Ever feel like everything you’ve built — the vision, the platform, the path — was supposed to be for everyone else… until you realized it was always meant to heal you first?

In this intimate solo episode, Gin (your Soul Doula + Eclectic Alchemist) shares a raw truth most healers, leaders, and space holders don’t talk about:
🕯️ Sometimes we build temples for others that were always meant to hold us first.

From gathering tools out of survival…
To burning it all down in moments of refinement…
To finally letting the structure hold her — Gin walks us through the realization that her life’s work wasn’t a performance.
It was a rescue mission.
For herself.

And maybe yours is, too.

This episode is for the builders.
The rebirth-walkers.
The ones sweeping sacred spaces they forgot to sit down in.

If you’ve been hovering at the doorway of your own creation, waiting for permission to enter…

This is your sign.

The temple is strong.
It’s sacred.
And it was always meant for you, first.

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Come inside. The light’s on. The shadows have snacks. And your soul’s been whispering “yes.”

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At sixteen, I gave my heart away—and decades later, I finally understood what that love really meant. This is the story of what I lost, what I reclaimed, and the ritual that set me free.

Before the brands, there was the breakdown—and the remembering. This is the origin story of how one soul turned grief, grit, and grace into a multidimensional mission.

This might be the most vulnerable episode I’ve ever recorded. Oh wait, it is the only episode I've ever recorded... lol.

I’ve spent most of my life being the one others leaned on—the holder of grief, the midwife of transformation, the steady one.

But this week, I hit the place where I couldn’t hold it all alone anymore.

In this episode, I share why I finally launched a GoFundMe—not after the glow-up, not once everything was figured out, but right now… in the messy middle of the becoming.

This is a conversation about sacred support, shame unraveling, nervous system truth, and what it really means to ask for help while still holding the frequency for others.

At one point, I said “Can you even imagine?”—not because I thought you couldn’t, but because I was flabbergasted at how deeply wired I’ve been to equate support with worthiness and polish. That wiring is what I’m flipping now.

If you’ve ever held space for others while quietly unraveling yourself, this episode is for you.

If you’ve ever wanted permission to ask before the arrival—this is it.

🛡️ GoFundMe Link: https://gofund.me/9a63750b

Thank you for witnessing me here. Especially now.

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