings

Away from my ever patient nature

Away from my heart that beats

The rhythm disrupted by….

The inconsistencies of workers

The incompetence of employees

The demeaning nature of the working class

That refuses to take ownership

That refuses to face up to reality

That refuses to stand up and tall

That refuses to lay in the bed that they have sown

I struggle

Much so often

To Not offend anyone

Not to criticize an individual

For their lack of knowledge

For their lack of passion

For their lack of determination

For their lack of discipline

I struggle

Ever more so slightly

With…

my anger….

My frustration…

My annoyance…

My patience…..

I struggle

With control

Not of the present

Not of the past

Not of the future

But of myself

To not take it personally

To not take it as an attack against my very being

To not feel abused by the very people I am trying to help

Lord help me stand tall

Help me walk the line that you set forth

Help me lift up my head when it all feels heavy

When it all feels hopeless

When it all feel damning

Lord…

help me be a better man

A man of a virtuous nature

A virtuous man

A man after your heart

Provide me with shelter

From the hail storm of life

From The blizzard of the days

From the heat of the midday sun

As I stand not as man

Without God,

But as a human fully focused on the Lord

For guidance

For help

For a friend

For a father

To paraphrase the words of Shadrack, Meshach and Abednego

Even if my God does not save me

I commend my spirit into your hands daily.

For my hope and faith lies in you

For all the days of my life 

To lose the sense of oneself. feeling like you do not belong, because some once said that. Ignore them and stand tall with your chin up. You belong, you are meant to be there, you are meant to occupy that space.

Shake it into Obedience

I told her it is the only way to get it right.

It is the only way to create order, through chaos.

Gone is the moment of deliberation

Gone is the time for conversation

Gone..

It is time to grab life by horns and.....

Shake it into Obedience

You cannot sit and wish no longer

It is time for what lives in the medulla oblongata to be manifest

Just shake it into Obedience