Sometimes the hardest thing is to let go of a dream, a wish,

When I started dating I found myself caught up in guys future plans for us. Little by little I came to find that most of it was just talk. But why would they do this? All these fake future plans intrigued me and I needed to understand the role I played and how not to get played.

One year in and I have learned a lot. There have been fun bits, bad bits and the messy bits in between. Here I explore the messy side of dating. From the virtual penpals, catfish, flakes, bread-crumbers, love bombers and the ghosts.

You hear buzz words all the time and they start to blend

When you date in the "Wild" a first impression is based on how someone looks, their body language, and the way they interact with you. You can decide then and there if you want to see this person again. Dating in the "Virtual Jungle" creates a series of first impressions, with time for you to learn every step of the way. With this pyramid of first impressions , all culminating to an in-person date the magic returns when there is a spark and chemistry is ignited.

After a Life Leap, like mine, you can find yourself Dreaming again. It is a time for childhood wonder. Reset your clock and dream a little dream with me.

What does it take to be a B*tch?

Over the last year and a half I have made a flurry of changes and discoveries, but one question remains unanswered, "What Do You Want?" This seemingly simple question proved to be anything but simple. Sometimes we get lost in everything people say we should want and lose site of what we actually want. So now I explore it all. I give myself permission to change my mind, challenge expectations and have fun along the way.

Sometimes it takes a stranger to show you, YOU. Once I saw myself through these men’s eyes I could not unsee it. Following these experiences, I questioned what kept me playing small for all these years, and what I would need to do to reclaim myself.

After being jolted awake by a toxic person, who had perfectly played the role of my friend, he couldn’t hide his true nature for long. When his façade washed away, it left me confronted with the knowledge that you do not know what a person is capable of, until you know. Through this relationship I could finally see, create boundaries and learn.