I have turned to Psalm 91 over many seasons of heartache. Breast cancer was no exception - in fact, God made a very strong point of reminding me over and over through the loving gifts and encouragement of family and friends.

Looking for the beautiful things God places in our worlds while walking through difficulty. More mammograms, ultrasounds and Biopsies reveal more cancer.

The hardest week of my life, in the middle of trauma while saying goodbye to my foster son, and checking my daughter with untreated PANDAS into a Psychiatric Residential Treatment Center... I discover I have breast cancer.

All too many White Christians listen to “false prophets” on TV, in the pulpit, or even from each other. Systemic racism exists in America but White Christians needs to look closer, come near to it, and re-imagine a more just society. I am guilty of every charge I lay against White Supremacy in this episode.

Vivid dreams help me to describe the elusive lie of White Supremacy and how it affects every one of us. I am guilty of all charges laid against White Supremacy.

We have dedicated our lives to learning from BIPOC and immigrant families so we can parent our internationally adopted son with eyes wide open. But the white world around us tells us we are wrong. So I have to dismantle and disconnect from anything interfering with my ability to love God and love all people the way Jesus calls us to.

The worlds I’m straddling: one of privilege and one of oppression so often tear me in two. And watching the White Church ignore systemic racism is so difficult to reconcile. I am guilty of every charge I make against the White Church in this episode.

Facing the juxtaposition of extreme poverty with excessive wealth during a study abroad trip in Bangalore, India sent shockwaves through me as White Middle Class American who was used to seeing a Redlined social-scape, although, I didn’t know we had Redlining to thank for this phenomenon at the time.

In this story, I find myself a bystander as a gunshot victim is rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night...and I am reminded of other issues of racism threading through my life and my dreams. But Jesus weaves them all together. I am guilty of every charge I lay against White Supremacy in this episode.