In this week's episode, the second to last episode of Season One, we wonder about GRIEF and how it shows up in our journeys of deconstruction, spiritual awakening, and growth. As each of the three of us co-hosts have had such different experiences and are at such different stages of this process from fully stepped away from the church to still involved weekly, from trauma to a gentle moving away, we've each seen grief show up in various ways and have had to reckon with it in our lives. 

Grief during this process can be such an odd emotion to navigate. You might feel shame for feeilng it at all. Or you may feel as if you deserve it for asking questions. Or maybe it blindsided you and you can't figure out how to feel good again. If you've ever felt sad, alone, disenchanted, frustrated, or angry as you've navigated the waters of deconstruction and reconstruction, we hope this conversations makes you feel less crazy, less alone, and more hopeful that there's light on the other side!

In this week's special episode, we have a conversation around parenting while deconstructing or going through a spiritual awakening, or even just while questioning the beliefs you were raised with. How do we give our kids a sense of safety and understanding when we feel like we don't concretely know the answers ourselves? It can be really nerve wracking and feel like you're walking through the dark with a blindfold, but it can also be healing and a beautiful opportunity to see what happens when we create the space for wonder.

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In this week's episode, Amber proposes the question of "Can someone deconstruct too much?" and "How far is too far before it just becomes more selfish than self care?" We talk about what that can look like, the question of, "What is the actual problem here, me or the environment I'm in?" as well as talking about whether it's a good idea or a bad idea to have permission to go out and try everything and how hard it is to raise kids who are empowered to ask questions. It's an episode that bounces around as we chat and we hope you find some solace in knowing that if you wonder about these things you aren't alone! 

In this episode, Becka vulnerably shares her deconstruction origin story of growing up in the church, being in leadership and then on staff for music ministry while navigating an affair and a divorce. She shares about the spiritual abuse she encountered and the abandonment she felt, how it affected her in her spiritual journey, and how she's navigated the time since then finding her own new path and rising stronger. 

**SPECIAL EXTENDED EPISIODE**

The Prone to Wonder girls spent a weekend together in Tampa and decided to record a live episode. The conversation centers around body image, modesty standards, plastic surgery and reclaiming sexuality. 

In this episode we each share how we've personally navigated setting boundaries with the people in our lives as we've deconstructed, worked on ourselves, and evolved as women. We discuss different types of boundaries both internal and external, how hard it can be to set them, the importance of boundaries and how to shift them alongside the shifts in your own journey. 

In this week's episode we pose the question of, "Is religious trauma real?" And if it is, what is it? Do we have it? And could we have caused it? We share about our own experiences of recognizing trauma, how we identify it, and why we think it might not be as scary to identify as it might sound. If you've ever wondered if what you feel is "religious trauma" or if you've ever wondered if everyone is just being too sensitive, we invite you to come wonder about this topic with us! 

In this episode, Amber shares about her fears (and possible heart attack) surrounding her first experience in a New Age bookshop and we address the very blurry lines between things we experienced growing up in the church and things we were told were evil by the church. Have you ever thought about how similar some of these things like manifesting and prayer, prophecy conferences and tarot readers, speaking in tongues and channeling, laying on hands and energy healers are? Join us as we question everything in this week's episode. 

We may not all love the name "deconstructing" but we did want to take an episode to define what WE mean by deconstructing. Our hope in this episode is to expand (always) the perspective on what deconstructing is, and give permission to make deconstructing more than simply "leaving a religious structure". 

In this episode we explore how uncertain (and even uncomfortable) expanding beyond old beliefs can be. Our conversations ranges from how we sit in that discomfort, what might ground us (if it's no longer some old doctrine or dogma) and how to allow for expansion.