Remnant Stories of Beauty from Ashes

Chapter Twelve of Box of Dreams, “Will I See You Again?”

As Peter returns home under hospice care, This intimate chapter explores caregiving, grief, strength, and the difficult path toward looking forward
after heartbreak.

01:14 Peter comes home under hospice care

02:48 Geoffrey’s support and Marie’s strength

04:51 Loving someone who may soon be gone
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Box of Dreams Chapters 10 and 11

Transition Planning and

The fall from the pedestal

Time Stamps

·       3:30 A step toward the future

·       4:01 you are traumatized, not weak

·       12:12 the confrontation

·       13:50 the cost of revenge

Want to read Box of Dreams at your own pace? Get your copy (here) FYI Audible version available on Amazon is narrated by Lisa Barnes, Red barn studio

The Remnant podcast is available on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you like to listen

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If you enjoy, please like and follow so that you don’t miss anything. New guests are posted each Tuesday, and I post the chapter by chapter reading of Box of Dreams each Thursday!

Box of Dreams is a work of fiction copyright © Faith Mehrer 2024

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Backup After the Beat: You are not crazy

Steve Eastin

September 29, 2026

A former law enforcement officer reveals what the badge can cost after the shift ends—and why the wounds first responders carry home are often the ones people never see.

01:43 – I shot my dad!

13:00 – off-duty response to school area shooting

22:07 – The personal cost of service

22:53 – PTSD: asking for help

For your own copy of Back up After the Beat: You Are Not Crazy: Amazon Book and Audio 

The Remnant podcast is available on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you like to listen

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If you enjoy, please like and follow so that you don’t miss anything. New guests are posted each Tuesday, and I post the chapter by chapter reading of Box of Dreams each Thursday!

Box of Dreams is a work of fiction copyright © Faith Mehrer 2024

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Box of Dreams Chapter Nine: Looking forward

Time Stamps

·       2:17 News about the abductions

·       6:42 Waiting for test results

·       8:19 Peter’s diagnosis

·       8:52 Ron

 Want to read Box of Dreams at your own pace? Get your copy HERE

FYI Audible version available on Amazon is narrated by Lisa Barnes, Red barn studio

The Remnant podcast is available on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you like to listen

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If you enjoy, please like and follow so that you don’t miss anything. New guests are posted each Tuesday, and I post the chapter by chapter reading of Box of Dreams each Thursday!

Box of Dreams is a work of fiction copyright © Faith Mehrer 2024

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Behind the Badge with Deputy Walker

September 22, 2026

What does law enforcement look like when you strip away the headlines, the politics, and the assumptions? Deputy Walker gives a candid look at the human being behind the badge—and why cooperation, accountability, and perspective can change every interaction. Walker explains what officers are balancing in real time: safety, split-second judgment, and the challenge of arriving at someone else’s worst moment with only partial information. From traffic stops and domestic calls to warrants, body language, and the difference between discretion and duty, this conversation reveals how quickly a routine stop can become something far more serious.

You’ll discover Why “just following procedure” can look cold from the outside, even when it’s really caution.

02:41 - Why traffic stops feel tense from the officer’s side

12:16 - How officers balance dignity with caution

24:39 - Calls that stick with you

54:30 - Accountability cuts both ways

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New guests are posted each Tuesday, and new chapters of Box of Dreams, narrated by the author, each Thursday!

Box of Dreams is a work of fiction copyright © Faith Mehrer 2024

Chapter Eight: Emma

Time Stamps

• 0:32 Anger and the decision to retaliate
• 1:03 Another missing girl
• 2:42 Peter's talk with Tuesday
• 5:19 Don't walk home alone

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Perspective changes everything but facing the future is scary, particularly when you feel defeated by your past.

Tuesday Davenport opens chapter six of Box of Dreams with a painfully honest look at transition planning, avoidance, and a powerful reckoning with fear, honesty, and the strange relief of telling parts of her story that shame has kept her from saying out loud.

