Being me right now seems a bit too hard because I am questioning everything, so why not become a blank slate and see what other people have to teach me? I don't know where I see my future which feels extremely overwhelming at times, but I believe that the more freedom I give myself in accepting ideas moving forward, the more interested I will be in my own life. I'm a crazy girl so I think it's time to accept a crazy life. 

I told you to read it. Or, I guess, you can just listen to it. A lot of my thoughts in this particular post were inspired by Billie's new song "Your Power" because it just made me feel everything. I have been in Costa Rica for a month, and the new scenario anxiety has not gone away. Life has brought me here to learn a lesson, and I sure as hell am being tested right now. 

We've all been warned, yet we all have likely done it at some point. Dating your best friend can be the most comfortable feeling in the world because you end up being able to share everything with them, but if you end up finding yourself not ready to share everything...well, that's where the heartbreak may settle in. It's tough to admit when you want separate lives because that means ending the relationship, and for the folks out there who don't quite have the skills to stay friends, you end up losing your best friend too. And that sucks. 

21 years ago I was born! We all come from love and we are introduced to this world as little balls of energy filled with much joy and curiosity. We tend to lose sight of that lively innocence and I am just here to remind you what truly makes us human. Enjoy!

Sexual assault is something that happens far too often to not speak up about. Survivors often feel silenced because it feels like something we should be ashamed of, but I hope my words are a reminder that it was not our fault and we have every right to take back comfortability in our own bodies. 

The world from the eyes of a child is extraordinary. You may not be able to remember what that feels like, but if you take a deep breath and enjoy what is right in front of you these moments of serenity seem to trickle back in. I certainly do not have all the answers, let alone probably any answers, but I can say meditation and deep breaths make life a lot more digestible. 

For anyone who has been heartbroken, you can understand the confusion I am sitting in right now. It is most certainly a process in healing a broken heart, but the bittersweet serenity you can find in this journey does wonders in understanding yourself. The lingering memories bring tears to my eyes as I long for more moments with him. But, that life, the one we built together, is gone and the only thing I can do to move forward is to accept that we were just not meant to be. 

I hate you. I love you. I hate that I want you. To remind me that some people like my face. And also show me all the others living way cooler lives than me. :/ I know I can't be the only one who feels this way about social media, right? 

I think it is important to remember those lost because their impact on us will never fade. I am learning a lot from my grief which you will see in this episode and I am able to reflect on the lessons I have learned from Rachel. She was a beautiful woman and had a heart of gold, so in honor of her, I work towards living my best life. 

Cheating is no kind of love for me. Enough said.