In this episode, I talk about what it really means to serve your country — and then come home to a system that forgets your name.

No healthcare. No support. Just pills, waiting lists, and silence.

This isn’t just a rant.
It’s a raw look at what veterans are really dealing with. The cost of survival. The weight of memory. The truth about how we’re treated when the uniform comes off.

I talk about my own experience with mental health, what broke me, and what (barely) kept me alive.
This episode is for every veteran still waiting for help, still holding it together, still pretending they’re fine.

You’re not alone.
And this one’s for you.

This is a reading from my book Hey Kid, I’m Sorry—a collection of letters written to the younger versions of myself I buried to survive.

In this episode, I read “To the One Who Tried to Disappear,” a letter to the kid who erased his accent, changed his name, and silenced his identity just to fit in. I wrote this book to tell the truth about what it means to carry shame, and how I learned to turn what I thought was weakness into power.

If you’ve ever hidden who you are to be accepted, this one’s for you.

This episode is about what happens when no one ever teaches you how to be human — only how to be manageable.

We go deep into the trauma pipeline: from being a misunderstood kid with ADHD… to getting labeled, medicated, and muted… to becoming an adult working a soul-sucking job just to afford therapy that keeps you stuck. This is about the cost of surviving in a world that rewards silence and punishes sensitivity.

“They don’t want you healed — they want you rebooked. They don’t want you whole — they want you hooked.”

We’re not just talking mental health. We’re talking survival. And it’s time to stop apologizing for needing more than what the system ever offered.

Someone told me I sounded like I was going crazy — like I was high, wrote something wild down, sobered up, and should’ve known better than to say it out loud.

But what if the things we call crazy are just the truths we’re too scared to admit?
What if we stopped waiting for people to break before we finally listen?

This episode is about silence, survival, and the way love can save you without ever knowing it. It’s about asking better questions — not “what’s wrong with them,” but “what happened to them?”

I’m not trying to start a movement.
I’m just done pretending silence is sanity.

If that makes me crazy, then fuck it.
At least I’m still here.
And I’m still talking.

Some people have holy books. Some people have scars. I have movies.
In this episode, I walk you through the films that didn’t just entertain me—they saved me. From Patch Adams to Donnie Darko, Pirates 3 to Peanut Butter Falcon, I break down how each one taught me something about love, rebellion, leadership, and the real version of the American Dream.
These aren’t reviews. They’re confessions.
And if you’ve ever cried during a cartoon or felt more seen by a character than your own parents—this one's for you.
Based on Chapter 8 of Fuck The American Dream – Respectfully

This is not a long episode.
But it might be the most important thing I’ve said yet.

We’re all out here yelling about sides, politics, opinions—
but no one’s asking the simplest question:
What do you need?
How can I help?

This episode is me reaching out, one more time, to remind you:
You don’t have to do this alone.
And maybe the world won’t change overnight—
but we can still choose to show up for each other right now.

So I’m asking:
Listen to this.
Then message me.
Tell me what you’re going through.
Tell me what I can do for you.

Let’s make this more human again.

Nobody teaches us how to love right.
We’re thrown into relationships with zero tools,
just repeating what we saw growing up—
and wondering why it keeps breaking.

This episode is about communication.
Not the cheesy kind.
The real kind.
The kind where you say what you mean without blowing shit up.
Where you learn to listen without flinching.
Where you stop keeping score and start building trust.

We talk about how to be a better partner.
How to stop projecting.
How to stop running.
And how to hold space without losing yourself in the process.

Because relationships aren’t about being perfect—
they’re about being present.
And most of us were never shown how.

Let’s change that.

This one’s for every kid who was told to bow their head…
and grew up realizing the world never bowed back.

In this episode, I talk about God.
Not the version in stained glass and sermons—
but the version we were handed as children.
The one wrapped in guilt, fear, and control.
The one that promised safety, love, and truth…
but delivered silence, shame, and pain.

We talk about the boxes religion puts us in,
the way school conditions us to obey,
and how the ones in power use both
to make sure we never learn to think for ourselves.

This isn’t about destroying belief.
It’s about burning down the lies that came with it.

If you were ever made to feel broken
just for asking questions—this one’s for you.

In a country falling apart at the seams, where veteran mental health gets buried beneath politics and noise, this episode is my beginning.

See You Soon, Brother is a poem.
But it’s also a goodbye.
To the kind of bond that can only be built in blood and fire—
and the kind of grief that comes when it’s ripped away without warning.

This isn’t just about war.
It’s about what happens after.
About the silence veterans come home to.
About the brotherhood we lose.
And the way America forgets us the second we hang up the uniform.

This one’s raw. It’s real.
It’s one of the deepest wounds I’ve ever opened publicly.
But I’m opening it so someone else out there doesn’t feel crazy.
Or alone.

If you’ve ever said “see you soon” and known it was a lie—
this is for you.

🎙 From Fuck The American Dream (Respectfully)
💀 Trigger warning: grief, loss, veteran suicide, and truth that hurts.

EPISODE 4 – DRUG TRIP DOWNLOADS
What if the thing that finally healed you wasn’t therapy, religion, or another prescription — but a mushroom in the dirt whispering the truth?

In this episode, we dive into Chapter 3 of Fuck The American Dream: Respectfully — where ego death, psychedelic breakthroughs, and raw emotional downloads collide.

We talk DMT, grief, God, and the moment I realized my bearded dragon understood me better than most humans.
This isn’t a love letter to drugs — it’s a wake-up call to feel everything you’ve been trained to ignore.

Come crack open the matrix.
Come remember what the universe said back.

#Respectfully 🎧