Radio Dada

Humans, pull your forking shirts together. It takes an island to make this bullshit okay = way too fucking much bullshit. That is all. Amazingly this is me doing better.

If only someone had a brain, or a heart, or the nerve. But it’s just me and this dog against an Oz overrun with Zombies and Psychotic Sadistic Therapists and BS. Arrrrrrgh I am not Superman but I’m the strongest one I know.

Dylan & DiFranco, arrangement inspired by the Divine Miss M & an ukulele cover of ‘Joyful Girl’ I saw once on YouTube. Also inspired by my late great husband, sixteen years gone and still a huge part of the man I am, every damn day. ‘Cause I learned from you men can be sensitive, loving, humble, emotionally unavailable, comfortable, sexually fluid, courageous, strong in vulnerability, secure and still self-questioning. You are still the best human I’ve ever known and I wish I was half the person you were. Everything that’s left of you and your love I try to keep kindled in me. I love you more every year I’m alive and may I die before I forget you or lose my grasp on what made you amazing and worth keeping alive in any way in me.

Pulling self out of oubliette again. ‘Cause I gotta live with myself, what’s the alternative?

Original by Nathan Asher & the Infantry (PLS FOR THE LOVE OF LIFE CHECK IT OUT IT’S MY LIFEBLOOD & HEARTBEAT SOME DAYS ESPECIALLY THOSE BEGINNING WITH ‘T’)

Incoherent.

Words fail me.

After-action brain dump re: how I made a phone call and what’s next.

And it’s gotta go both ways. Glad of dogs, sad of people, trying to be open and flexible but get my needs met and prioritise surviving however I have to. Letting go and getting clear of what’s hazardous to my health and capacity to make informed, considered choices. Seriously, y’all, more pressure means worse performance and more resistance out of me. Humour, humility, and asking over telling are the best ways. Model the chill and kindness and caring desired, and let me make my choice.

And a dog eats a bug, plus random facts about Hawaii, and love being in the experience of the recipient (no substitutions, no refunds).