This chapter lands in that tense space between insight and action, with the realization that knowing what to do is not as simple as doing it.

If you’ve ever delayed a hard decision because it felt easier to stay stuck, this one will hit close to home.

Perfect for listeners who love intimate character work, emotional turning points, and stories about growth that happen one uncomfortable conversation at a time.

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Sonia Zuccaro on survival, self-advocacy, and finding purpose after a medical crisis

In this Episode, Sonia Zuccaro shares the story behind When My Soul Stayed and the life events that shaped it:

years of being judged for her body, a long search for answers, a life-threatening infection, and two near-death experiences. Her perspective is rooted in both hard-won survival and a determination to stop living for other people’s approval.

We also discuss her other books and how she moved from people-pleasing toward a more honest, self-directed life. The conversation is equal parts medical journey, spiritual reflection, and a reminder that self-advocacy matters.

Key topics

• Sonia explains why she helped create Authors Corner with a friend as a free community event for local authors, poets, artists, musicians, and a comedy act in Montreal.
• She pushes back on assumptions that lived experiences can be dismissed or replaced by AI, especially when writing about pain, illness, and trauma.
• Sonia reflects on the line, “the truth is, I never minded my body. It seemed to bother everyone else,” and how body judgment shaped her from a young age.
• She describes how lipedema and lymphedema affected her body for years, including swelling, open wounds, compression garments, and repeated medical dismissal.
• Sonia says the most important lesson for young people is to advocate for themselves until someone listens.
• Sonia recounts the blister that resulted in necrosis.
• Her medically induced coma, waking up in a different hospital, and spending 82 days recovering, including relearning how to breathe, walk, and eat.
• Sonia shares two near-death experiences.
• turning point: she would not live the rest of her life as a people pleaser.
• She talks about becoming a “me pleaser” instead, focusing on writing, spirituality, and crafting.
• The conversation closes on a shared theme of using writing to turn pain into something meaningful and helping others feel seen.

Timestamps

(04:26) When My Soul Stayed and the cost of body judgment
(05:45) “It doesn’t matter what size you are”
(08:20) Why snap judgments leave lasting damage
(13:24) “Don’t leave, sit there until somebody listens”
(17:18) The dream of motherhood turning into a question mark
(22:22) The blister that started the medical emergency
(25:48) Coughing up blood and hearing “say your goodbyes”
(27:39) 82 days, two surgeries, and learning life again
(31:33) Writing the book as a form of healing
(33:31) The first near-death experience and seeing her mother
(35:28) Realizing the “dreams” were actually flatlines
(37:01) The second near-death experience with Ginger and Logan
(39:51) Why Sonia first felt rejected by God
(40:42) Choosing to prove she was sent back for a reason
(45:45) Becoming a “me pleaser” in the second half of life
(48:38) Choosing relationships that elevate, not diminish
(52:10) Her mother’s lesson: you come in alone and leave alone
(55:29) Sonia’s three books and what each one represents

“The truth is, I never minded my body. It seemed to bother everyone else.”

Get Sonia Zuccaro's books here:

• When My Soul Stayed
• Sonia’s Whispers
• My Chief and Me

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This reading covers chapter five of Box of Dreams by F. E. Mehrer following a reflective first-person narrator through a memory that opens into a story about friendship, seasonality, and grief. The episode centers on the narrator's bond with Peter and the emotional traces people leave behind, even in ordinary places like a park path.

• The narrator begins in the bath, using the warming water as a doorway into memory and reflection.
• A bruised knee becomes a small but vivid symbol of pain, vulnerability, and the narrator's clumsiness.
• The narrator recalls Peter's description of a brook that he imagined as heaven, which leads into the memory of Peter's Park.
• The story shifts to eighth grade, when the narrator and Peter spent much of their time together at the park as summer gave way to fall.
• Peter cancels plans because he is tired, and the narrator senses that something is wrong even before fully understanding it.
• While leaving home, the narrator hears news reports about missing girls, Emma Davidson and Sonia, adding unease and a sense of danger.
• The narrator reflects on how Peter's friendship made them feel stronger and braver.
• Fall imagery becomes central, especially ash, elm, birch, and black oak trees, with the park described as almost heavenly.
• The narrator notices the cracked sidewalk and wonders whether repeated footsteps leave permanent marks.
• The chapter closes by linking those path cracks to the emotional scars left on the narrator's heart.

00:00 - Opening the reading and introducing chapter five
00:19 - Bathwater, goosebumps, and the start of reflection
00:52 - A scraped knee and discomfort with self-inflicted injury
02:07 - Peter's idea of heaven and the shift into memory
02:43 - Eighth grade, shorter days, and time at the park
03:39 - Peter cancels plans and the narrator senses something is off
04:56 - News of missing girls adds tension before leaving the house
05:53 - Friendship with Peter makes the narrator feel braver
06:20 - Fall trees and the landscape of Peter's Park
07:46 - The park as heaven through scent, color, and air
08:16 - Watching footsteps and wondering what leaves a mark
08:59 - Ripples, cracks, and the lasting imprint of Peter

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Faith Mehrer sits down with John Panagulis to talk about the manuscript he is building from lived experience and the hard work of healing after betrayal. The conversation follows his shift from raw personal processing to creating something that can actually help other men regain their footing.We also hear Faith connect John’s story to broader themes of grief, isolation, and the lack of accessible support for men. Together, they discuss emotional regulation, group support, writing as recovery, and the goal of turning pain into a practical guide.

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Key topics

• John describes how the breakup and divorce left him angry, emotionally dysregulated, sleeping poorly, and eventually in urgent care with arrhythmia-like symptoms and numb hands.
• He shares that the first step was physical movement - working out to discharge anger, clear his mind, and create enough space to think.
• John says the project began with recognizing how few affordable resources exist for men, especially men who cannot pay for coaching or therapy.
• He wants the book to be a starting point for “the guy that’s working the forklift” and for anyone who needs a grounded, low-cost reference during crisis.
• Faith and John both note that male conditioning often teaches men to power through pain, fill their schedules, and ignore the deeper injury until it worsens.
• John says his goal is to help as many people as possible from his own experience and to save other men from having to claw their way to help.
• John’s main advice to men at ground zero is direct: no one is coming to save you, so take responsibility, move your body, cut emotional dependency, change your mindset, rebuild your standards, and remember that you are not alone.

Timestamps

00:55 - Raw first draft versus a manuscript that can actually help readers
03:10 - How healing changed John’s emotional response and self-awareness
05:24 - The breaking point: fight or flight, no sleep, no appetite, urgent care
07:12 - Discovery of betrayal and the first red flags
08:39 - Accepting what happened and starting the search for resources
09:36 - The relationship list that helped break attachment
10:33 - Why men’s healing resources are hard to find and often inaccessible
11:57 - Building an affordable guide for men who need practical support
12:48 - Why talking to someone matters when isolation sets in
14:16 - Friends and family help, but they cannot be the only outlet
16:28 - Grounding as the entry point to deeper healing
17:02 - Returning to writing after grief shut it down for a while
19:59 - Spiritual healing as part of physical, mental, and emotional recovery
22:26 - men are conditioned to power through pain
Notable quotes

“There’s nobody coming to save you from this.”

“I want to help as many people out as possible from my own experience.”

“You are not alone.”

Action items

• Move your body when stress becomes physically overwhelming.
• Talk to someone instead of staying in complete isolation.
• Use a simple list or roadmap to clarify what is true and what needs to change.
• Seek support that is affordable and sustainable, not just ideal in theory.
• If you are in immediate emotional crisis, call or text 988 for free, confidential support.